Finding Love Again

Now we're facing each other, about half a meter separates us and we read in the other's eyes again. Actually, our eye contact was never broken off.I see all the stresses and strains of the day in Linda's eyes. Her father's death, his abuse. Concern for my health, while her gaze slides for a fraction of a second to my hand in a cast. The essentially relaxed evening and the associated slight clouding of the senses from the slight intoxication we both have.My fingertips tingle and I can no longer hold back not touching them. Tenderly I stroke a strand from her face and Linda closes her eyes with relish when my fingertips touch her velvety skin. I continue to trace the contours of her face with my fingertips, those soft features, the straight nose, the closed eyes. I finish my delicate exploration with her lips, first pass it carefully before I let my thumb slide over her lower lip with pressure. The next time I looked, I replaced my fingers with my lips, greedily soakin

Why can't I get them out of my head? I haven't seen her for 6 full weeks and still thought of her at least once a day. Seeing her again today was like an apparition. She beamed and greeted us all with a hug. When she briefly hugged me, I would have loved to never let go of her. But I just can't allow these feelings for her. Can't love her because I do.What would the others say when I was with her? They are friends of both of us, but they would certainly laugh at me. My best friend Micha would ask me, shaking my head, if I couldn't smile at the prettier one. But Linda is beautiful. She is beautiful. Not in the classical sense, but in Rubens' time she would have been idolized. Yes, Linda is overweight and not just a little.I have to tear myself out of my thoughts to avoid swimming against the wall. I puff, shake off my thoughts that are not going to help me and look at our trainer, who tells me to get out of the pool, which I do immediately.I'm the first to arr

But I want you with me. Without you, I don't have anyone to talk to either. ”Sophie continues."But you are the only one." Linda continues bitterly."No. I also want you to be there. ”Was that me? Did I just think or say it out loud?Silence. Then I hear both of them whispering softly, but I don't understand what they're saying."Leon?" I then hear Sophie and am now one hundred percent sure that I said it out loud."Yes?" I pretend to be ignorant and would like to bang my head against the wall. Now they know that I overheard their entire conversation.Sophie whispers something to Linda with a hiss.“You… you really want… that ME come with you?” Linda asks, after a long pause, quietly."Yes why not.See you outside, ”I reply and quickly grab my things and disappear from the cabin.I just blow dry my hair briefly and then go into the entrance hall, where Micha is already w

I'll get rid of myself.", Micha suddenly calls around and I lift my gaze, which has been glued to the table top recently. An hour has passed since the toilet incident and more shot glasses have gathered in front of me.“I have to go to bed too.” Hanna joins in and Gina and Karl agree. They begin to put on their jackets without paying any attention to the rest.While the others are still getting dressed and paying, I look around and notice that only Linda, Sophie and I are sitting at the table.“I have to get my bus too. Are you okay? ”Sophie asks Linda quietly. This sits slumped in its place and clings to a beer bottle. I can't tell how much she drank, but her glassy eyes tell me it was too much.Compassion rises in me. She gets drunk to avoid the rabies of her fellow men. Now I also know why she didn't want to come along at first, she seems to have seen something like that before.Linda doesn't answer and Sophie's gaze wand

Show me your shoulder. I want to see them. ”Franz demands with a sigh. He has already given up, because Linda is something special to him too. Even if he tries to treat us all equally, Linda has a special position. One could almost speak of a father-daughter relationship. His real daughter trains in Linda's group and their families are friends.Linda swears softly and then takes a hissing breath in. I can no longer keep myself in my hiding place, I really have to see her shoulder.She is pulling her right arm out from under the T-shirt, exposing the joint and her swimsuit. The shoulder is completely blue-violet and I can just suppress a startled gasp. So does she want to swim?"Fine makes me a tape bandage," she says meekly under Franz's horrified look.“I can't force you to let it go. But I ask you to take care of yourself. “, Implores Franz Linda, tucks a strand behind her ear and then goes his way.Linda also goes back to Sophi