Spurious

~ Jhade ~People love to judge but they don't want to be judged. And based on my observation, most of judgemental people are vocal and I am glad because I'm not one of them. Well, I won't deny that I am also a judgemental but at least I only did it in my mind and I managed to remain it there. No offense but, I like observing people's behavior, I don't know why but I find it more interesting than making a circle of friends. I love it when I discovered something on them or saw something fishy that they think no one has noticed. My mind speaks a lot compare to my mouth, my mind were always noisy specially in a peaceful ambiance. I think more but I speak less, just like now, my mind is complaining about how I hate the first day of class because everyone is allowed to introduce their selves.Today was the first day of our second semester, s

~ Jhade ~The room was filled with noises, our teacher for this subject was ten minutes late. There's a temporary cease of noise when a lady came inside and close the door, she was carrying a laptop and projector. She looks like at our age she didn't look like a teacher that's why everyone is shook when she introduced that she will be our professor for this subject. I caught everyone's attention when I accidentally swallow the candy in my mouth and cough countless times when she said that she's only twenty years old, freshly graduated. I honestly feel ashamed, and I belittle myself, what the fuck how can't I? She's only 20 years old but she's now already a successful one, and here I am can't even know if I can successfully finish this course.She's asking random questions as an introduction, our subject is an introduction to psychology. She looks jolly maybe because most of

~ Jhade ~I was in the middle of my painting when Jhevine open my door and I feel pissed by what she did."I always told you to knock before you come inside Jhev. How many times do I need to tell you that?" I just raised my left eyebrow when she rolled her eyes at me."Uh yeah. I'm sorry, I thought you're still not here, I'm just checking if you got home already"I look at her confusingly"Checking?"" Uh. Yeah, I saw you earlier, you go for a walk? Five a.m is so early huh""You need something?"I look away because I feel embarrassed, I do really hate when someone was looking at me." No. I'm just checking you""I'm not a kid, I'm older than you"" Yeah I know, but in making a d

~ Jhade ~Our teacher dismissed our class thirty minutes early, some of my classmates are still in our room because they are nowhere to go and so am I, staying here is better than at the canteen."I guess she's not okay? "I look at the girl next by me, we are not that close."Pardon?"I look into the direction that she's pointing out."Uh. I'm sorry, you two seem so close to each other, I'm just informing you. She's pale and she's just resting her head on the desk the whole class. "Why me? She had her circle of friends and everyone is aware of that. She do also had that someone who's always by her side this past day.After that incident in the cafeteria, we didn't talk to each other again but she still keeps on followi

"Jhade—about our project on PSY01?  Have you already choose what intelligence you're going to use?" I look at my seat mate and smile at her"Yeah—why?""Uh—did you choose to act?" I accidentally knit my forehead because of her question"No, uh—I choose the linguistic one, I'll write a short story or a poem instead. Why?""Aww. I'm sorry, I thought you'll choose the acting since you're good at it""Excuse me?""I mean—uh–don't get me wrong. I just saw your performance last time we had the role play" I just nod at her and smile, trying to remember what she's talking to. "Nevermind, I'll think an another intelligence then, sorry— I thought I can—nevermind" she just smile at me and turn her back. I look at Cybelle's back, its been a week since the day I started on ignoring her. Memories starts on flashing again, it made my head aches a lot. I close my eyes and took a deep sigh trying