Novels by Jmartin

Cover my eyes and let me seeStole my heart and set it freeGet close and be away from meDon’t let me go and let me be.Come take my hand and let me goGo take the lead and move so slowDon’t make a step and walk belowPoint to the left and use your toe.Just lift my heart and bring it downBuild my smile and make me frownMake me queen and don’t give me crownSave my heart and just let me drown.Just win my heart and then lose meDon’t trick my mind and go fool meLet’s break my doubts and keep “maybe”Let’s do something and leave it be.Don’t do a crime and be a thiefDo not hurt me and cut me deepHelp me forget and let me keepDon’t make a move and take a leap.21 October 2015

I always throw you secret glanceMemorizing each of your stanceAlways wishing to have a chanceTo look for you in an instance.You don’t see me as I see youI like you more than what you knewSomehow my feelings can’t pass throughI’m just another friend for you.I’m happy, yes, but heart’s at warIt feels locked up inside a barI’m quite upset the way we areWe’re just so close and yet so far.I want to stand and be bolderTo hold on you and be braverTo not hold back and go deeperTo take a step and get closer.Just when I start to walk just fineTo go to you across the line,In front of me, you put a sign“Don’t take a step; don’t cross this line.”10 June 2017

Ayoko NaKumapit ako ng paulit-ulitKumapit ako kahit masakitPero kahit pala gaano kahigpitMahirap pa rin ang mag-isang kumakapit.Ilang beses akong nagdasal at umasaNaghangad na may magbabago paSubalit ngayon ay alam ko naYung dati'y hindi na magbabalik pa.At ngayon ay ramdam ko naPagod na ako, kaya tama naHindi dahil sa hindi ko na kayaKundi dahil ayoko na.Masakit pero tatanggapinMahirap pero kakayaninMalungkot pero kailangang gawinBibitaw para may matira sa 'kin.02 Apr 2018I Give UpI held on to you repeatedlyHeld on to you even if it hurts meBut even though how tight it could beIt's gruelling if effort comes from only me.For so many times, I've hoped and prayedWished that thin

Just because today is tough, Never give tomorrow up. Just give yourself a little nap And live again when sun is up. Don't beat yourself with things to do Carrying a load is up to you How much it weighs is your choice too Don't force yourself if you don't want to. I know there're things you can't escape But it's not a sin to have a break Don't handle more than you can take Cause not all thing's a piece of cake. Do each task one step at a time Untie each knot at your own time Resting for awhile is not a crime Limiting your load won't cost a dime.

The road I did not take Is the road of "would-have-been"; A choice I did not make, A place I could have been. In face of a crossroad I have to take just only one, I have to choose a single road Without going through the other one. The road I will not take Will be the road I'll leave behind; An opportunity I will not make, Only a "what if" in my mind. The road I did not take Is a future I could have known; A possibility I had escaped, A chance that was left unknown.[The Road I Did Not Take]

No matter how emotionally distant I seem to beYou can always go look for comfort and open up to meI can put down all the things I'm doing and just let you beSo please know that no matter what, you can always count on me.I can lend you my shoulders whenever you wanted to cryYou can choose to stay silent and I promise that I won't pryI can stay with you under the rain or keep ourselves dryI can keep your secrets and make excuses for your white lie.You can share to me anything and ask for my advicesI can cheer you up with treats, you can take them like advancesYou can point your enemies and we'll make fun of their facesI can accompany you until your ill feeling passes.Don't hesitate to call me whenever you needed someoneI will come to console you even if you feel like no one.You can put me as back up if you already had someoneAnd only choose to make

If you're feeling unhappy, then that's okayYou don't have to force yourself to smile all dayYou don't have to explain what you cannot sayWhen you think it's not worth it, choose not to stay. Let your worry go, you know you can't fight itWhatever you do, you know you can't fix it Let your regrets go, you know you can't help itAnd just go wherever you think you best fit. If you tire when you think, then stop thinkingIf you hate what you do, then stop doingIf you hurt when you care, then stop caring Just give up to Him whichever is tiring. He's not as tired of you, as you are of youSo be tired all you want and be lonely tooGo cry your heart out and have a drink or twoBe crazy or lost whenever you want to.

Some goodbyes are not goodbyeThey tend to make you turn and try Their endings are a bit like lieThey bite the words with just a sigh. We trust and gave another chanceWe turned away but take a glanceWe stay involved like in a tranceStepped back and forth like in a dance. But look at where we are right nowHave we stayed true with all our vow? Our past is still dragged in our nowGoodbyes are still in there somehow. We tried our best to see it throughBut both of us still feel blueThings became much harder tooSo what are we supposed to do? No matter how much we want to tryAll twists and turns will make us cryWhat's left to say is just "goodbye"And some goodbyes should be goodbye.