Unconditional Love

What?" I look at her in horror. "How do you imagine that?""Pack your things, take a shower and I'll take you to the plane." She nods to me."It's getting harder and harder for me not to see that as a punishment." I know I sound defiant, but I notice how I am raising my defensive shield to full strength, otherwise I would not be able to survive this.First I go to the bathroom and stand in the shower, the warm water pelts me and mixes with my tears.'Jonathan would never have wanted that for you ...' it echoes over and over in my head. Why can't she tell him John, he hated it as much as I did to be called by our own parents' full name, but they have never been very considerate of our feelings.Why should they start now of all times?I clench my fists and try to regain control of myself, something I have perfected over the past few years.On the outside the radiant, fun-loving young woman who never leaves anything out, but fragile insi

With that she goes and I look out of the window, I have a view of the city center, quite built up and nothing to see of the sea far and wide.I will really miss that, I could see the ocean from my apartment in LA and I loved it ...The ocean reminds me of him, because I was close to him.I used to go surfing so often, but I haven't been on a board since three years ago.Maybe I would do it again someday, because I loved it when the wind and the sun made me forget my worries for a moment ..."So, you're equipped with that." Grace comes back, gets me out of my thoughts and puts a box on the bed. "Here's a new Sim card, Heather said you left yours with her." She hands me an envelope. "My number is on it, please call me." She comes to me and puts her hand on my crossed arms knows, all of this may not be what you imagined, but your mum is desperate. I can only guess how much John's death affected you, but Ana ... "she puts a hand under my chin and force

I don't give everyone information." He laughs "Besides, I didn't know you were studying law." He adds, "Come on Ana, this is your first day ..." He puts his hand on my forearm "... I wanted to Offer you to go through the material with you. ”He offers me and I tilt my head."That's really nice." I thank you."Was that a yes or a no?" He looks waiting in my direction.I have to stay out of anger, in any case ..."Unfortunately no, I think I know who to turn to." I sigh again. "Thank you anyway.""You're welcome." He nods slightly."Nate, I have to ..." I put my free hand on his, which is still on my forearm, "Basic rights are waiting for me and I hope I'm not a total loser too.""Cheer up Ana." He replies encouragingly and I start looking for the lecture hall. In fact, I am relieved to see that I can really keep up with the level in this subject, and I go into the lunch break with a somewhat relaxed structure.I withdraw to

Dex takes his tutoring very seriously and for the next 8 weeks I am studying every night without exception. He helps me finish my theses, proofreads them and helps me a little here and there. Except, of course, the work for accounting and commercial law, which I have to write alone like everyone else, but I can use his library and thus save myself the evenings in the university library.Accounting law and business law are becoming my favorite subjects alongside European law, because that's where I see Nate and I'm happy to see him.He doesn't correspond at all to the image with which my previous long-term and short-term relationships had to compete, but a smile from him is enough and I feel better.My heart is beating faster and I can feel my cheeks start to glow.As nice as this feeling is, I limit myself to looking at him secretly, because I can't take a step towards him.He's my teacher and that means problems.And I have to stay out of p

She's just pretending that the conversation didn't even take place yesterday, she ignores it."Here's a present from me and your dad." She holds out a small present and I look at her in surprise.I carefully unwrap it and hold a car key in my hand.“Seriously mum? I don't live in LA anymore, just in case you've forgotten. ”I put the key on the table."But you'll come back, until then he'll be safely in our garage." She whistles and I go into the kitchen.I need a coffee, otherwise I won't survive this ...My dad is in the office and I'm not even surprised, I spend my days in LA looking forward to flying back to Dublin on January 2nd.The banquets become a spectacle that is second to none. Every day new guests and always smiling friendly and providing information about whether I have managed to get clean in the last three months. I didn't even know that I had a problem with alcohol or drugs ...Okay, I'd like to have