45. Really

I could feel my self whimpering my body shaking slightly. Someone calling to me a familiar voice a safe place I needed to reach. Through groggy eyes I find my comfort.

“Little Wolf wake up. Solaris wake up it okay I’m here wake up.”

Once I finally opened my eyes to see Azrael I reached to him raping my arms around him holding him with everything I had. I was never going to let him go. To feel the anguish she felt having to leave Azrael and Lucifer behind is so unnerving. I never want to experience it for myself that was enough for a life time.

“It was memory Azrael you can never leave me I will never leave you. To feel her pain if it was real I don’t think I would survive it.”

I met his lip with so much need he start at me with wide eyes.

“How many times have I told you I’m not going anywhere and I won’t let you if you wanted to. What was this memory about that it effected you so much.”

His hand caressing my cheek while his thumb grazed my lips.

“Nothing really just she had to go back Michael was looking for her but the pain she felt leaving you. I dare say she loved you more then I do. I didn’t even know that was possible.”

“You do realize that she is you.”

“No. I’m not her even with the memories they don’t feel like me Azrael. I hate to say it even if I do get them all back the way I feel and think will still be mine. Just mine with a lot more knowledge.”

“Whatever you say Little Wolf.”

“No even your nickname for me is different then hers. She was a Celestial and Angel. I’m half-breed a Wolf I share my life with Aurora she never had that and I would never give it up either. I’m supposed to bring a new world or something according to your prophecy what if there’s another prophecy Azrael and everything we are doing is wrong.”

He sat up so fast it made me jump he actually looked angry.

“Listen to me when I say this I will only say it one. You were born for this born for me there’s no turning back our bond is solidified. Everything is already set in motion. We will open you up to the rest of your powers, break whatever bond your mother left on you. Then free Lucifer and take back Heaven and our lives. Michael will pay for what his done to us to you.”

I start at him as anger filled I could feel Aurora growling in the back of my mind as I stood to face him the best I could.

“Is that all you want revenge on Michael and Heaven. You say we are bonded but you still haven’t opened up to me. You block my attempts at reading you I can feel you anger I have done nothing wrong. I love you I do but you scare me at times you want me to be this other person that I can’t be. I will never be that powerful that pure. The thought of releasing the Devil terrifies me. You keep secrets from me like just now you know it was my mother that put the bond on me? When was you going to tell me. Also I know you are hiding something about Lilith and it’s big I can feel it every time I try to bring it up. We are supposed to be in this together whatever this is.”

His eyes softened and something resembling fear crossed his face and his brow frowned and he couldn’t meet my eyes.

“Azrael! Answer me!”

“I’m so sorry Solaris. I love you know that. Promise me you will not leave me for this.”

“Your starting to scare me please just tell me.”

Then all of a sudden images started flashing through my mind. Of him and Lilith together, fucking, laughing, and killing, like a sick pack of blood suckers. Then Lilith with a pregnant belly. Her holding the child in her arms as he attacked her throwing the child then disappearing into darkness his hands around her throat. When he returned to the baby it eyes glowed smoky white.

Then images of my mother and father along with Legion and a women. All of them stood on a star each at a point while the women stood in the middle. She chanted they all cut their hands blood flowed in the shape of the star till it reached the women in the middle. Then Azrael handed the women a vile of blood. The rest of the given blood pooled in to a wooden bowl. The women then emptied the vile in it more chanting the bowl caught fire then diminished reveling black liquid. She handed the bowl to Azrael he drank from it then my father and finally my mother. Legion then approached her holding a golden box when he opened it a bright light shined blinding everyone and entered my mother. Then the women fell to the ground blood dripping from every where .

As fast as the images came they disappeared bringing me back to face Azrael. He looked defeated and broken I wanted to go to him but I needed to step away gain my bearings. I turned an ran and just keep running till Aurora made her self known and we shifted, and continued running we was good at running. Fury filled us growls and snarls erupted from us howls louder then we ever bellowed through the forest. We ran in to trees and ripped then from there roots our heart raced till it was the only sound we could hear. Then our nosed burned with a familiar smell of rot and we found ourselves on the edge of the Stygian Forest. I shifted back covered in mud and derby. I did the only thing I could think of and called out to Legion maybe he could explain what I just saw. I didn’t care about my nakedness I needed answers.

“Legion I know you can hear me. I am your Queen show yourself.”

“Hello Solaris. To what do I owe this honor meeting you in such a dark place.”

“What do you know about my mother.” He stood before me a smirk on his face.

“I knew you would call to me looking for answers.”

“From what I remember we used to be friends now tell me what happened that night with my parents and Azrael? There was a women to I guessing she was a witch.”

“Yes she was a witch. We was making ready your vessel.”

“My what?”

“With your blood and your immortal soul we put your life into your mother.”

“Wait you mean I was created by magic.”

“Yes and no. Your mother bared a child. Your parents power would of cancelled each other out and the child would have been born powerless a mortal. It was decided there union long ago would be the means to return you to life.”

“So your telling me that you all plan this? That the baby they should of had doesn’t exist because of me.”

“In a matter of speaking. Your return was always the plan but it had to be done at the right time the perfect aliment of the stars blocking Heavens view.”

“But How?”

“Very simple really I saved your soul before it could be completely consumed by the earth and Azrael had your original blood. The perfect time the perfect spell and here you are.”

“So you all created me you all brought me back, Why?”

“To full fill your destiny. Just know the path I have seen ends much differently the what Azrael sees.”

As fast as he appeared he was gone. Leaving me with my head spinning. I could hear howls coming from the forest around me the pack out looking for me no less. I didn’t want to harm them but I’m not finished with Azrael. I shift back and we head back to camp.