LOGINSamira lives her life in the small fishing village of Sandycove and is completely satisfied as it is. A terrible stroke of fate turns her, the world of her family and closest friends upside down. She wants to be strong and help and in the desperate attempt to do the right thing, she eventually loses herself. She makes decisions that are wrong and when her downward spiral can no longer be stopped, she lands unchecked on the ground of facts. "I'm sorry." The only thing I see when I think of him is this goddamn car and how it explodes in a fireball. "He struggles with himself and I see the deep crease between his eyes. "I'm so sorry." I stroke his cheek. When I lie in my bed in the evening, he "I'll drive you." Taylor walks in, he's wearing his dress uniform and I swallow hard. He's freshly shaved, his hair is neatly gelled back and there he is again, at least on the outside: My knight in shining armor ... "Okay." I say quietly and take my coat from the cloakroom. I'm exhausted from this week, as much as I wish Taylor would finally open up and talk to me about his feelings, so little do I know if I can handle them. We get to his car; He and Jake loved this car. It's actually nothing special, a Volvo V70 station wagon. She had planned that Jake would buy one of those cars and they could finish it off, but ... Jake is no longer there. He will be buried today. I get in on the passenger side and Taylor silently takes the wheel. I can't stand the silence, I put my hand on his forearm. Will Taylor ever come to terms with what happened?
View More"Stop thinking about him." He admonishes me and I look at him in surprise. "What Sam?" He laughs softly at the expression on my face. "I know you pretty well by now and I know that you think about what he's doing now."“You are right.” I admit “What should I do? Despite everything that happened, I love him. ”I shrug my shoulders."Eyes on the New Year!" He toasted me, "Everything will be fine," he assures me."As you think." I toast with him with my non-alcoholic champagne."Happy New Year!" Aimee joins us and her glass crashes against mine, which spills over."Wow Aimee, you clearly still have too much energy." I laugh and hold my glass up. "Happy New Year to you too." I prefer to toast her from a distance."As I know my girlfriend, that was probably a few glasses of champagne too many." Grins Ian and we watch Aimee wishing a few more guests a Happy New Year."Yes, I think so too and you will get the receipt f
Do you miss mum?" I ask quietly and my dad smiles."Of course, not a day goes by that I don't miss her." He knocks next to him and I sit down next to him. "But I talk to her a lot, tell her about you and Ava. Of course, I wish she could experience it all for herself. She does too. ”He smiles again and I look at him blankly. "She lives on in you and Ava, she is part of you." He explains to me and I nod."She is always with us." I look at the star on my bracelet.“And believe me, honey, you and Ava, you both got so much from her. Their strength, their assertiveness, their loving and unique nature and their selflessness. ""I love you Daddy." I kiss his shaved cheek for a change."I love you too, my darling." He gives me a loving smile."I have to go now, I have to get up early tomorrow." I drink the rest of my tea and look at him apologetically.“Sure, we'll see you again soon, my sweetie. I love you, never forget that
After dinner I want to stop by Annie and Carl for a moment, because at least I promised my dad to see me at least for a moment."Give them my best regards and tell them that I'll come over with Matt and Liv on the 31st." Ava asks me and I nod with a smile."I'll do that and you please drive carefully to Joan and Frank tomorrow." I look at her carefully. She and Matt have decided to spend the days between Christmas and New Years with his parents and I can't blame them, because Joan and Frank are really lovely people and as I know them, like my dad, they are totally mad about them Liv."But always." She grins and hugs me. "I'll be over with Liv in 14 days." She promises me and I smile happily."I would be really happy about that," I confess."See you later Daddy!" I call quickly over my shoulder before I slip into my jacket and go to my car.Twenty minutes later I'm standing on the porch of the MacKenna house clutching my little present for Ca
That's nice, will you help me decorate everything a little more? Ava, Matt and Liv are coming in an hour. ”He points to the box with Christmas decorations and I suspect that the Christmas tree, if there is one, is still unadorned. I raise an eyebrow and my dad shrugs."Daddy, it's December 24th." I chide him with a grin.I'm supposed to decorate the whole house in an hour?Seriously?"And? All this decorative stuff isn't mine, you know that. ”He goes into the closet and brings up two more boxes. "After all, I got her from the attic."“Thank you, then I will first dedicate myself to the tree. You have one, don't you? ”I tilt my head."Sure, it's Liv's first Christmas." He winks at me and I look for the Christmas tree decorations from the boxes and go into the living room. Honestly, the tree couldn't have been bigger. It takes up almost a quarter of the living room and I laugh softly. My dad does almost anything for his





