Chapter 1: She listened close to me

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• DELUSION    Chapter 6: who are y*u?

  That evening I got a single message, and all of the mixed-up feelings inside of my heart burst out.[Tracey: Hi :)]I just kept starring at my phone. Tossed it on my bed then picked it up and did that at least five times. Why? I didn't know the reason but I was just angry."Hahahaha, is she making fun of me or what?"The scene from that morning kept flashing back inside of my head. However, I still replied.Again, that time too I chose the worst way to convey my feelings.[Me: Good evening...][Tracey: I was surprised today, I didn't know that you worked there...it's amazing (●^ ^●)>]She replied instantly.Irritated, I showed my frustration in my messages. I was more pathetic than I thought.[Me: That guy is your boyfriend after all... Why did you lie to me...][Tracey:...Hahaha, no Jacob is just my fri

• DELUSION    Chapter 5: How does it feel?

  How do you know that you love someone? Is it Because you feel great when you are with that person? Because your heart race when they talk to you and your face become red every time they are next to you, then you constantly think about them?Of course, these are facts.However, I knew that I loved her because it hurt. Yes, It hurt more than anything.It hurt because I couldn't do anything about it and it hurt more because I was myself.I probably imagined the worst at some point but witnessing it happening in front of my eyes was a different matter.That's why I didn't even think about it when I went to work as usual that day. Maybe, I could have handled the shock of the thought crossed my mind.Tracey didn't come to our meeting place that day too. Even though I wanted to talk to her and prepared all night to the point that I didn't even get enough sleep.'Why didn't I go to see her though?' Ye

• DELUSION    Chapter 5: How does it feel?

  How do you know that you love someone? Is it Because you feel great when you are with that person? Because your heart race when they talk to you and your face become red every time they are next to you, then you constantly think about them?Of course, these are facts.However, I knew that I loved her because it hurt. Yes, It hurt more than anything.It hurt because I couldn't do anything about it and it hurt more because I was myself.I probably imagined the worst at some point but witnessing it happening in front of my eyes was a different matter.That's why I didn't even think about it when I went to work as usual that day. Maybe, I could have handled the shock of the thought crossed my mind.Tracey didn't come to our meeting place that day too. Even though I wanted to talk to her and prepared all night to the point that I didn't even get enough sleep.'Why didn't I go to see her though?' Ye

• DELUSION    Chapter 4: I don't know anything at all...

  That evening I was thinking about Tracey again even when I slept. The darkness made me feel relaxed and I thought that I began to think efficiently.I took a deep breath."Fuuuuuuu... It's time to face reality..."My feelings were in a mess for a while now so I needed to gather my thoughts.First I needed to determine the feeling that I had for her, that's where it all begins.'Do I love her?...'That was the first question that I need to face honestly because everything will be all right if I didn't love her in the first place.'I am not very experienced when it comes to love but all I know is that you just want the person you love to look only at you in a special way... However, all of these years I never met such a girl...'At that moment I realized something.' Tracey didn't show her softness to anyone... Am I special?' I began to have some hope again.

• DELUSION    Chapter 3: Everything was just inside of your head

  That day, Tracey didn't come to our meeting place. I never imagined that I would feel so lonely, even though I was always alone writing my novel before. She became a special existence in my life before I knew it.At that time I thought 'So this how it feels to be lonely huh...'It was not like I didn't love someone before, but it was always a one-sided love. I was really happy when I found a girl who seemed to be interested in me and understands my interest.Before, I never thought that eating alone outside was pretty boring. I couldn't write at all.Bored and without imagination, I finally decided to go to the Cafeteria once in a while.Usually, I don't pay too much attention to my surroundings and make sure to not cause trouble to anyone. However, that time my eyes was wandering around unconsciously, searching for a certain silhouette.The cafeteria was crowded as usual and I didn't even know what I want

• DELUSION    Chapter 2: Dream girl

  That day too, I was sitting on that bench again. However this time I was hoping for someone to come. A girl that I didn't even know the name."Hello, Raise..." That soft voice, that beautiful figure that every man fantasizes of, at least once in their life. That's what I saw and I couldn't avert my eyes from her."Hi there... You are here again today too huh.." Honestly, me and my big arrogance. I couldn't say that I dreamed of her that night though.She sat naturally next to me as if it was normal for her to be there."Sorry but I forgot to ask your name yesterday... " Always keeping my composure I asked."Oh... Hahaha, My name is Tracey Turner and I'm from the French department..." That was really bad for my heart, she was just beautiful. I have already imagined the name of our first child at that moment."And you?..." Embarrassed she asked with a small voi