Chapter 2 He would come back..

Marina's pov :

I met my first love when I was 16.I was in a school and he was my rich neighbour next door. I would have never liked him but because he helped me multiple times that I got habituated to his help. I got a sense that he too liked me a lot and that was what attracted me to him more.

When time passed by I found myself  searching for  him, my eyes seeking for him unknowingly everytime. Later, I found out that his eyes used to search for me as my yearned for him too.

Later on, he confessed to me and we were in relationship with each other for some years. Everything was alright, until my and his parents found  out about us. His parents were obviously rich and mine was not as much as theirs but even so, my parents decided to talk to his parents.

His parents talked to him. They had been searching him someone to get married. They had searched the rich woman who would bring some lots of dowry for him. And when his parents asked him, whom he wanted to marry.....he chose her over me. 

My dreams and my love towards him were all  shattered into pieces. I had never thought, he would play with my feelings in such a way. And, the most painful part was his parents humiliated my family.

Due to that humiliation, my father decided to marry me off quicker than his marriage to get back that humiliation they did to my parents. As a result, I got married to someone whom I have never seen and never heard of.

As a daughter, I decided to give up my feelings and live up-to as per my family's wish and walk on their path. I had the sense that I had troubled my parents as I could and if I do more, I might hurt them more.

When I was getting married, I knew only one fact about him, he was a sergeant but for whoever he was, it didn't matter. Why would it matter? I had just suffered from the painful heartbreak that a guy can cause. His shadow made me hate all the guys out there. All the guys were responsible, only for breaking hearts and they are only interested in playing with the feelings and emotions of the woman. I married him with these thoughts. When I was married, my mother had advised me, to make my family happy and to make my husband satisfied and contended. It was my prime duty.

On the first night, though I wasn't ready, though I didn't want it, though I wanted to  resist  my feelings and  I  fulfilled my duty as his wife.

"You're.... you're beautiful," that was the only sentence  he said to me but that was not something that was going to make me happy. With himself  forcing me on the bed, I realized one thing that night, every men are same, every men are animals. I laid stiff below him  and  my tears rolled down due to pain and disgust.

Next morning, I tried to wash off all the disgust of last night but it reminded me of that disgusting night, again and again. So, in anger I rubbed my body with the hardest substance, a stone till it started to bleed. The same night, I knew the same thing was going to happen but that night made me change my view upon him.

That night, I couldn't just face him. He was really a great soldier indeed.I felt good and secure in his shadow. I didn't know myself when I started to get habituated to him. I didn't know when my dark first love's shadow completely disappeared due to his brightness of love.

What a woman wants most in her relationship is not love at first but it should be a respect for each other and each others sentiments. Within short time I realized he was worthy of both.

I would have been able to express him my love as well.I would have been able to say to him that I give you full rights over me to you. I am happy to hand over myself to you but I wasn't able to. Before, I could tell him that he was called for battlefield.

While he was leaving, he told me two things. The first one was  he couldn't  turn back and look at me  when he  leave because if he looks back to me, he may betray his country and the another one was if he  wasn't able to return back, if only he couldn't return back I  have to forget about him and live a good life, remarry and bear children and live happily.

I never thought, that day would come.I told him to return safe. As he told, he didn't turn back and looked back.

The news of war scared me more and more and after a month, I found out that I was pregnant with his baby. I was really happy to find out that I was pregnant that I wanted to see him and tell him myself that he was going to be a father.

But only after that month, his whereabouts came to my house. When they came to my house, my mind knew what the reason was but my heart wasn't able to accept that fact. I became unconscious after whatever happened..

When I woke up, my in laws were crying bitterly.Father in law wasn't able to speak but his silent tears, I could see it. My mother in law was more unconscious than me. They could have believed that he was dead but I couldn't accept it. I am not going to accept that fact. He isn't dead.He wouldn't die leaving me alone in this world. He was just punishing me for not being honest with him. He would come back, he would certainly come back.

When I married him, I never thought that my husband would be someone that my country needed more than I did. I never knew that his life was always on stake.I didn't know that after my heart broke due to a reason, man, it would heal again with the reason husband and I never thought that wound will again get ruptured with the same reason.

 But I am ready, to open up that wound for him until he comes to heal me again, because my heart tells that he is not dead, he would certainly come back. Certainly... come back... to  me...