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Theo...? My gaze looked down at the grave, I remember the funeral and everything, this was his grave. Looking down at the headstone above the dewy grass, his name wasn't there anymore. I can't even remember walking here. The grass around me swept me in, my legs fell beneath me. Everything from my waist and below was sunken deep into the earth. A cold feeling spread across my lower body, the bricks began to form over my chest suffocating me. Is this what quick sand feels like?, is this what death feels like? I've had panic attacks before, but this felt as if my body was shutting down. It can't be a dream, I was just at school, I swear I heard someone call for Theo. "Theo, why isn't his grave here? Where is he? Why couldn't it have been me and not him? It was all my fault. He didn't deserve this, he choose to save me, I'm nothing but a mess, he had a future, he had a chance. This isn't fair." The words echoed around my mind, as the suffocating feeling
I jerked in my seat, and met with blazing jet black eyes. It was somewhat darker I'm the back of the library and I struggled to see who it was. Before I could figure out fully who it was, a light bulb, literally turned on."The school can't afford heating here.. wait Axel?" I turned my head to side like a lost pup, I haven't seen him in awhile.It's been a few months since I've seen him, but he looks the same. He's as handsome as ever, with tossed and messy styled black hair, silver chain across his pale skin, his heavy mental t-shirt that seemed too small to fit his fitted body, classic leather jacket and jeans. He always kept it simple, although people would call him a white washed Korean, he just never cared what they thought. Instead
*RINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG*The door slammed shut behind us, as the school bell rang."Well shit, I guess we weren't on time after all.." Parker muttered rose himself.As the students began to clear the calls, the VP spotted me, I tried to swiftly turn around and sprint to my locker, but the grey haired witch stopped me."Why, isn't it Miss Amelia Williams, finally here to join us?" She crossed her arms, wearing this tacky navy cardigan. She basically looked like your neighbourhood crazy cat lady."Yes Mrs. Chu?"
Monday morning, the weekend was over and school would start in an hour. I kept staring at my clock, as time went on ticking away.*Tick, tock, tick..*The sound echoed around my room.Biting my inner lip, I impatiently pace around waiting for Parker. I must have passed out yesterday, giving him enough time to sneak off. *BUZZZ* My phone went off, he said he would be here soon. But how long is soon? The time kept ticking away, and I worried we wouldn't arrive on time, I can't just leave without him, I haven't been able to go anywhere by myself in so long. A wave of anxiousness, made me pace faster. Calm down, deep breaths, deep breaths. I kept telling myself, but the more breathes I took to calm down, the ticking only got louder.
Blowing over the hot steam from this brownish mug, I looked over at Parker, and slid him the mug."Hot chocolate, just the way you like it Parks." I said, calling him by his nickname.He rolled his eyes, and mumbled a thank you. Parker always hates it when I call him Parks."Anytime." I smiled, sitting beside him. He raised a brow, pausing before taking a sip, looking into my Hazel eyes, then at my empty hands."Where's your cup, lia ?" I could tell he was already worrying over me. I shrugged, laying my head down.As I laid my head down, I felt somethin
Cold.It was winter, snow was everywhere. Frost had covered the bits of snowless area, and dangerous icicles hung low off of roof tops. But worst of all, the cold winter air bit my fingertips and the northern wind sent shivers down my spine. Winter was known to be festival during the Christmas season, but it was mid January and the cold winter season wasn't at all cheerful. I sighed, looking out at the snowy wasteland. Was this really my life? Looking at the negatives, for the rest of my life? Get it together Amelia, you are not this pathetic.Maybe, I just didn't like winter? Oh who am I kidding? Winter is horrible! The snow may look delightful, but it's just an illusion to keep you outside and f