LET ME BE YOUR EYES MY LOVE

     I went into the library, the house is empty. my adoptive parents are already at work. Feeling through the wall to check if I have reach the book shelf yet, i took out a book when i reached and sat down to open it.

     I can't read, I'm blind and stupid, i have always wanted love and was so desperate for it but i only end up being used. I felt the roughness of each page of the book, dying to know what it says, if it a romance, history thriller or fantasy book I'm holding. I used to  like reading when i was little, it comforted me alot. 

  Freya are you reading something a female voice called out, it was my adoptive mother voice, i could hear her footsteps coming closer, walking towards me. 

      Her hands took the book from my grip gently. Loving you she read out the title, i never knew you were into romance, if you want i can read it for you since you can't see she sweetly said as i smiled nodding.

      Gisella ( Freya adoptive mother) : come first, i brought you something special for a beautiful girl.

    She led me to the part that led to her room, her hands moving very fast and anxious. Be fast my husband will be back soon she warned as we entered the room.

   This Long's like lingering and short clothes are we going for a party i asked feeling what was Inside the shopping bag. 

     Gisella: But this on Freya darling, the maid will get you something to eat, after eating have a good rest because you will need it for tonight.

     Freya: What going to happen tonight.  

    GISELLA: Nothing just do what i said.

   Her voice was sternly, not shaking or waving, i nod and put what she has asked for me, it the least i could do for her taking me in, although the dress was very short, i wore it.

    Gisella: Oh Freya, for some reason you will be sleeping in my room.

    Before i could utter anything, the door slammed hard, i knew she was gone, the food came with a glass of milk which i quickly ate and rested on her bed. I felt dizzy, tired and weak as i crawled to the bed sleeping.

     Only God knew how long i must as slept, but i felt a pair of huge hands touching my thigh slowly ascending, at first i thought i was dreaming but it felt so real that i just had to wake up.

       Someone was there, his chuckled seeing my reaction, don't play naive with me little girl he said. He pressed himself on me holding one hands. I paid for you he whispers as kissed me. What nonsense i yelled biting his lip and pushing him off me as he groaned in pain. I ran outside and someone held me.

     Mom is that you i called z oh stop that nonsense Freya Gisella yelled. You are not a kid anymore and i don't want you to pretend, you are twenty four already and you need to understand. I run a brothel and you are just satisfying my customers why did you think i took care of you. It times you work and pay me for spending so much on you, sending you to school for the blind and feeding you, you better go back there and satisfy him or else i will kill you myself she warned. No i yelled back at her but i was stopped by a sound slap, she slap me so hard that i fell down injuring my knees. Boys pick her up she commanded as set of huge arms pick me up and carried me back to the room. my hand and feet were all tied up with strong room. Before they finally let me go, sorry for the disturbance Gisella said to the man who just laughed it off, she is yours for the night she continued as the door slam.

     Now where did you stop the man called, you are blind, spicy and you resist alot just how i like you he finished. I soon felt him so close to me as he began to kiss me, no matter how hard i struggle to get lose the rope were just too tight, i bit him again in the lip while he was kissing me and he slapped me so hard. Stay, i paid such a huge amount on you, you better not resist me, I'm going to fucking explore your body tonight and probably the next day.

       Ripping off my clothes, his hands unclasp my bra. He then tore out my panties since my legs were tied apart. Shaved just how i like it he said, but this will have to wait. He tongue lick my lips and then he went down slowly, grabbing one breast he sucked it hard, and then bit it too causing me to shake. He did the same to the second one and chuckled each time i shook. At this point i has stopped fighting because it was hopeless, the ropes were too tight.

    The sound of him zipping his trouser was so long as he placed his hands in between by thighs, his hands fingering my clits. At first two fingers went in and then three causing me to shiver. You are also tight he added as something strong pushed in, it was his penis. He began to thrust in from slow to fast. That was the last thing i remember before i lost conscious.

       TEN YEARS AGO

THIRD PERSON POV

    Freya and six other orphan girl were playing on tag as the nun in charge has just left them to head inside. She was hiding and was fully distracted when she and a boy clash causing them to fall.

    Can't you see the Freya yelled at the boy, who in turn  shook his head and said no. She instantly felt bad because she was the one who was distracted by a game her mates were playing.

    I'm sorry, i should have watch where i was going. It was only then that she got to see the boy clearly.  But how do you move around She ask out of her own curiosity.

   I'm already used to it the boy replied, your parents she asked again. Few blocks away he replied again. She was curious for more, he was talking to her nicely and for him, he she wasn't judgemental about his sight.   I'm Freya, what your name she asked the boy. 

   Ethan woods he answered bringing his hands out for her to shake. She was expecting him not to get the right location of where she is standing but surprisely he got it right. 

  Freya: How do you know where am standing?

    Ethan: it simple, if you were standing in front of me i won't feel the heat of the sun because you would be blocking it, also your voice seems to becoming a little bit to the right since i calculate the way we collide.

    Freya mouth drop, he talk do smart and has a nice voice, she shook is hand and excuse her self running to the orphanage to take her favourite stuff like the doll that was found with her and the book also. And ran back to meet his sad face slowly walking back. Where are you going her voice called.

  He turned around and smiled, thank goodness he said. Thank goodness what she asked him. I thought you left me all alone. I'm happy you didn't he answered just as fast. Freya smiled at the beginning of a new friendship, someone that is not a orphan,yes he is blind but to her he has eyes, to Freya those who looked at her with disgust are the blinded ones not Ethan.

       PRESENT DAY.

     FREYA POINT OF VIEW.

   I woke feeling pain, my hands and feet were untied, maybe they must have realise me when he was done. 

    Laying down feeling tried, i could only cry my eyes out. I can't believe that all these years Gisella took me in, it was never genuine, what was i even expecting, ever since i became blind,my chances of being adopted was low. 

    I should have listened to the nun when she warned me about the eye transplant but his parents urge me, they told me i would marry their son, he held my hands telling me how happy i have made him, how much he wanted to see me. 

   He promised me he won't marry someone else, always and forever for me that was what he said, and then afterward he was avoiding me, his mother who once call me daughter, called me a witch and a poor orphan. His father that once brought me toys and played with both of us was alway annoyed whenever i asked him for his son.

  The next month they moved out,he never left a note telling me how his eye is, even if he did I won't be able to read it, i was laugh out by other kids for being stupid. Getting another eye transplant was hard, the eye's was just something no one wanted to give up that easily, yet as a fool i did.

     The door open with Gisella coming in, I just couldn't get my self to call her mother when she was just a beast.

    Gisella: your first time and you slept for a day darling. Don't worry i had changed the bedsheets filled with your blood.

    I didn't answer her, but just turned my head to another direction. 

    Gisella: I guess you are still upset, any way get ready for another client today. You are supposed to be thanking me,it wasn't easy finding a client for a blind girl like you. I even gave you the best, that my girls could ever ask for.

   What time is it i asked her ignoring her words, 8pm she responds, your Next client will be here by ten get ready with this I could hear her retreating footsteps.  

     I won't leave like this, my body won't be defile anymore because of her, i know a place where a blind girl can be happy and is death.

     I decided to head out side, it was my first time going outside since Gisella adopted me but i still knew the way. I heard there with determination and followed the sound of the car and where it was coming from.