Chapter Three

Get your things, were going home," he said coldly. There is something in his voice that makes me shiver, maybe because of the way how cold he said the words or the way how he looked at me emotionless before he turn his back at me? He didn't even wait me, which he always does.

I sigh and took a deep breath, I just ruined everything that he prepared. The candlelight dinner, the different colors of flowers that is scattered on the floor, this boquet of blue roses which is my favorite color but unfortunately, he no longer had the chance to give, and the food that is elegantly prepared, was all my favorite. 

My eyes landed on the wine that they served, and my eyes widen when I recognized it, Domaine Leroy Chambertin Grand Cru, one of the most expensive Red wine in the world. I didn't notice this a while ago because my attention is only focused on Alexander.

I then take a glance at the small box that is placed on the right side of the table and decided to get it. A 2.5 carat diamond studded ring is a woman's every dream to have as their engagement ring. They would surely  and gladly take my place just to have this kind of ring but I just wasted it.

I looked up when I saw that the sorroundings suddenly became dark, the full moon that is dazzlingly bright a while ago was already covered by the clouds that is starting to form in the sky. And the temperature suddenly became cold. It looks like it will rain, even the weather is not in favor for me.

I smiled bitterly, if he could just give me this ring two years from now, I would have gladly accepted it. 

Many will not understand my decision because they did experience what I've been through.

I grew up witnessing my parents always fighting. My mother is blaming my father for taking away her chance to seek her dream becoming a model.

My mother was offered to become their model of a well known modelling agency, but because my father is very much inlove with her that time, he stopped him from accepting it. He promised my mother a luxurious life with him instead, but sadly, when I was 6 years old, our family business got bankcrupt.

And my father blamed my mother for the bankcruptcy because of spending too much money for her luxuries.

My mother only came from a poor family and when she saw an oppurtunity to experience having the perks of being rich, she agreed to marry my father immediately, who came from a rich family.

The business of my parent's which is a restaurant, was not yet that established that time. 

We have too much competitor that is more than established, and too much wasting of money that is not important is not needed that time.

When the bankcruptcy happened, that is the start of them always fighting every now and then.I can't even remember if when is the last time that I've seen them sweet to each other.

I breath deeply, my chest is becoming heavy whenever I remembered the past.

I take a quick glance at our table for the last time before I get my Louis Vuitton black sling bag and followed him. I can't see his bulk already so I walk faster, half running to be exact. 

I saw the other guests curiously staring at me, even the two staff's that I passed by was looking at me with their brows knotted. I even saw them looking at each other knowingly. 

They surely recognize me because me and Alexander often comes here whenever I am in the country.  And they are surely asking themselves what had just happened especially when they didn't saw him with me. But they're thought is the last thing that matters to me now. I need to get in the car immediately.

I was already catching my breath before I arrive at his car, It's a good thing that he didn't left me. I can't see him inside because the mirror is tinted.

I composed myself and fix my hair because some of the strands were already covering my face because of the way I ran a while ago. 

After fixing myself, I decided to get in the car. I open his car and his sideview welcomed me. His eyes settled on my direction when he feel my presence. He is looking at me with no emotion again but I didn't look away. Instead I bravely met his gaze, I was about to open my mouth to say something when he looked away and starts the engine.

I just swallowed and sigh. I let him drive in silence, I will just explain myself when we get home. 

No one dared to talked during the duration of our trip way home. 

Our Victorian inspired two story house welcomed us when the gate automatically opened.

Yes, we have a house, it is our conjugal property. He didn't like the idea that I spend money with the house but I insist. It is us who will live there, so it is just practical for me to share. We argued about me sharing the house constraction expenses but I won in the end. But in exchange for that, I will let him pay alone our house bills which I agreed immediately so we won't argue anymore.

He quickly open the car door and walks faster inside our house.

It's a good thing that I followed him immediately and get inside our room  before he loudly banged the door closed which make me jump in awe.

I saw him went to our closet and change his clothes, I was just eyeing him the whole time that he is changing, but I was alarmed when I saw he get the car key and attempted to leave.

"Alexander, where are you going?" I asked  panicking.

"You don't fucking care," he said irritably.  He walks past at me but I held his hand that makes him stop.

"Please, let me explain," I said pleading, but he just snorted. He removed his hand from my hold and face me.

"Explain what?" He said facing me,  his tone filled with venom." I can't believe you make decisions without telling me first, I am always informing you every decisions that I make because your opinions matters to me most. But you-- you didn't had the guts to inform me first before signing that damned contract. Why Alessana? What am I to you?" He looked at me straight from the eyes. His eyes are swollen, he harshly wiped the tears that fall down on his face. He clenched his jaw and put on a straight face.

I swallowed hard. I know I am at fault in here, I really intended not telling him because he will definitely stop me from doing so. 

Am I being unfair to him? I am just doing us both a favor, we are both busy in our works, how will our marriage works if the chance that we will see each other is thrice a year only

"I met you when there was no one for me to turn to." I said that makes him stared at me intently. This is the time when my parent's got divorced and no one of them wants to take me to their costudy. They just enrolled me in a private school and let me live in a boarding house. I particularly live there until I graduated in college. 

"You came when I was about to give up living." This is the time when I decided to end my life. I was in  senior high school that time. And he was in his first year college.

"You introduced to me the many oppurtunities that life has to offer. You are always there encouraging me when I feel like I want to give up. You didn't leave my side even if I am the worst woman that you've ever met. I am scarred, not perfect, but you accepted me wholeheartedly." I saw him swallowed. My body is trembling because of too much emotions that I am feeling. I held back the tears that threatening to fall and continue.

"You are asking what you are to me?" I asked him, I met his gaze and smiled at him as tears started to fall down on my face."You are the most beautiful thing that came in my life. I would trade everything just to meet you again in my after life."