Save me from myself

I watched as they buried her, her vibrant skin now dull and her eyelids closed, she no longer had her smile that would light up my world. My mother died in a car accident coming back from work, that night had been the worst. I would rather be dormant my whole life than remember that evening. I just wish she would smile and all of this was a joke but it is only a wish, I would never see her again. As the burial ended my father and I went back home with my uncle, I never liked this guy he always gave me the bad vibes.

I woke up the next morning feeling drained and my hand feeling numb. I struggled to stand up when I finally did I disinfected my wrist and bandaged it up. I took a shower, dressed and went to pick my baby. I arrived their house a few minutes later and knocked on their door."Hey Lilian, he is eating breakfast now do you want to join?" Ming asked

I got ready to go and meet the girls at Emma's place. Today I decided to wear black ripped jeans and an oversized hoodie with slides and a duffle bag with my night stuff. I won't be coming home because I know I am going to do it.I got there quiet early, I entered her house and directed myself to the kitchen.

I took a bus to Emma's place. She was quietly sleeping on the couch well that was what I thought until she abruptly woke up."So?" She asked"So?" 

Half way through the movie he fell asleep, he looked so cute just like his mommy. I carried him to his room and laid him down on his bed gently then went to my room. I kind of feel lighter like a weigh has been lifted off my shoulders. I went to my cupboard and pulled out my blades and threw them away. I slept peacefully.I got up feeling more cheerful than I usually am, I brushed my teeth and arranged my outfit for the day, I went downstairs to make breakfast for Liam which was pancakes and maple syrup. I went back upstairs t