All Chapters of Still Into You: Chapter 11 - Chapter 17

TAMARA I almost didn't recognize the girl standing in front of the mirror until I realized I was staring at my reflection. I was clad in a black halter dress that reached the above of my knees that Ivy gave me last Christmas. I thought I would never have the chance to wear it until Solenn invited me to that house party. At first, I was hesitant to wear it but then I didn't have any choice what else to wear since my closet just had nothing but multiple pairs of jeans, tank tops, and shirts. I matched the dress with my stilletos. I thought I could match it with my Keds but it would turn ridiculous so instead, I decided to wear the stilletos from my mom even though I knew they would hurt myself. I fixed the light make up on my face. For the last touch, I applied the red lipstick on my lips. I curled my hair and pulled it into a high ponytail. Now, I was ready to show Solenn who the real queen was. When I heard the doorbell rang, I

TAMARAThe cold breeze seeping through my senses made everything feel like December. The trail of big clouds were scattered on the tar-black sky like there is a heavy surge coming. As I was walking on my way here, my hands were feeling icy so I had to blew them up. I felt like a floating feather in restlessness. Perhaps it was because of the weather or it might be because the loud beating of my heart deafened me. I breathed heavily, trying to wrap around my head why I was even here.  Yes, I already told myself not to talk to him again yet here I am at his front porch steps with expecting of the unknown.  This is what he wants, isn't it? If you don't love me anymore, go to my place tomorrow. I wish this time, he would believe me that I am telling the truth.  I want him to stop already. I want to put my restless nights to an end, to stop my mornings from being instilled with worr

TAMARA The morning was crisp and clear as the sun was tickled by the wisp of white clouds. The petals of the flowers were hit by the sunlight, their beauty dazzling me for the hundredth time. I decided to water the flowers in the garden. We have sunflowers, daffodils and tulips but what mama loves the most are the sunflowers. They are her favorite. Usually, she wakes up early in the morning to water them. That was a part of her routine since I was just young. But this time she's not home so I'll just be the one who will do the chore. While I was watering them, a bright yellow butterfly landed on my right hand. I had to swallow my giggle because I was scared that I might scare it. I stared at it with awe. Eventually, it flew away. My gaze followed the direction where it flew and I found myself smiling like a kid. I had to say that this is the best second of my life.  

I sat there alone while hugging my knees, warming myself from the cold breeze that was seeping through my skin. I thought the thick fabric of my sweater is enough to make me feel warm but I guess I was wrong. The midnight sky was blanketed with a trail of stars that light up the dark. Before, midnights don't make sense to me. They're just a part of life, a reminder that children need to sleep. Now, they are more than bedtime stories to me. Midnight is not just a time, it's a place to find love when you're hopeless, when you're troubled. Everytime I catch a glimpse of the midnight sky, it'll remind me of Sean. Its hue would be a figment of a memory. What kind of memory? I can't quite tell for now but I am sure of one thing; I don't want Sean to be just a memory.  I heard footsteps behind me. I looked over my shoulder and despite of the darkness, I saw Sean coming to my direction.  There was something different with