DELUSION

PrologueNovel by RaiseTitle: True loveLove is a beautiful thing or so it seems. The feeling of being in love is happiness itself, maybe.Love can be everything but it can cost you everything. Indeed it's mysterious and can change one's life dramatically for the better or for the worse.It can be sweet or it could be painful.Love cannot be calculated, mathematic is more comprehensible than love for some people.Illogical, undeterminable, love will come without warning, or so I think.So, what is love? Is it a sort of affection?Love is incomprehensible sometimes, and yet, every day countless people experience the feeling of falling in love. Nevertheless, from my personal experience, sadness always comes after happiness.Love is indeed a wonderful thing but if a person were to be deprived of this happiness, what would be the consequences?I am interested in this humans feeling; I think that it's a beautiful thing bu

That day, Tracey didn't come to our meeting place. I never imagined that I would feel so lonely, even though I was always alone writing my novel before. She became a special existence in my life before I knew it.At that time I thought 'So this how it feels to be lonely huh...'It was not like I didn't love someone before, but it was always a one-sided love. I was really happy when I found a girl who seemed to be interested in me and understands my interest.Before, I never thought that eating alone outside was pretty boring. I couldn't write at all.Bored and without imagination, I finally decided to go to the Cafeteria once in a while.Usually, I don't pay too much attention to my surroundings and make sure to not cause trouble to anyone. However, that time my eyes was wandering around unconsciously, searching for a certain silhouette.The cafeteria was crowded as usual and I didn't even know what I want

How do you know that you love someone? Is it Because you feel great when you are with that person? Because your heart race when they talk to you and your face become red every time they are next to you, then you constantly think about them?Of course, these are facts.However, I knew that I loved her because it hurt. Yes, It hurt more than anything.It hurt because I couldn't do anything about it and it hurt more because I was myself.I probably imagined the worst at some point but witnessing it happening in front of my eyes was a different matter.That's why I didn't even think about it when I went to work as usual that day. Maybe, I could have handled the shock of the thought crossed my mind.Tracey didn't come to our meeting place that day too. Even though I wanted to talk to her and prepared all night to the point that I didn't even get enough sleep.'Why didn't I go to see her though?' Ye

That evening I got a single message, and all of the mixed-up feelings inside of my heart burst out.[Tracey: Hi :)]I just kept starring at my phone. Tossed it on my bed then picked it up and did that at least five times. Why? I didn't know the reason but I was just angry."Hahahaha, is she making fun of me or what?"The scene from that morning kept flashing back inside of my head. However,  I still replied.Again, that time too I chose the worst way to convey my feelings.[Me: Good evening...][Tracey: I was surprised today,  I didn't  know that you worked there...it's  amazing (●^ ^●)>]She replied instantly.Irritated,  I showed my frustration in my messages.  I was more pathetic than I thought.[Me: That guy is your boyfriend after all... Why did you lie to me...][Tracey:...Hahaha, no Jacob is just my fri