LOGINWas drugs his other love that he couldn't give up, or was it his true love? I had to ask myself that over and over again. I hated him! I hated everything about him. That he pumped himself full of drugs and alcohol, his mood swings when he touched me when he didn't touch me. His promises and excuses that he saw me as a stupid little girl. But as much as I hated him, I loved him as much. Was I maybe really a stupid little girl who was just desperately trying to save something that didn't want to be saved? Is it worth fighting, or should you give up at some point and leave everything to fate ?!
View MoreAre you crazy?” I asked him the counter-question. He glared at me.Then he wanted to reach for the ashtray that I was still holding in my hand.I quickly pulled it away, taking a step backwards."JOLINA, give me that fucking ashtray!" He snapped at me angrily. But I just walked away from him, went to the trash can and threw the contents into it, including the ashtray. If looks could kill!Nick looked at me so sourly that my heart beat in my throat. I probably shouldn't have done that right now. He came up to me with great strides and then actually pushed me away to reach into the trash can and take out the ashtray. I had to support myself on the kitchen counter, otherwise I would probably have fallen to the floor."Don't you have them all anymore?" I yelled at him."Don't YOU have them ALL anymore?" He hissed at me too. I stared at him in horror. Then my cell phone rang. Actually, I didn't want to answer it, but then I did."Yes
That evening David had invited everyone to his place. Jess brought Andy with her, which I didn't really like as I still hadn't told Nick that I was with him. Jess had asked David if she could bring him. David liked that because he wanted to get to know him. Jess was one of his closest friends and he wanted to know what kind of guy Andy was. Jess called me to her so that I stood with them the whole time and talked to them.I went downstairs to get a bottle of water when I suddenly heard someone was following me. It was Andy. I just stared at him in confusion because I didn't understand why he had followed me.It was a moment before he started to speak. He wanted to know if it was okay with me that he was here too, which of the boys was my friend and if everything was okay between us. He also added that Lara only had good things to say about me. Then he wanted to know from me whether Sven was mad at him because he hadn'
We were just standing in front of Nick's door. Jess rang the bell and we were immediately opened.David looked at us in amazement. "Hey girls, are you already there?"I just nodded as I walked past him."Yeah," came from Jess."And how was it? Did you have fun? ”David asked when we went into the living room.I went to Nick who smiled at me."Hey, Jo." I smiled, amazed that he was happy.Then I sat on the arm of the chair in which he was sitting."To your question David: Well, I had a great time!"I had to grin when she said that."Oh yes," Lara confirmed."You met someone?", Noah asked and Jess nodded with a grin."Lara's brother was there," she replied enthusiastically.Ron looked up from his cards - the first time since we'd walked in."Andy was there?" Lara nodded and Ron made a grimace that made a couple of boys laugh."I thought he was very nice," Jess hissed at him.
I looked at him, but he didn't look at me.After Sven explained the rules of the game to us again, he dealt the cards and we started to play. Nick lost the first lap, then Jess, then Sven and I a few times and in the end only Sven lost.When we finished the last game, Jess checked his watch."Wow ... it's already three thirty." She was amazed."Really?" I asked just as astonished.Jess nodded, got up, put the deck of cards together, and finished her glass."It was really fun, but now I have to make my way home ... sleep!" She smiled and I nodded."But that's definitely worth repeating." Nick agreed."Next time, when there is another lame party, we know. where we're going. ”Jess and I smiled."Yes," said Jess with a laugh, then put on her shoes and jacket.Meanwhile, Sven took the backpack."I'll leave the drink here." Nick nodded, got up and Sven did the same. Jess gave me my shoes and my vest





