CHAPTER 8

Miguel's POV

Sabi nila walang sekretong hindi nabubunyag. Kahit anong tago mo lalabas at lalabas ito. At kapag kumalat na ito, Ihanda mo na ang sarili mo sa mga dapat mangyari.

When I open my locker  i saw a red envelop. I'm a little bit curious on it, who put on this in my locker? maybe one of my admirer. But, because of curiousity I suddenly opened it. Habang binabasa ko ang laman ng sulat para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig. Nanginginig ang kamay ko pagkatapos ko mabasa ang laman ng sulat halos mabitawan ko na ang papel na hawak ko. It can't be! It can't be happening, I was frustrated sa nabasa ko. Sino naman ang nagpadala nito? Binasa ko ulit ang nakasulat.

Miguel,

Hi, Miguel it's been awhile since we meet. I know your happy right now at alam ko kung bakit. Gusto ko lang sana kamustahin kayo ng pinsan mo na si Patricia, Masaya ba? Masarap ba?haha, I've never thought na ganyan ka pala ka incest.  Your such a jerk! I know your dirty secret my dear and soon it will reveal. If you love more, you will die early.

                       -J&M

Who wrote this? Who is J&M? I don't know he/she. Hindi ko hahayaan na sirain niya ang buhay ko, kaya kung sino man siya, humanda siya. I crampled the envelop so that no one can see it.

I'm about to throw the envelop when someone tapped my shoulder. "Hi Migs," it's Micey who tapped my shoulder. I'm still on shocked.

"H-ello," i'm uttering with my word. Hindi parin nagsisink in lahat ng nangyayari sa'kin, I've been blackmailed with anonymous sender, and I'm eager to know who is it!

" Hey! Are you okay? You look pale Migs," Micey said in a sincerity.

"Yeah, i'm okay, Just don't mind me. By the way, why are you here?" I asked her bakit siya nan'dito.

"I was just get my books in my locker and then I saw you.  You look tense," She said.

Tinignan ko nga si Micey at dala-dala niya nga ang mga libro niya. Wala naman siguro siyang alam. Of course wala talaga siyang alam kaya erase the negative thought about her, She's been a good friend of mind.

"Ahh, ganon ba," I don't have anything to say because I felt statue and I don't know what i'm gonna do to deal with this anonymous sender.

"Are you sure you're okay?" She asked me while looking into my eyes, those eyes seems familiar to me but I don't know where I've meet it.

"Yes, I'm okay, I'm just not feeling well today," I lied to her. Dahil walang dapat makaalam sa nangyayari sa'kin dahil tiyak na masisira ako at ang buong pamilya.

"Oh, I guess you should take a rest, you look so pale, you want me to accompany you to the clinic?" She suggested.

" No,  I can handle myself thanks for your concern," I rejected her offer. I want to refresh my mind alone, anytime i'm going to be crazy because of nervousness I  felt.

"Okay, If you need anything, I'm always free. By the way i gotta go, and lastly, if you have problem don't hesitate to tell me and keep always what you doing," when she said about her last word I felt like it's something but maybe im just too paranoid. Micey is a good friend.

Buong maghapon Ako wala sa sarili hindi ko na nga naiintindihan pinagsasabi ng teacher namin, hindi ako mapalagay sa nangyari sa may locker room, Iniisip ko din kung nakatanggap din kaya si Patricia ng envelop. Dapat ko ba siyang tanungin? Or wag nalang baka mag alala lang yun.

Papalabas na sana ako ng school ng may biglang tumawag sa'kin.

" Babe," it's Sofia. I almost forgot na may girlfriend pa pala ako. 

Naglalakad ito patungo sa direksyon ko sa may gate.

"Babe, kanina pa kita tinatawag hindi mo ba ako narinig?" irita nitong sabi.

This past few days hindi na'ko pumupunta sa bahay nila o ihatid sundo siya sa school dahil lahat ng atensyon ko napunta lahat kay Patricia. Well, Sofia was too busy to her academic I'm tired of it. Ako nalang lagi nag-aadjust sa relasyon namin. She can't blame me.

"I'm sorry babe," walang buhay kong sagot.

" Are you okay? Napapansin ko na wala ka ata sa sarili mo, At hindi ka na rin pumunta sa bahay, I missed you," saad nito. Habang hinahawakan niya mga kamay ko upang tingnan kung okay ba ako. I can see in her eyes na nag-aalala ito sa'kin.

" Okay lang ako babe, busy lang ako kaya hindi ako nakakapunta sa bahay niyo," pagsisinungaling nito sa nobya dahil palagi naman itong walang ginagawa kung hindi ang makipagharutan kay Patricia.

"I see, let's date babe," Sofia said. She wait for my response but, it's look like I don't wanted  to have a date with her. 

"Hey! Babe are you still there?" Sofia asked. I'm not in myself anymore even me I don't understand myself. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin.

"Y-eah! I'm s-orry babe i had this headache and it's sucks me like hell," Miguel said just like he have an headache.

"I'm worried about you babe, you want me to take good care of you?" Sofia In a worried voice. 

" No babe I'm okay, I'm just tired."

Hinalikan ko si Sofia sa may noo niya at nagpaalam na uuwi na'ko ng maaga dahil masama ang pakiramdam ko. I felt guilty sa ginagawa ko. Sofia doesn't deserve this stuff but what i'm going do naguguluhan na'ko sa sarili ko I love them both. Ayoko na may mawala ang isa sa kanila. Kung dumating man ang araw na papipiliin ako sa kanilang dalawa hindi ko Alam kung ano'ng gagawin ko at kung sino ang pipiliin ko. This is all my fault fallen with two people is not my intention, is not that easy as you think. You can't blame me i'm just a man who have needs.

Papasok na sana ako sa kwarto ko ng makita kung papalapit na si Patricia sa'kin. "Kuya Miguel ang aga mo ata umuwi?" Nagtatanong na sabi ni Patricia sa'kin. Imbis na sagutin ko yung tanong niya at bigla ko siyang nilapitan at niyakap ng mahigpit. 

Pagkayakap ko sa kanya at tila nawala nanaman ako sa sarili Kong katinuan. Para akong naadik na hindi ko na Alam kung papano makawala sa pagkakaadik ko sa kanya.

"Kuya are you okay?"may pag-aalalang sabi nito sa'kin.

Ewan ko ba kung bakit kami humantong sa ganitong sitwasyon bigla nalang nangyari ang dapat hindi mangyari.

"Okay lang ako Patty,"sabay kumawala sa kanya sa pagkayakap.

"Hindi ka naman ata okay," sabi nito na nakahawak sa kamay ko.

Hindi ko alam na hinahayaan ko ang sarili na mafall sa sarili kong pinsan, it's not normal, I know. But, i dont know how to find way to go back in my normal life. 

"Okay lang ako Patty pagod lang ako." 

Tumalikod na'ko para pumunta sa kwarto ko upang magbihis ng pambahay at ng makapagpahinga naman ako. Maybe, It's my karma sa lahat ng bagay na ginawa ko noon, lahat ng ginagawa bumabalik sa'kin. I want to dissapear, to forget everything, to have peace in life, to go back to the real me, the real Miguel. 

I just can't stop thinking who is that anonymous sender? Why he/she know everything about my dirty secret that  I had an secret affair with my cousin. Who is J&M? Sumasakit lalo ulo ko kakaisip kung sino si J&M. Anong purpose niya at binablockmail niya ko? I had a lot of question na hindi ko alam ang sagot at yun ang dapat kung malaman ang alamin kung sino si J&M. I'll do everything to know who is this anonymous, and i'll make sure na hindi niya 'ko matatakot o masisira sa lahat ng tao dahil uunahan ko na siya.

However, while I'm lying on bed I didn't noticed that Patricia is infront of me staring like she's wondering what happened to me. Well, because of I can't keep on thinking about what happened earlier in the locker room. Hindi na'ko mapalagay.

"Hey, are you okay? Kanina pa ako dito sa harapan mo nagsasalita tila wala ka ata sa sarili mo simula ng umuwi ka dito sa bahay, may nangyari sayo?" 

"I'm fine."

Tipid kong sagot sa kanya ayokong sabihin ang nangyari kanina baka mag-alala pa siya. I can handle it.

"Bakit ka nga pala nasa room ko?" pag-iiba ko sa topic.

"Tatawagin lang sana kita para mag dinner."

"Ah, busog pa'ko eh," gusto ko lang mapag isa ngayon.

Alam kong nagtataka na si Patricia sa mga kinikilos ko pero kailangan ko parin ipagpatuloy ang pag-iimbistiga sa anonymous sender na'yon hangga't hindi ko nalalaman kung sino siya hindi ako mapapalagay. I need to find ways.