14. His Past, Her Concentration

Anudeep's POV

She gaped, blinking furiously, munching cutely. I can understand her dilemma, if it happened to me, I would be shocked to death. My Angel was stronger than me. She was looking cute covered in that silky white bedsheet like a ballon Teddy Bear. Maybe, all her senses are blocked but not her mouth.

"You... My... What?" She stammered, blinking rapidly.

'God, I just want to pull her in my lap and bite those dimpled cheeks.’

I chuckled nodding and declared proudly, "Yes I'm your secret admirer,"

I'm truly proud to admire a beautiful soul like her. She never hurt anybody intentionally or unintentionally. A pure selfless downhearted lady was my Angel. She was still in dilemma and took the chicken pizza slice in confusion but munched it with ease. Her beautiful round eyes were only on me.

She giggled suddenly, "You're kidding me, right?" Asked as if she realized a hard puzzle.

I smiled, "And why would I do that? It’s not me, I think!" I questioned her, taking a bite.

Damn, the chicken is tasty like heaven, I need to control like hell. In dilemma, she stuffed her mouth with big bites.

I caught her right wrist, "Eat slowly. The food can be stuck in your throat. Just relax, I'll explain everything," I said with an assured smile.

She nodded positively with a mouth full of food. I smiled, leaving her hand. She drank the water to gulp the food in her mouth. I'm having a beautiful feast of my Angel's cute antics. She blinked in assurance sitting comfortably with a my-ears-are-all-yours look.

I took a pizza slice and munched going back to my memory lane. "I was a single kid, my parents love me to the core. They would encourage me in everything. I love three things in world food, music, and studies. My Nanna loves my voice and made me learn music. ‘Anup, The Rockstar’ that's what he would call me.

“Maa was the best thing in my life. She would cook everything I craved for. Never she gets angry for my antics. I'm their notorious plumpish rockstar..." I came back from my anterior paradise with her gasp. Her eyes and mouth are gaping me. Her long eyelashes blinking at a slow pace.

"Plumpish?" She whispered, closing her mouth with an awkward smile.

I chuckled, understanding her feelings. "Until five years back, I was healthy like you. Can you imagine, I was one hundred thirty-seven kgs?" She gulped hard, widening her eyes, that looks cute.

'God, it's really hard to control my crazy hormones.’

She gaped as if I'm an alien. "Are you serious?" Asked taking another slice.

I nodded positively with a sincere smile. She nodded with an understanding smile, munching the slice. I took another slice and pushed the fried chicken leg pieces towards her. She smiled, adjusting the space of the plate, I gulped the water and munched the pizza. There crept an awkward silence between us.

"So?" She asked taking a leg piece. I smiled, clearing my throat.

"I don't need to specify the bullying section in school. My parents had always been my support system, they never for once tried to change my food habits or got offended with social criticism. They would always guide me to follow my heart, ignoring the unwanted comments..." My Teddy Bear gave a hearty smile. I blinked reciprocating the smile.

"... I don't have any good friends except my parents. They would play with me, encourage me, fight with me, love me like their precious diamond.

“Nanna had business along with school. His trusted friends are his business partners and made his best friend as the school's principal. I studied in our school itself. Being a merit student, I would grab all of my faculty’s attention. Nanna was proud of my intelligence and promoted me to higher standards than my age. At the age of thirteen, I had been in the tenth standard..." I was cut off with the beaming voice.

"Wow, that's amazing," she said cheerfully with her beautiful dimple smile. I chuckled, taking the chicken piece. She ate looking at me curiously.

"Everything was going well, I was in my happy world. One day my parents went to a friend's party and came... as dead bodies..." I chocked with unshed tears.

Immediately, she gave me water, I gulped it and relaxed. Her face held a sorry expression, I didn't look at her anymore. She caressed my left palm with her left knuckle. I became silent and held my tears. I cleaned my nose to my right shoulder. I was still the dirty kid like Maa says. I smiled and held her palm.

She gave a breathtaking smile. As usual, I was drowned in her dimple smile. She was truly my Angel. She wiped her right palm with the tissue and held my right wrist. My eyes are not leaving the beauty in front of me. She raised my hand to my mouth and cutely gestured me to have it. I took a bite, she smiled getting satisfied and continued her munching session.

"Anup, let's talk about everything later. You first enjoy the yummy chicken. What type of food you love to eat?" She blabbered trying to divert me.

I smiled at her concern but today, at any cost, I want to share my burdened heart with her. I know she was feeling heavy with all the sudden things happening in her life but I lost the hiding battle and wants to be selfish to vent out the burden in my heart.

"I'm fine and see I'm eating," I said and took bites, she smiled.

"Can you please listen to my burdened heart?" I asked desperately.

She observed me few seconds with concern look and finally nodded, gesturing me to eat. I completed the piece and took one more.

'Tomorrow, I need to burn many calories.’

"My happiness bubbled up, my world crashed, I was devasted. Nanna’s friends supported and assured me to take care of the business and school. They assured me to hand over everything to me once I'm eligible. I simply believed them and lead my life to fulfill my parent's dreams.

"Princi Uncle made sure about my education go well according to Nanna’s wish. I entered business school at the age of sixteen. I was lost, devasted, and crushed in bullying. My parents were not there to encourage me but Princi Uncle been in my each and every step. He guided me with his assurance but still, I lost the battle.

"I joined the gym in hastiness. It took me three years to get this so-called lean self. I got much-needed attention and popularity as a handsome hunk but I was lost, totally lost in this fake world, and blocked everyone in the world. Killing my reality, I became like this. To the world, I'm the eligible handsome hunk but to me, I was a living corpse,” a deep silence erupted in between us.

"Anyways, I did masters and ready to take over my Nanna's responsibilities at the age of twenty-one but all the business partners cheated me. They took my signs in my devasted stage, transferring everything to their name. Princi Uncle been loyal and supported to claim my rights.

“I'm not a dumbhead to roam around those sick people. Within six months, I established my own empire and got succeed. I was proved to be my father's son. I didn't keep any grudges and left them. I want to fulfill my parent's dreams but not to take revenge on everyone who dumped me,” that proud smile on her face made me happy.

"Music is the only happiness in my lonely world. I stopped performing in front of the world after my parent's death but didn't leave my passion. I thought to fulfill Nanna's dream and started the youtube channel.

"At first the whole concept became tiring. There comes my greatest fan in the world - Cute Melody. With her help, her support, her encouragement, and her love, finally, I became ‘Anup the Rockstar’,"

I smiled, remembering Nanna's voice. I closed my eyes for a second and took a heavy breath.

"Though I block the world, Cute Melody entered into my trusted world. She made my life happy with her friendship. Even though, I trusted her but still been in the backstage," I saw my cute Teddy Bear sat quietly, supporting her palm under the chin.

'My Angel was looking cute as a white balloon.’

I saw the plates and found them empty. I got up, picking up the plates. "What happened, Anup?" She asked surprisingly.

"Wait," I told and picked the plates. She was going to get up.

"No, I'll do it. Just sit," I commanded her.

She giggled and sat back. I smiled, taking off the plates, placed it on the table, and washed my hands. My Angel was not messy like me. She always eats neatly and immediately cleans herself, I was the laziest. Wait, I ate a lot and got scared, realizing tomorrow's hard work to burn the calories.

‘Bloody stupid life. I hate to do it but still, I must do it.’

I opened the mini-fridge. The ice cream fragrance pulled me to devour them without a second thought. I took the tubs heading to my Angel. Her sole concentration was on me, gazing intently.

'There she was only thinking about you but here you're zoning-in your stupidity.’

I sat on the bed, placing the tubs in front of her, smiling, I pushed the big tub to her. Her smile widened looking at my smile.

"Why it's small?" She pointed my tub.

"Well, I’m out of my diet already. Just to accompany you, I was having it,"

"But you love to eat," she complained with a pout.

'God, look at her dimples. How could someone get dimples in every expression?'

"Yes, I'm a foodie but I should control my craving, or else it would be hard to burn the calories. I'm not ready to do more workout," all the hell flashed in front of my eyes.

"So, hating your past identity?" She asked but it was more like a statement.

"I never hated nor disgusted my true identity, Melody. That's Anup but not this..." I pointed myself. "... I hate to control my cravings, I hate to workout, I literally hate this life but trust me, I don't want to repeat the past. I’m happy in this hard life," she nodded with an understanding smile.

I gave her the tub opening it, her eyes widened, licking her upper lips. "Chocolate Fudge Brownie,” she squealed, pulling the tub from my head. My heart beamed to see her happiness and my hormones ditched looking at her alluring luscious pink lips.

'I too want to lick her lips but lower one as I love its thickness.’

I opened my tub. The coldness of the tub and chill breeze made me shiver.

'Wait, what if she caught a cold?'

"Hey, wait," she was going to place a spoonful of ice cream in her mouth but halted with a desperate questioning look.

"The weather is already cold and you're still wet..." I pulled the tub but she held it tightly. "... you better eat tomorrow, Cutie, please," I pulled but she showed tantrums with cute faces.

"Anup, please. I eat ice creams and cold stuff even at late nights, so I'll not catch a cold, please..." She pestered and it became hard for me to restrict her cuteness.

I halted, she pouted. "You need to take medicines before going to bed. Okay?"

She grinned widely, pulling the tub from my hold. She ate the spoonful of ice cream, moaning and enjoying like always. I chuckled and my eyes were stuck on her. She opened her eyes, gesturing me to eat. I smiled and ate my strawberry ice cream.

'Damn, it was so tasty and there was no stock.’

"When and how did you find me as Cute Melody?" I raised my head to see her eyes were not leaving the tub but I know she would listen to me.

"Yesterday," she snapped her head up, gaping me.

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