LOGINSynopsis - Your own mind is arguably the greatest enemy in many cases. This is how Josh experiences, who has to experience how his own mind turns against him and he is on the verge of completely losing himself.
View MoreI'll start," he muttered. Josh nodded quickly and watched the dark-haired man pull his sweater over his head and then unbutton the shirt he had underneath. Hypnotized Josh looked at the upper body of the other, whom he had actually seen so often, but under these circumstances it looked very different to him. Josh leaned his back against the head of the bed when Mike sat down on his lap and kissed him lovingly and long afterwards. Josh's heart was racing unhealthily, his hands were senseless next to his body. Mike broke the kiss and took off Josh's sweater before kissing him again - full of passion, love and lust.Josh climaxed, followed by Mike, and when Mike pulled Josh out of himself and rolled off him, he gasped again. Mike pulled the covers high so that he and Josh were under her, in their own little world, cut off from everything. Josh was breathing quickly, as was his friend.“H-did I hurt you? It ... it sounded like ... "Josh was interrupted by Mike's laug
Mike had somehow managed to prevent the school administration from calling Josh's parents after the incident and instead gave the redhead two weeks off. For the whole two weeks he didn't want to reveal how he had done it. But now these were over and today Josh was supposed to re-enter the school. Josh was sitting on the sofa in Mike's living room, staring at the worn bandage that had graced his arm for two weeks. He had sleepless nights behind him and on those days he had only tried in vain to make up for the lack of sleep. So he had been in bed for the past two weeks, desperate and crying and without sleep. He only got up when Mike came back from school, and only because Mike asked him to."Oh Josh, I've got something for you," Mike muttered as he came down the stairs. He sat down next to Josh, smiling, before giving him a loving kiss on the lips, which he quickly deepened. Josh replied in surprise, shyly putting his hands in Mike's hair. With a smile on his face, Mike relea
You should take your life Then we stop! I promise, I promise! You should, you should, you should!Laughter followed these two sentences and Josh cried more. They were right, they were right - that was what crossed his mind."Yes, I should, yes, yes ..." he stammered hopelessly.Shall we talk to Mike too? Should we? Shall we, shall we?"No!" Josh screamed in panic and the next moment gave a loud sob. The classmates now stared unsuspectingly and confused and the teacher did not know what to do either. Josh was crying and when the teacher came to him and said in a soft voice that he should come up and that she would get Mike, he followed her forward, but continued to cry. He stood in front of the teachers' desk, lifeless, staring at the table top and letting his arms hang weakly from his body while the tears kept streaming down his face. The teacher left the room with her bunch of painfully loud keys after she asked Rebecca to look after Josh. She wasn't ent
That night, like the nights that followed, was sleepless. Mike tried everything in his power to help his friend, but when Josh heard the voices and they terrorized him he was unable to accept help, so he blocked, pushed Mike away and kept crying. At the weekend they spent their nights in the trailer again, but that didn't really seem to calm the redhead. Even on the night from Sunday to Monday he could not sleep. He had fallen asleep in Mike's arms, had seen his father and heard laughter, felt pain and screamed - then he was immediately awake again. The voices got louder and louder until Josh started crying and sobbing hard again in desperation. And that night Mike had tried to help him again."Hey ... Josh, I'm here, hey ..." he tried to reassure Josh, but it didn't help. Mike tried to put his arms around Josh, pull him into a gentle hug and warm him, but Josh kept slapping his arms away, his hands clenched into fists that he even hit himself with every now and then. He sobb





