I Wish I Could

It has come to my attention that I didn't put a warning chapter in this book. So, I will have made one now. This is important, so don't skip because you can't say that I didn't warn you.Triggering events will take place; not everyone will get triggers but some of you will. Their is mentions of cutting, and thoughts that are suicidal/toxic.One of the characters is in an older realationship by a seven or eight year age gap and do kinky things. A character also was basically 'sold' to someone. And rape is mentioned to have happened, I will try not to go into much depth with it. Characters blaim themselves for things that were out of their control, like a car accident or a natural disaster happening.Abuse both mentally and physically take place to characters.Underage drinking, smoking, and other adult themes take place.They aren't perfect, and neither am I. Mistake

August 17th, 2017 I couldn't breathe, I couldn't see either. Everything was blending together. The voice sounded like it was far away, very far away. When in reality Mrs. Kenner was standing right beside me, telling me Brandon committed suicide as police officers walked in and out of their two story white picket fence house. "No," I barely whispered shaking my head violently, and sending my long wavy hair with it. "He promised me he-." "Yes, I found him in the attic this morning. Af-afterfinding hi-his n-note on h-his b-b-bed," her voice wavered and her forest green eyes looked pained and dark. Not there usual bright color, but a darker shade. Her usual strong and confident being was broken and unsure. Her usual smile was gone and replaced

August 26, 2017 "Hey, mom? Can I go to the mall with Seira and Carry today?" I asked, as she typed away on her computer. "Mhm." " Well, can I borrow twenty dollars?" "Autumn, I'm busy. Go to your father," she snapped. Sighing I walked out to the garage. " Dad?" I called over the football game. " What!" He yelled, not turning the television down. I walked over to the corner with the ratty rocking chair infront of a plasma flat screen TV. "Dad, can I go to the mall with

September 1, 2017 "I can't believe we only have three days till senior year starts," Carry pouted as she measured out two cups of powdered sugar. I can't either. Especially since all my plans were cancelled. I no longer had a person that I could go out with a bang and make memories that I would smile  and laugh at in the future."I know.""I just, it's not really registering that this will be my last year in school before college.  Like, where did the time go?" Lets see, we didn't go to any dances except the one in Junior year, but that was because Brandon had a 'cool plan' to pull. We didn't go to any parties, mostly because Brandon or myself wasn't invited. We would just stay home at someone's house doi

September 7, 2017 "Autumn! Autumn, where are you?" Brandon called out. "Over here!" I shouted, but he didn't hear me. We were standing meters apart, in a feild. Brandon's slowly turning around in circles, calling out my name. "I'm right here!" I keep shouting at him. I try to walk towards him, but every time I try to take a step the distance between us gets bigger, and bigger until we are miles apart. "Autumn!" He keeps yelling out for me. "Autumn," I felt someone shaking me.