chapter 12

After bathing  he came out and wore his pj's with my favorite fashion brand versace drawn on his sweat shirt. he lay down as he held on to me closely. i want  to kiss him but why ? , i looked at him with his dazzling eyes to his perfectly created character that antonio would  never in this life or next have. I wanted to tell rex that 'hey am sorry', but i can't  just say that, i need words right ? , i held my head as i caused  " fuck".

  I don't wanna be weak I remembered my dad every time I cry he'll always hug and hold me in his arms and run as fast as he could till I stopped crying then he'd stop and then I'd tell him what made me cry, if it's an object he'd buy me another copy one so beautiful than the first, if it's someone that made me cry like my bully at school a senior was bullying me, I couldn't tell anyone or he'll hurt me, every time in school I had to hide from him and when he caught me. 

He'll drag into a dark room by our school's store room and he will laugh so hard that it echoed the whole room, then he'll tell me to raise my uniform. If I didn't he'd hit me hard and with tears I'd raise it, he turned me around and everytime I hear this sound as If he brought out something sharp then he'll  cut my back. He will stand looking pleased as he watch me bleed slowly and painfully. After he's done, he band it up to avoid the blood so to not ruin my uniform, then the day go on. 

When my dad found out he was so pissed that he almost hit me and the next day bully tino was no more, his parents was one of the board of directors till they disappeared. That was me weak and useless and my protection was gone all because of me, I held rex tightly as I placed my head on his chest, listening to the rhythm of his heart beat. I remember saving  a boy  from drowning and bleeding, it was like four months before our family vacation In Hawaii on the 13th of April. I was 13 and I was following this puppy and then I saw this boy he was running from something and he was bleeding, he looked scared to see some people coming his way so he jumped into the lake beside him. 

I waited for him to come out after the men left but he did not. So I dived in and found him on the bottom of the lake, his eyes was opened and I saw life run passed him, he was heavy to drag so I swam back up and called for help, daddy heard me and came for me, I told him about the boy and he went to bring him out. We left him in the hospital after he woke up and asked my name, I gave him my warmest smile as I told him " ROSE ".

Who on earth would believe that that boy was Antonio?, and that he had become addicted to my warmth. I kissed rex goodbye as I left his arms and house. I wore his black t-shirt and a small size jean that I found in his closet. I took my gun and left, i went to ANTONIO'S house late at night, the guards greeted " Young miss" As usual, I walked into the house and went straight to the kitchen and took a knife, I walked to  Antonio's room to find him in bed sleeping with a blonde by his side, I walked straight to him as I climb and sat on him with my gun pointing on his chest. 

His eyes sparked opened as I cracked the gun as slowly as possible. He smiled as he held my waist " Welcome back home, buttercup " I felt his partner raise as I moved feeling uncomfortable in the position I choose to take, he raised as he looked at the gun am holding, and laughed 

Before saying. " This is why I never wanted you to learn to hold gun" 

" Why did you kill them? " I asked him as he helped me position the gun properly 

" Well your dead dad refused to let me have you " 

" You fool " I caused " You could have just let them be, and try to be friend me, I would have liked you then, because I liked you then, but no you chose to kill and lie to help me " I pulled the trigger but nothing  happened, i pulled it again  he was there smiling as he tapped the blonde by him and told her to get out which she did, still in the weird position i mistakenly chose to sit. i raised the gun up and pulled the trigger and it shot , then i smiled at him and pulled it but nothing happened i clapped  him " you fool you were betting with your life that why you touched it isn't it " his smile  never left his face. no wonder he touched my gun.

I throw the gun down as i tried to get up but could not, i tried to brake free but he was holding me tight,there is nothing i could do so i stop struggling he rolled over and i was under him i missed him so much but why ?, why did he kill my brothers and my parents  and my friends why does he like to take all happiness  from me and lie to be a helping hand. 

i was lost in space thinking when i felt a pair of lips on me, the image of rex popped in my head and i kissed back, moaning in tune with his, i looked to meet the black eyes of antonio and not the haze of rex.i felt dirty, and unclean. i didn't  want to kiss him , i didn't  like it , i didn't  like him, i cant betray rex. i took the knife i hid on my lap and stabbed him he looked shocked he knew for four year plus the years he spied at me. he knew i couldn't kill him, but i can sadly.

I smiled as he bleed, he fell off the bed to the floor as i watched him in pain causing. the knife  was still pinned to his stomach as blood ran down filling the floor with blood, he was in pain and i loved it , i wanted him dead for my family,for my friends,for my freedom , my FFF. he was still alive fighting for his life. but i liked him for years, a single tear ran down my face, thats for my one sided feelings for him 

" why did you draw that  tattoo on my back , i told you to take it off ?" he let out a weak laugh  as he spat out blood as he mummed  every words slowly 

" because you are mine , body and soul " I hissed and walked out of the room,i called rex when he picked up i smelt something  like a gas as soon as i inhaled  i blacked out 

"hello rose! , rose !! were are you ? "