Novels by Rainn

Early morning on Saturday, I went towards the bridge above the Bagmati river which was big due to the flood. It was the rainy season and people were watching it from their houses. I guess they were enjoying it but I was not. The thought of jumping in it came on my mind. I was tired of living this life where life was fucking me every day and guess what I was still a virgin. The thing about life is that it fucks even the virgins without taking their virginity.I came down and slowly taking a slow step I went towards the river thinking about life and why was I so frustrated. I always made the wrong decision. The people I knew were either getting a job or married or have become parents and I was still here not being able to make the right decisions, Just wondering where life would take me. I had to hear so many things at home about how I don't even have a job. My parents hated me. They treated me like some kind of cursed child. I was fed up. People were shouti

I was still furious about the kiss and more than that he forgot me while she was there. I skipped breakfast so I don't have to see him. I came down to tell Tina that I will be preparing for lunch. Tina told me not to make food spicy because he doesn't eat spicy food.I told her, I will make sure about it but guess what? I made it so spicy that even the spicy lover wouldn't eat it. I giggled thinking about how I am gonna make him pay and imagined him rushing to drink milk or water.I knew that it would make him angry but who cares. After lunch was ready I told Tina to call him but he didn't come out so Tina took food to his office. I felt quite bad about it and thought of making the food again."No, he deserves it," I told myself.Food was too spicy and what if he doesn't eat it and stays hungry? The thought of him staying hungry made me feel bad more than him being angry. Tina came out with the message that he wants

Next morning, After I prepared breakfast I went to the garden without having it because when I asked tina to call him, she said he wasn't in his office. I was enjoying gardening when he came with breakfast. I looked at him and he smiled. I washed my hands and sat on the bench. We then ate in silence."If you don't mind, I was thinking.. if...you know..i .... I want to take you out...." He said nervously, playing with his hand. I looked at him and laughed a little. Was he nervous?I just sat there looking at him and he frowned looking at his hands when I didn't say anything."For... Dinner," he said nervously."I didn't mean to.....laugh," I said feeling bad and He nodded.Question filled my mind. I mean he never asked me to go out before."Before? Girl you have been married for what maybe 10 days?" I told myself. I was in my own thought while he was looking at me, waitin

We came back after like maybe two hours. The crowd was huge and the line... oh don't ask about the line in the temple. I was worn out. My legs were hurt and my feet were aching. We came inside and found out rima had already left. I went straight to the room and remembered that I haven't thanked him. He entered the room and I could see he was exhausted. He gave me a tired smile."Thanks," I said and he just looked at me for awhile, probably thinking why."For this," I said showing sari.He nodded. Even though I was angry at his behaviour that gift meant a lot to me. After some time he went out and I was all alone in the room.I was fasting and.... for his long life. Yes, for him. I thought I would be able to fast without drinking a drop of water but as time passed it became difficult for me. I know this marriage was fake and he forced me in it but I don't know why I was fasting for him. I know it's kinda weird.

I went straight to take the shower cause I wanted to cool my mind. I sat on the shower feeling bad about everything. My energy was totally drained. I shouldn't have gone there but if I had not, they would have come here or called devil to visit them. Anyhow they would have made me go there.I came out and got ready to sleep but there was no sign of him. I looked around, went to his office but he was not there. I came back and sat on the bed. Where was he? I got up and looked outside from the window and he was in the garden. He was still in the same clothes that he wore in the morning. He didn't come up to change? Or oh, he went directly to the garden?I felt confused and then realized, holy crap. Is he mad because of what happened in the car? Or he must have felt bad but why would I care? I rolled my eyes and went to watch series but couldn't focus on it. After some time I looked at the watch and it was almost 12 but he had not come back

The next morning, I was all alone in the bed. I don't know why but I didn't like it. Today we were going to my parent's house so I got dressed. Dar was at night but prarthi told me to come early. I stood at the window admiring the day and waiting for him but as I looked down he was on the bench reading newspaper. Was he not going with me? Maybe he doesn't want to go? Why would he? But I know they called us just because they wanted to see him more than me.My legs took me to the garden. I stood staring at his back, thinking if I should go near him or not. He kept the newspaper and looked straight. what if he says he doesn't want to go? What am I gonna say to my sister? My parents will taunt me the whole day for not being able to bring him. No, I will beg him to go with me.I slowly went and sat on the bench. Tina brought tea for both of us. She smiled and left. I sat there watching at the trees thinking about how to ask him and then finally I said.&n

I was in the garden when I got a call from my sister. She told me they were expecting us tomorrow for Dar. Hell, I didn't even know Teej was already here. I have no new sari. Obviously, they would expect you to wear a sari. I don't want to and I only have that two sari's I wore on our wedding day.(Teej is a festival where Nepali women celebrate by keeping fast for the long age of their husband or young girls keep fast to get a nice husband. Some even keep fast without drinking water. )I went inside and Rima was there with the devil, talking. I was about to go towards my room when Rima called me. I stopped and turned to look at her. Devil was also looking at me. Our eyes met but I focused my attention towards Rima."Hey," she said. What shocked me was she hugged me but I didn't hug her back. She hugged me so suddenly. I wasn't expecting that. I mean, I don't expect anything from anyone but that was something I would never thi

I was still furious about the kiss and more than that he forgot me while she was there. I skipped breakfast so I don't have to see him. I came down to tell Tina that I will be preparing for lunch. Tina told me not to make food spicy because he doesn't eat spicy food.I told her, I will make sure about it but guess what? I made it so spicy that even the spicy lover wouldn't eat it. I giggled thinking about how I am gonna make him pay and imagined him rushing to drink milk or water.I knew that it would make him angry but who cares. After lunch was ready I told Tina to call him but he didn't come out so Tina took food to his office. I felt quite bad about it and thought of making the food again."No, he deserves it," I told myself.Food was too spicy and what if he doesn't eat it and stays hungry? The thought of him staying hungry made me feel bad more than him being angry. Tina came out with the message that he wants

Next morning, After I prepared breakfast I went to the garden without having it because when I asked tina to call him, she said he wasn't in his office. I was enjoying gardening when he came with breakfast. I looked at him and he smiled. I washed my hands and sat on the bench. We then ate in silence."If you don't mind, I was thinking.. if...you know..i .... I want to take you out...." He said nervously, playing with his hand. I looked at him and laughed a little. Was he nervous?I just sat there looking at him and he frowned looking at his hands when I didn't say anything."For... Dinner," he said nervously."I didn't mean to.....laugh," I said feeling bad and He nodded.Question filled my mind. I mean he never asked me to go out before."Before? Girl you have been married for what maybe 10 days?" I told myself. I was in my own thought while he was looking at me, waiting for

We came back after like maybe two hours. The crowd was huge and the line... oh don't ask about the line in the temple. I was worn out. My legs were hurt and my feet were aching. We came inside and found out rima had already left. I went straight to the room and remembered that I haven't thanked him. He entered the room and I could see he was exhausted. He gave me a tired smile."Thanks," I said and he just looked at me for awhile, probably thinking why."For this," I said showing sari.He nodded. Even though I was angry at his behaviour that gift meant a lot to me. After some time he went out and I was all alone in the room.I was fasting and.... for his long life. Yes, for him. I thought I would be able to fast without drinking a drop of water but as time passed it became difficult for me. I know this marriage was fake and he forced me in it but I don't know why I was fasting for him. I know it's kinda weird.

I went straight to take the shower cause I wanted to cool my mind. I sat on the shower feeling bad about everything. My energy was totally drained. I shouldn't have gone there but if I had not, they would have come here or called devil to visit them. Anyhow they would have made me go there. I came out and got ready to sleep but there was no sign of him. I looked around, went to his office but he was not there. I came back and sat on the bed. Where was he? I got up and looked outside from the window and he was in the garden. He was still in the same clothes that he wore in the morning. He didn't come up to change? Or oh, he went directly to the garden?I felt confused and then realized, holy crap. Is he mad because of what happened in the car? Or he must have felt bad but why would I care? I rolled my eyes and went to watch series but couldn't focus on it. After some time I looked at the watch and it was almost 12 but he had not come ba

The next morning, I was all alone in the bed. I don't know why but I didn't like it. Today we were going to my parent's house so I got dressed. Dar was at night but prarthi told me to come early. I stood at the window admiring the day and waiting for him but as I looked down he was on the bench reading newspaper. Was he not going with me? Maybe he doesn't want to go? Why would he? But I know they called us just because they wanted to see him more than me.My legs took me to the garden. I stood staring at his back, thinking if I should go near him or not. He kept the newspaper and looked straight. what if he says he doesn't want to go? What am I gonna say to my sister? My parents will taunt me the whole day for not being able to bring him. No, I will beg him to go with me.I slowly went and sat on the bench. Tina brought tea for both of us. She smiled and left. I sat there watching at the trees thinking about how to ask him and then finally I said.&n

I was in the garden when I got a call from my sister. She told me they were expecting us tomorrow for Dar. Hell, I didn't even know Teej was already here. I have no new sari. Obviously, they would expect you to wear a sari. I don't want to and I only have that two sari's I wore on our wedding day.(Teej is a festival where Nepali women celebrate by keeping fast for the long age of their husband or young girls keep fast to get a nice husband. Some even keep fast without drinking water. )I went inside and Rima was there with the devil, talking. I was about to go towards my room when Rima called me. I stopped and turned to look at her. Devil was also looking at me. Our eyes met but I focused my attention towards Rima."Hey," she said. What shocked me was she hugged me but I didn't hug her back. She hugged me so suddenly. I wasn't expecting that. I mean, I don't expect anything from anyone but that was something I would never thi