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• Don't fall in love with me yet...   I think I might need a check up after this

  Chapter 13today's my last day as a single rebellious pringle. I regret the whole agreement about only having a face reveal the day of the wedding…everything still feels unreal, from the women who's busy with my henna to the family members enjoying sweets and baked delights. Having to look at everyone come up to me and hand me a gift, and a duaa(ask Allah for something).Elham was still not herself, but respected the traditions and did what was needed of her. She hardly spoke to me. Soon she would be moving into her apartment down the road, my parents insisted on her staying with them until she could settle down, or at least hash out her issues with her parents, but she was determined to leave. Unlike me who suddenly felt like home was the best place to be rather than living with a stranger for the next few weeks.I tried to sleep it off but the wedding getters got to me, so I was up all night near a punching bag, which I stared at knowing that I

• Don't fall in love with me yet...   An adventure built for us

  Chapter 12~Elham's arrival~I looked up at my parent's faces, they looked at me bluntly. I felt fear creep up and down my spine. It was time that I face the music, I placed my bad on the single sofa in the room, and watched them.She slapped me, I held my face and watched my father tear up. How the Jahannam (hell) does that even make sense…I did not know how to feel, I felt more upset then afraid. My mother began waving my medical records in my face, everything around me began spinning. The four tiny walls I grew up in suddenly felt like a prison.I swallowed all the disrespect I was about to throw at them, leaving the house. Yes, they finally found out about what I had done, my relationship with Zain, the drugs, partying, and all-round me being a disappointment.My parents want Zain to compensate me through marriage 'fixing what we broke… '. The thought made me shiver, the guy had driven me to therapy once and I'm sure he'll be pleas

• Don't fall in love with me yet...   I should have rejected your kindness..

  chapter 11I dressed in the attire mother prepared for me and wore the fancy jewelry that my father handed to me last night.I sat in my room as I listened to the chattering of the arriving guest, I took a deep breath in and walked out smiling.I saw all my cousins, high-school friends as well as the auntie's I grew up with. I took a seat and waited for them to announce the event. I approached a few of them while savories were being served seated near Elham majority of the time.A few hours later after everyone settled in, we began opening up the presents and that's where the crowd cheered up. We laughed together and joked about what was to be in the next one.My mother in law gave me her blessings and everyone was severed food. They left after a few hours. I could not wait to remove the heavy itchy dress that I was forced to wear.After taking a shower my future spouse phoned me, for the first time we spoke for hours on the phone. Str

• Don't fall in love with me yet...   Let them know I'll face it.

  Chapter 10Four years dedicated to studying art, and this year was the most productive yet challenging one. When I first set foot into campus I was fresh out of matric, I had much planned out for my art career, I was filled with ambition, and a burning passion to succeed …I did not allow what my family had to say get to me, I stood up for myself and my happiness, but, it is sad how now, I have zero control over what's to come.I ranked amongst the top 3 for the first time in 4 years. Zafar as number 1 in his coarse not that I care, it was nothing unusual.The past few weeks were very exhausting, but it was worth it. I can leave knowing I made something out of myself, that I have grown from a shy introvert to an extroverted individual full of confidence. my passion still lived inside of the walls built to protect my soul.That aside, I leave next week and return in January for the annual graduation ceremony. Elham completed her course as well, she

• Don't fall in love with me yet...   What if, I don't want to say goodbye?

  Chapter 9Zafar had not contacted me after the entire studio incident. It is understandable… he was put in a very awkward situation. I would reach out to him but is it really worth it at this stage? I have a few moths left before I get married to a stranger and I'm not wiling to give up my japan opportunity any time soon.I miss him though something I choose not to lie about, almost everything reminds me off him, another reason why I stayed away from the close friends concept, excluding the backstabbing part.We stopped calling, texting and hanging out… we saw that the relationship was taking a wrong turn, and islaamically I was not ready to deal with all the consequences. Elham was out of the hospital and back on track… she managed to kick depression in the face and attend her therapy successfully, I'm happy that she's finally taking care of herself.She invited me to one of her sessions, but I'm not the Feely type… I prefer action over wor

• Don't fall in love with me yet...   I hate this feeling...

  Chapter 8~Elhams clash with zayn~" you'll be discharged tomorrow. "he said handing me my food." thank you, doctor, please don't forget to give me the therapist address."" noted, and you'll need to see a dietitian as well, your progress is phenomenal… and my apologies for what happened," he said looking me in the eye," oh yes someone's here for you."" it's okay doctor, I'm fine. You can let the person in."I was annoyed with all the sympathy I had been receiving lately, I felt like I was seen as pathetic, and filthy.He walked in and I immediately felt my tummy knot up." what do you want?" I ask him turning my back towards him." salaams to you as well," he said placing the flowers he had bought on the counter, " your favorite, tulips."" walikumsalam, funny how you remember now only."" I heard what happened, I'm sorry."" Zayn…I don't need your pity or sorry. Please leave me alone."