All Chapters of Not Exactly Love Is Exactly Love: Chapter 51 - Chapter 58

Still intoxicated, I used Cedric's bare chest as a pillow and stared into the air while I heard his heart beating calmly and his steady breathing. He slept. I hadn't slept long, maybe a good hour. Far too much my thoughts revolved around what had happened in the past few hours. My heart started beating way too fast as soon as I thought of it. He had seen it all. Everything about me. The way I saw it all.  I swallowed hard. It was perfectly normal to sleep with your friend. But then again, neither. I was lying here next to Cedric, who no matter where he went, a huge crowd of women gathered around him. Who knew exactly what to do with a woman. Who, unerringly and practiced, sent his dexterous fingers on a journey and had driven me crazy. How many women did he have? How many was I? Had he done to all the women what he did to me? Had he looked at them so tenderly and told them how pretty they were? How was it wi

Freshly showered and calmed down again, I was looking for the others. "Ari, come here, you have to see that!" I was standing at the door to the lobby when Ella called me over. "What?" She handed me her cell phone. “This is a video clip from Cedric and you from yesterday's party. Someone picked you up on the red carpet and put you on the internet. Look, more than 300,000 views in one day! " I read the clip and had to smile. You couldn't see much, only that Cedric put his arm around my waist and whispered something in my ear. Oh god the way I looked at him! You could literally see the little hearts that formed around us. "Where is Cedric anyway?" "Outside, he is sitting with his family". "Okay, I'll have a look at him." Earlier we parted ways that were less pleasant. And tomorrow our ways would part again for the near future. I should

I felt a flurry of melancholy when I saw Cedric running towards me. Would it always be like this between us? That we only saw each other on important holidays? The black jeans and matching dark blue shirt looked great on him. I would never get used to this sight. "Well my beauty? Ready for the surprise? ”He asked, pulling me close. "More than ready," my hands brushed his chest. Simply because I was able and allowed to do it. "No heels today?" He pointed to my black boots. "No .. If it starts to rain again I can run myself and don't have to be carried by you". "I like to carry you," he put his arm around my shoulder and directed me to the back exit. "Definitely, who likes to wear," I said, rolling my eyes. "When I train, I do double that". "Nice you show-off".&nbs

A few hours later Ella and I were also on the plane. My head was leaning against the airplane window and a thousand thoughts circled around in my head. The last few days had been very turbulent. "Ari?", Ella shook my arm lightly."Yes?" "Everything OK? You haven't said a word since the boys left ”. I shrugged my shoulders. “Cedric's sister cried because of her brother when she left. I feel so shabby because I claim the little time he has for myself. He has a family that misses him ... and that he certainly misses too ”. "Oh Ari .. you worry about everything! If Cedric wouldn't have liked to spend time with you, he would certainly not have kidnapped you from manager Heini's surprise party ... Or brought you to this restaurant. Those were his decisions ”. I sighed deeply. "Still .. It can't always stay that way." “Don't be s