LOGINLiving her life by the rules and limitations because of her disorder, Hailey Leigh Alvarez, a 17-year-old girl with ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) wants to be free. She wants to experience being able to live. Living for her is being able to shout whatever you want without worrying about the side effects. On her 18th birthday, she made a decision that made her life different. She met people with the same desires as hers. Painting. That summertime, she decided to let go of all her worries and live her life as if she'd die tomorrow. What awaits Hailey beyond her boundaries? What will happen to her if she finds out something that turns her life upside down? "You are not living. Living is different from just existing."
View MoreHailey."I can't sleep." I said to myself as I roll on the other side of my bed."Why can't I sleep?" I asked myself with my brows furrowed, I rolled one more time on the other side of my bed.I opened my eyes, frustrated that I can't fall asleep. I woke up earlier than expected. It's just 3 am. I can still sleep for about two hours until the sunset but here I am, sitting on my bed facing my window.It's so quiet. I don't know but I don't find it calming. I want to hear some tweeting of the birds, the sound of raindrops, the sound of Yaya calling me for breakfast, the sound of morning. That's what I want.I'm so excited for later that I can't sleep now. Maybe that is the reason. I stood up not knowing why. It seems like my feet controlled me. I wore my slippers to avoid the cold floor.I don't know where my feet are taking me but I just walked. I
Blake."Ash, are you sure you'll be fine going home?" Dara asked when we got out from the studio.Our shirts are filled with paint colors. We are all messy because of what happened earlier."I must be and also, it's not like it's the first time that I will be scolded by my mom. I'll be fine." I answered and tapped her shoulders with my smile showing her that I am telling the truth."Are you sure? You can stay at Cassian's place if you're not okay with going home." Inez tried to convince me but I immediately shook as a no."Yes, of course. You can." Cassian inserted in our conversation."Still a no. I'm fine. What are you guys thinking of me? Am I that weak in your eyes?" I asked them and shook. I let out a chuckle and continued walking but they answered me in unison that made me stop and turn around to them."Yes and no."
Hailey."Hailey, it's time for your lunch." I heard Yaya's voice echoed from outside my room.I've been locking myself in my room for hours now. Since that encounter with my Mommy happened, I didn't bother opening my door.I don't know why I'm doing this but all I know is that I don't want to talk to anyone now. I feel like I just want to sit or lay down my bed. I feel lazy.It really do be like this sometimes."I'm not hungry, Yaya." I answered her while I was still here laying down my bed, staring at the
Hailey."Here. Drink this. It'll calm you down." The woman wearing that white robe said as she gave a glass of water to me."Thank you." It was all I could say because I can feel Mommy's stares at me."How many times did I told you that you can't force yourself?! Hailey, you're sick. We've been trying to find a cure for you and here you are, making your illness worst. What do you want? Do you wanna die?!" She yelled at me and after yelling, there comes the deafening silence."Mommy, I think I can now. I didn't force myself. Believe me. I think I can now-" I was about to explain myself to her but she immediately cut me off."No, you can't and you will never be read





