13. Letting Him In

Anthony got me a glass of wine, and join in beside me laying next to me in his bed, and pulled me onto his chest. He kept quiet as he entwine our hands, and that was when I feel his energy flowed to my body.

I've never felt anything like it before. Ann told me that she had opened up a pathway, so I could be connected to Anthony. But I didn't expect this.

It was like he was giving me his energy. He was letting me feel his emotions, letting me peeked inside his soul. It hit me like a tidal wave, all his love, his hurt, his passion towards me. I could feel his sadness for the last couple of days.

"I'm sorry Anthony." I let go of his hands, it was just too sad.

My tears falls to his sadness. I held out my hand to cupped his face. "I'm truly sorry that I've caused you to hurt so much."

"Just know this Lilian, I love you and I would never intentionally leave you. I've been in love with you for the longest time in my life. Since the first night you scream next to my room, I've always wanted to protect you, to take care of you. Please don't push me out, cause I would never leave you." He slowly lifted my chin, and kissed my lips slowly.

"Sleep now Lilian, I will love you in your sleep." He kissed my cheek, and I drifted off to the best sleep I've had in a while. His energy and his love seeped to my body, flowing throughout my mind until my tippie toes.

I woke up the next morning feeling a bit groggy.

"Anthony, could you get Ann for me. I'm not feeling too good." I said shaking his shoulder trying to wake him up.

He quickly got up, and get Ann for me. She told him to tell Martha to prepare my breakfast in the dinning area.

But I didn't hear the rest as quickly get up, and went to the bathroom and starts puking my guts out.

"Ann why is this happening to me?" I asked when she finally joins me, and rubbed my back lovingly.

She told me that it was like a cleansing for drug addicts. But instead of drugs in my system, I got an overdose of bad spirit. She said that my energy needed to gradually, get back as it was.

Anthony was back to my side holding my hair up, while I was puking on the toilet bowl.

"God, I feel so sick." I slumped to the bathroom floor.

"You should've just let me die. I can't do this, I'm too weak for this. I want to be with Janet and David, I miss them Anthony. I want to be with them." I cried my heart out, but Anthony just stayed there. He wouldn't let me go.

"Lilian, I love you. I need you to stay with me. I don't want to lose you. I can't lose you too."

Ann was on my back side now, her palm barely touch my shoulder. I could feel the tingle of energy that she was sending out to me.

"Lilian, I need you to open up to me. Take my energy, come honey you can get trough this. It'll get easier I promise you."

Suddenly I felt so lethargic, Anthony kept on holding me to his chest. I couldn't feel my arms, my chest was constricted like I couldn't get enough air. I kept on breathing trough my mouth. My tears couldn't stop falling. I was cocooning my self to Anthony, he was rocking me, holding me tight in his embrace.

I cried out to Ann, telling her to let me go. "I can't do this Ann, I'm too weak. You need to let me go. I'm done Ann, I'm done, I want to see Janet, I missed her." Then everything went dark, I couldn't hear Ann, I couldn't feel Anthony. I felt so light like I was in the ocean, rocked by its gentle wave.

I woke up in the darkness, I could feel Anthony. He was still holding me, sleeping soundly beside me in his bed. I could feel something sticking in my hand, I tried to get up but I couldn't.

"Anthony." My voice sounded raspy. I could see shadows lurking outside the windows, their nails were scratching trying to claw its way in. I shook his body awake, seconds later he opened his eyes and quickly became alert.

"Lilian you're awake. Here let me get you some water. You were screaming a lot." He helped me to sit, and gave me a glass of water.

"I'm so sorry about the IV." He pointed at the needles and small tubes going in my arm.

"You fainted couple of times, and you're dehydrated. It's either this, or taking you to the hospital. Ann got her doctor friend, to give you a house call." He kissed my temple,and keep on forcing me to drink more water.

"Lilian, I love you baby. I need you to pull trough for me. I can't lose you. Please talk to me." He took my glass, and put it down on the side table.

"The lights, please turn it on. They're clawing on my feet." I pleaded to Anthony. He let me go and quickly, then turned on all the lights in his room and he called out to Ann.

"Honey, you're awake." She hugged me tightly and kept on hugging me, while releasing her positive energy to me. They let go of my feet, and there were no more scratching sounds.

"Thank you Ann." I sighed.

She checked on my feet and all of my battered body. "Anthony please prepare her a bath. Lilian already opened herself to you, it'll be easier this way. I'm going to hold her for awhile. But I think she's pulling trough."

She kept on holding me telling me to survive this. I could feel the warmth, her scent was like the first week of summer morning and I took it all in. My body tingled to her energy, I could feel goosebumps as her vibe of energy run throughout my body.

Anthony was waiting for Ann, as she let me go and gave her space to Anthony. He carried me to the bathroom, Ann help him with the IV carefully so it wouldn't get wet. Then she left us to our privacy, as she said that she was going to get Martha to prepare me dinner. He gave me time to wash my face and brush my teeth.

He helped me strip myself naked, and cupped my face and kissed me. I could feel his emotions flowing through from his lips to mine, and then coursing through my body making me warm.

The warm bath relaxed me, and I finally smile. Anthony stroked my hair, getting it wet and poured shampoo on it. He massage my scalp making me moan, it felt so good.

"I miss seeing you like this Lilian, I miss hearing your moans." He stroked my cheek and pecked me with his lips.

I sat up and smile at him. "Kiss me Anthony." He reached out and pull my face closer to his and gave me a deep kiss. I was opening my mouth, then feel his tongue caresed mine. I could feel his love, his passion embraced my body, engulfing me in his warmth.

"I love you Lilian, my sweet Lilian." Anthony let go of our kiss. He finished rinsing my hair, and helped me out of the bath and dried off my body. He continued to take care of my cuts and put ointment on my bruises. Then dressed me in my pajamas, and guided me to the dinning room.