Lahat ng Kabanata ng Nicole's walls: Kabanata 11 - Kabanata 20

Listen to saved my by R-kelly. Melanie ran her fingers through my hair. She had just come back from school and came straight to see me. She heard my absence from Mr Desmond, our teacher who had subsequently heard it from Mr Elliot, curtly informed by my dad. "I went to your house, but there were police bands around and nobody answered the door. I was asked not to go in by some police officer I saw." She explained. She said the house was so messy like a robbery happened. "I tried your line, but I couldn't because you blocked me. I went to the nearby store to ask if they saw you. She told me an ambulance left your house few minutes after one in the afternoon." She explained mildly. I could tell how worried she was.  "I went back to ask the police officer and I had to l

The past one week had been nothing, but dry and lifeless days. I had been going to a group therapy because mother forced me. I was plagued with nightmares and the world didn't feel safe anymore. I'd been more than depressed and I suffered a lot from PTSD.Mother on the other hand had been busy with work and other things concerning Dad. Mother stayed in her room most of the time whenever she was home. His death had a great effect on her and It made me worried sick.Walking to my room, I saw a glass cup on the table beside Mom's door. This triggered a memory, causing me to have shortness of breath. I plastered my back on the wall and sled down to the floor. My knees were drawn to my chest and my head was buried in them.I could hear myself begging Mr Robert. I shivered and covered my ears."Make it stop." I cried with trembling lips.It was like I was reliving that moment again. The moment I

Listen to just us by DJ Khalid featuring Sza for this chapter.Quickly, I dashed into my room with a broken heart and packed my bags. I was sick and rushed to the hospital for a test. The results confirmed I was pregnant and father opened the gates of hell in our house. My mother was disappointed in me and I hated myself for it. Mother pleaded with father, but he refused. "You're a disgrace! How can a sixteen year old be pregnant and that sixteen year old is my daughter, how?!" He bellowed, while mother held his chest, pleading to him that I was their only girl child. The clouds were crying on my behalf, wetting the ground and myself. It rained heavily. I had no where to go.A knock on my office door snapped me out of my trip to memory lane. I straightened my back and placed the locket in my bag. I he

Listen to way down we go by Kaleo.Those days when I thought life was all rainbow and sunshine. I believed in fairytales and hoped to get a prince charming in shining armor that'd marry me and take me to his Castle on his horse. Fake!"Night night." I turned to leave for my room."Nicky?" Damon stopped me. "I heard about your dad, I'm sorry I couldn't make it to his funeral because-""It's okay." I cut him off to avoid showing emotions I tried to hide and hastily went to my room.Damon left very early in the morning before my mother and his got up. I was at the passenger's seat in mother's car, on our way to the therapist."Damon is in town." I announced to her dryly."Really? How did you know?""He was at our house."She gave me a confused look like I was speaking some fo

Listen to rise up by Beyonce."Thanks." I gave Emmet a tight lipped smile, which he returned with a nod and a happy expression.I made a mental note to call Mr Philip to say thank you later. What a very nice man. I must say his therapy sessions helped me a lot. I mean, I was no longer the sad sack I used to be. He taught me how to control my triggers and told me self blame was never the answer. He made me read a lot of books, watch movies, sleep more, visit Melanie and Damon whenever he was around, he made me do exercises and I also wrote a lot about my feelings.Opening up to him helped me a lot, it lifted the grand piano that used to weigh my body down. The fist time he asked me to do those stuffs, it felt like hard work, but look at me now."Have a safe flight." Emmet poked my arm.Emmet Asa, that was the name he said his mother gave to him. I think the Emmet name is cu