All Chapters of Secret desire: Chapter 1 - Chapter 10

I went home that day feeling like I lost something I never had. In reality, he was never actually mine, to begin with. I mean - yeah, he was physically with me every single day, but that was for work only. He never saw how he would tease me with his good looks and gentle attitude. I had slept with him countless times in my head, but it was all just in my mind. I thought, no – I was certain that I was in love with him.I came to this town because my cousin Clarissa needed my support after she got divorced. Her husband cheated on her with his coworker just two months after their wedding. At the time, I had freshly finished college and was as free as a bird. I had no decided career path and had a bad relationship on my own which left me conflicted as far as my life was concerned. A new beginning and a close friend in the shape of my cousin was just what I needed. We kind of kept each

My alarm buzzed with the most annoying sound – my favorite song. I thought that it wouldn't be that bad to be woken up by something I loved. No luck there. It was irrelevant that I had a hard time falling asleep, I had to get up at 6 AM to prepare for work regardless. I still wanted to dream about him...again. I was tossing around in bed, unable to escape my dirty thoughts and I didn't know what time it was when I finally drifted away again.I got up, went to the bathroom, tied my hair in a long dark brown ponytail, but did not curl it. In the mirror, my reflection was watching me with tired red eyes."Look at that, without a night out or any drinking at all..." I pointed to myself. I used a bit more makeup, hiding behind light brown shades, mascara, and black eyeliner. I didn't use lipstick, instead, I applied lip balm, which was

 We walked inside and picked our favorite table in the corner near the wall and close to the stage. Most tables were abandoned as people were already dancing and cheering. Oh, yes...it was a "Rock on" night! A boy band was entertaining a small crowd. People were so lost in the music and maybe already drunk, because no one cared if I had enough space to get to my chair.I tried to sit, but the only place I could reach was in front of the table, and we were three. I turned around with a frown as Clarissa found a quick solution."Oh, it's okay. You can take that, we don't need a chair because we are going to be dancing." She grinned and grabbed Ethan's hand, taking him even closer to the stage, before he could protest.I p

AlexandraIt was such a great feeling... the fresh air, playing with my hair, some grasshoppers making calming sounds in the night. I was just relaxing on the bench with a fruit drink. It almost made me forget about what I truly wanted... almost.The music from the bar, that I could barely hear, got mixed with someone's footsteps. Oh, it must be my cousin slash matchmaker!"Clarissa, do you have another boy that you want to shove in my f...?" I started, but as I turned around the strangest thing happened.It was Michael... Walking towards me."What the fuck?!" I asked in surprise, accidentally spilling my half-empty drink on the ground as I got up from the bench.

 I went directly into Clarissa's room, without trying to be quiet. I was sure she was still sleeping. Good, let her feel my rage. Why did she always have to interfere?            My suspicions proved correct; she wasn't awake yet. One of her hands was lifted above her head on the pillow, while she was on her back. She had her cute tiny sleeping dress on which I could easily see because her sheets were covering only her tummy.