True Bond
That evening, after another, slowly creeping hour, he had admitted to himself that Sylvie had been right on another point as well. Not only was he jealous, but he had feelings for Janna that went beyond the usual for a good friend. Feelings that were much stronger than what he felt for Sylvie and were the reason for his jealousy. After this insight a rushing wave of emotions broke over him. Even today he couldn't say when his feelings for Janna had changed, let alone when he had started to find her attractive.
For a long time he had thought about how to deal with the new situation. At first he would have loved to run over to Janna and wake her up in the middle of the night to confess his feelings to her. But he quickly dismissed that thought. Janna was madly in love with Aaron and he was just a good friend to her.
As it should be, he added again affirmatively in his mind.
But from that moment on, the meaning "good friend" got a bitter aftertaste for him. He tilted his head back and looked up at the dark sky.
A friendship that was previously fulfillment has now been devalued by the little word "only". But he didn't want to devalue their friendship, he wanted to uphold it. Love broke, as he had seen with his parents, and friendship could last and grow for a lifetime. And that was what he wanted to have Janna in his life forever. She had become too much a part of his little family, part of his ideal world and at no cost in the world did he want to endanger this unity. Friendship, that's how it should stay. Even now, three years later, he stuck to that decision.