Gift

I went straight to take the shower cause I  wanted to cool my mind. I sat on the shower feeling bad about everything. My energy was totally drained. I shouldn't have gone there but if I had not, they would have come here or called devil to visit them. Anyhow they would have made me go there. 

I came out and got ready to sleep but there was no sign of him. I looked around, went to his office but he was not there. I came back and sat on the bed. Where was he? I got up and looked outside from the window and he was in the garden. He was still in the same clothes that he wore in the morning. He didn't come up to change? Or oh, he went directly to the garden?

I felt confused and then realized, holy crap. Is he mad because of what happened in the car? Or he must have felt bad but why would I care? I rolled my eyes and went to watch series but couldn't focus on it. After some time I looked at the watch and it was almost 12 but he had not come back so I looked outside if he was still there and yes he was. I stared at his figure thinking if I should go there or not. Sighing, I went to the garden.

I stood behind him, looking at his back then I went near and stood beside him. He didn't bother to look at me. 

"Why.. why are you still here?" I asked.

"I want to be alone," he muttered. I felt like he was angry or upset?

I stared at him for some time.

"I don't think I snapped at you in the car. If that's what you are angry about.....I am sorry. I didn't mean to." I said in a low voice.

"Ok," he said not looking at me. I looked at his face thinking maybe he would look at me but he didn't. Somewhere I felt bad.

"I really am sorry and... and thanks...for taking my side back there," I said. He didn't respond so shaking my head, I left.

I mean, if he was angry, he should yell at me or tell me about it but no, he always acts like this. I waited him for a while but he didn't came. I went near the window and stood there watching him. I didn't mean to snap at him. Why am I always like this? I always think I am having a normal conversation with people when in reality I am snapping at them and then I realize it later after they tell me I was rude.

Tears rolled down my cheeks. To be honest he is always so calm and tries to talk in a nice way but I am the one who always behaves badly. I went to sleep after an hour. Later at night, I felt the other side of the bed getting heavy. I knew it was him who pulled me. He said something about I don't know what and all I heard was faint "sorry" It was like before we were married. I used to hear those voices, It means he was the one.

I woke up to find him sleeping. He looked so handsome. I brush away his hair aside. He slowly opened his eyes and the flashes of the night came back. I got up and looked at the room, the color was different, furniture was changed but the bed was the same and then I looked at the window. Hell, it's the same room how couldn't I figure it out before? He kept me in this room back then when I was here. How could I be so dumb? so, he was the one who always whispered those words to me after I was asleep. How much I tried, I was never able to sleep fully at night. I was always half asleep but Now after our marriage that he started to sleep with me, I slept well with my mind at peace. He used to sleep in the same bed as me? This Boka.

Boka ( like a playboy or who want girls only for sex )

I glared at him. I was so angry. He looked at me confused.

"Tell me why?" I almost screamed.

He got up and was about to speak when I showed him my hand. 

"You were the one who used to whisper those words while I was asleep. You kept me here in this room back then so you could sleep in the same bed....sleep with me. It was your room? You kept me in your room back then and now.....Oh and you changed the color and furniture so I wouldn't be able to recognize it was the same room." I snarled.

"I am so dumb," I thought to myself.

"I..I wanted..... you to be safe,"

"Or why don't you say you are a Boka." I snapped.

"What did you say?" he caught my wrist gritting his teeth. 

I snatched my hand and got out of bed. I went out not believing what I just found out. He was the one Ugh. I used to think it was a dream. Whenever I feel like I am behaving bad with him or I am being rude, he proves me wrong and he gives me another reason to be angry at him. Now, I know what he wants, but why me? He can get any beautiful girls and they would easily give him everything he wants. He is rich, handsome but why me?

Today it was Teej, When I came back I saw a red sari on the bed. I remembered rima asking me to go for shopping, it must be her. It was the first time someone had given me gifts. Yep never got any gifts. I wore it along with other jewelry and went down. I heard voices in his office then rima came out of the door and stared at me. 

"You look gorgeous...who..." 

"A..h..h thanks for this. It's really beautiful," I said giving her a soft smile.

She looked at me for a while and then her eyes widened. 

"No, no, no I didn't," she said.

Devil came out of the office but I didn't bother looking at him.

She looked at him.

"Oh gosh Amol, it's beautiful. How did you get that sari and you didn't give her by yourself?" 

I felt his eyes on me.

It was him who gave me this gift? 

"I..." He started to say but I cut him off.

"I am going to the Temple," I said changing the subject, looking at rima.

"Ok, then I will come with you," Rima said and I nodded.

"No," the devil said and we both looked at him. 

"I mean, I will go with her." He said.

Why does he wants to go with me now?

Rima grinned and he rolled his eyes at her. 

I went towards the door and he followed me. when we were out of her sight.

"You don't need to do this," I told him showing my sari "And I can go alone so don't bother yourself."

"I don't want my wife to go alone," he said giving me a soft smile. "And the Temple must be crowded so let me." 

I know even if I start to argue he will not let me go alone. Today, I was fasting and I don't want any drama so I let him come with me without arguing.