LOGIN''Sometimes I sit alone in my room, not because I'm lonely but because I want to. I quite like it but too bad sitting by myself always leads to terrifying, self-destructive thoughts. When I'm about to do something, he calls. He is like my own personal superhero and he doesn't even know it. Now my superhero never calls and there is no one to help me, maybe I should get a new hero. What do you think?'' ''Why don't you be your own hero?'' I didn't want to be my own hero I just wanted my best friend, too bad that's all he'll ever be to me- a friend. Trigger Warning so read at your own risk.
View MoreMy eyes looked between Lucas and Zack as they glared at each other from across the dining table. I swear I saw lightning flashing in the background, who knew I had such melodramatic people in my life.''Do you plan to keep making eyes at each other for the rest of breakfast or...'' I trailed off.Both gasped and sputtered as if they just swallowed a huge gulp of saltwater.''Look I don't get why you both don't like each other, I mean you guys like me so, I don't see the problem,'' I said between bites of my 'crispy' pancake.''He abandoned you for ten years and then just waltz back in your life like it never happened. That's ridiculous,''I'm sure it wasn't ten years, I was about to say that when I noticed Lucas' downtrodden look.''As if you haven't ditched me many many
When World War Three did not break out immediately, I cautiously walked to the living room. I found Zack with his arms crossed as he sat on the couch, he looked very, very upset. Kevin was there with slightly widened and panicked eyes, who looked like he didn't know what to do or what was going on.''Um Zack hey,whatcya doing here?'' I asked as I stood in front of him.''I saw on his story that you were having a party, so I decided to come over since my invitation seemed to have gotten lost,'' he said.''There isn't and, there won't be a party. Sorry to disappoint but you can go home now,'' I said.Zack looked at me with furrowed brows,'' Why do you want me to leave so badly? and, since when do you question why I come over? You're MY best friend, remember? We always visit each other unannounced,''''Yes I know that, but I'm hanging out with Kevin right now. You do know I'm allowed to talk to other people, right?''He rolled his eyes,'' I kno
I stared at Lucas with tears that blurred my vision. I don't think I've ever been so relieved to see someone in my house before.''You should have told me you were buying I would have saved my money. In fact, I should be the one to buy since I came up with the idea or at least I think so. You know what it doesn't even matter I'll put it in the fridge and no you can't have it for breakfast tomorrow,'' Lucas rambled while I continued to stare and smile.''Okay, what's up with you? Why are you smiling so much and, will you stop staring? It's creeping me out.'' he mentioned as he looked at me weirdly after placing the food he bought in the fridge.I hugged him tightly. I guess I still had my reservations about him actually being there for me. I wasn't sure if this was going to be a one-off situation or if it was going to be forever. I wanted to ask, but I kept quiet. I was afraid that I would scare him into changing his mind. Would it scare him? , or would he tell m
I smiled and waved as I watched Zack drive out of the school's car park.Just smile and wave boys, smile and wave.Truth be told I didn't have rehearsals today, well I did but not until later. For some reason, the other members of the drama club were busy during the day.I think that's what you call 'having a life' but, I could be wrong.The reason I told everyone that I needed to be at school right now was that I was ashamed to let them know about the fact that I go to therapy. I know I shouldn't be self-conscious that I was getting help, I was more ashamed of the fact that I needed help at all. I've always prided myself at being independent since I was young. During my first couple of sessions with Dr Marsha, we actually went over how okay it was to be self-aware and get assistance when you need it. In fact, she told me she went to therapy her





