Deal

Early morning on Saturday, I went towards the bridge above the Bagmati river which was big due to the flood. It was the rainy season and people were watching it from their houses. I guess they were enjoying it but I was not. The thought of jumping in it came on my mind. I was tired of living this life where life was fucking me every day and guess what I was still a virgin. The thing about life is that it fucks even the virgins without taking their virginity.I came down and slowly taking a slow step I went towards the river thinking about life and why was I so frustrated. I always made the wrong decision. The people I knew were either getting a job or married or have become parents and I was still here not being able to make the right decisions, Just wondering where life would take me. I had to hear so many things at home about how I don't even have a job. My parents hated me. They treated me like some kind of cursed child. I was fed up. People were shouti

I was looking outside the window. The scene was beautiful. I could see the garden then river and forest above it. It felt good here even though I was quite frustrated not being answered but I didn't want to go back to my parent's house. They were so cruel to me. There I was always depressed. They always found a way to taunt me and from day to night I had to hear them say how pathetic I was but I didn't want to stay here too. They were strangers and I don't know their intention. Why do they even want me here? I mean what could a girl like me give them? They are already so rich themselves."Hey" I heard a voice which I recognize to be Rima's. I didn't bother to turn. "O..key I will answer all the questions you have in your mind."I then slowly looked at her not believing."Come here, sit," she said patting the bed "How long have I been here?" I started to ask questions."A

2 months laterMy life was not any less fucked up. As always luck was nowhere to be found. I know, I know, everyone says those who work hard don't need luck but that's bullshit. What you gonna say when you are left behind just because of one shit or while giving exam you failed a subject by one mark? It sucks. Luck rules everything. I thought I would get a job but out of 20,19 got selected and I got left out. Wow, my life.My parents have started to talk about my marriage but I couldn't bring myself to tell them I don't want to cause I know even if I say I don't want to it doesn't matter. They gonna force me anyway. I went home to find a car parking outside the house and deep down I knew whose car it was. It had been two months, no contact and suddenly, ugh. I didn't want to go inside instead the thought of going somewhere else came on my mind so I don't have to face him but I can be wrong. Anyone can have the same car as

I shrugged and started to walk out but he put out his arm and  blocked my way."Where the hell do you think you are going?" I could feel a slight anger in his voice.I rolled my eyes and he stared at me, waiting for me to talk."Guest room. I guess we don't need to pretend to be married when there are only two of us in this house, right?"He clenched his jaw, dropped his arm, and came closer."You are living in the same room as me," he said in a low voice. "You don't owe me. It was just a deal. Deal to get married, not to be your wife," I said feeling annoyed. "Whatever, you are not leaving," he looked behind me. I know he was angry but I didn't care."Oh, so what are you going do to stop me?" I asked, daring him to stop me.He came closer, narrowing his eyes. He slid his arm around my waist, pulled me close to him,

I was in the garden when I got a call from my sister. She told me they were expecting us tomorrow for Dar. Hell, I didn't even know Teej was already here. I have no new sari. Obviously, they would expect you to wear a sari. I don't want to and I only have that two sari's I wore on our wedding day.(Teej is a festival where Nepali women celebrate by keeping fast for the long age of their husband or young girls keep fast to get a nice husband. Some even keep fast without drinking water. ) I went inside and Rima was there with the devil, talking. I was about to go towards my room when Rima called me. I stopped and turned to look at her. Devil was also looking at me. Our eyes met but I focused my attention towards Rima."Hey," she said. What shocked me was she hugged me but I didn't hug her back. She hugged me so suddenly. I wasn't expecting that. I mean, I don't expect anything from anyone but that was something I would never thi