Lahat ng Kabanata ng I. CHOOSE. YOU (A Nigerian coming of age Novel): Kabanata 1 - Kabanata 10

"DID YOU HEAR!" "Hear what?" "That Rica just came back from the psychiatric hospital" "What! Are you serious, so the rumors were actually true" "Yes na, I heard that the poor girl wasn't completely okay up there" "Wait is that not Rica over there?"  "Shhh don't point at her na, see now she's looking at us" "Why is she just staring at us like that, Abeg let's just go" I stared unwavering at the two girls as they hurriedly left. God I hated this school. It was only full of rich dumb snubs, didn't they know the difference between a Rehabilitation center and a psychiatric hospital. And yes apparently I'm the Rica they were soo shamelessly talking about soo openly. I stiffly continued my walk down the hallway and as I walked people kept pointing in my direction whisper

"YOU'RE LUCKY to have been able to survive that fall young lady" the first time I heard those words from the doctor was the first time that I actually started believing that life was in no way fair. Nobody wanted me, my parents sure as hell didn't and now even death didn't. I was truly unwanted. Infact I was still wondering how I managed to survive the fall from my room window. Though I had a lot of broken bones and almost all my ribs were broken, I was still sadly very much alive. Was this some kind of sick joke or what?! "Are you not going to say anything?!" My mother viciously growled out. My silence continued, aggrievating her the more. "See doctor I have a very important meeting to get to, so I will be leaving now" my mother getting feed up with me turned to the doctor and said. "Is anyone coming in your place to stay with her in the hospital?" the docto

"THAT WAS EXTREMELY CHILDISH YOU KNOW THAT RIGHT?" I raised an eyebrow towards him and said. He only chuckled a little and responded with an 'I know'. "So are you going to tell me the real reason or not?" I tried once more. I still couldn't see any reason as to why he would want to be friends with me, I was practically damaged goods. A certain look crossed his face giving him a dark feature. "I don't believe the right time has come yet Rica, and trust me when you find out you'd be pissed" I didn't really catch what he said at the end because he muttered it very low. "Alright then" I stood up and began to pack my things into my school bag "When this 'right time' comes you know where to find me, we are in the same class afterall" I mocked with a roll of my eyes then left him standing there. It's come to my notice that I actually do that to him a lot. "Rica wait!" he's voice boomed through out the libra

"RICA COME BACK HERE!" My mothers authoritative voice called out but I was already running up the stairs not bothering to look back. Angry tears rushed down my face. I couldn't believe them, I've always thought they were low but I didn't know they were this low. How could they carelessly marry off their teenage daughter without batting an eye! How could they be soo cruel! I increased my pace as my room door came to view. I immediately entered, banged the door behind me and locked it shut. My eyes began to roam the entire room looking for something in particular. When I finally spotted the shiney small black rectangle-like object I immediately made my way to it. I carried the small flat object but I couldn't bring myself to use it. You promised you wouldn't use it anymore. I released a sigh and dropped the razor, it made a slight sound as it landed on the hard wood of my bedside cupboard. 

WARNING! THIS CHAPTER IS SENSITIVE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "DILI?" I stared dumbfounded at the male sitting opposite me. "Hi" was his response with a nervous smile. I have to say he actually cleaned up nice. He wore a black fitted suit, it looked like an Armani brand and his hair was nicely styled. All in all he looked quite edible. But forget all that, right now I was beyond the boundaries of pissed. "Hi? Hi?!!" I blew up. Was this guy actually serious? From all the things he could say it was 'hi' that he could mumble out. "Rica I'm sorry, please calm down I can explain" he said nervously. Oh I was so going to kill this boy. "Explain what ehn? Explain what na? That you tricked me? That you made a fool of me?" I said full on glaring my hardest at him. "It wasn't my intention to do so" he muttered looking down, probably too ashamed to look me in