42. What Is She

I could feel myself thrashing punching and kicking. Then I heard a ooouuff.

“What the hell was that for?”

I sit up quickly to see Azrael sitting on the floor. Looking puzzled and half asleep.

“Why are you on the floor?”

I asked him through sleepy eyes.

“You attacked me and threw me off the bed while screaming. Like some he-women.”

He stood up and just looked at me with his arms crossed over its chest like he was waiting for an answer.

“What? I had a dream and I was really pissed at you apparently. You did just walk off last night without letting me explain.”

“What’s to explain? I understand your hesitant, but we need Lucifer to finish this. I need you to be my side in all things.”

“I will be, but you have to understand everything you are throwing at me. I can handle the Lycian side of everything it’s the divine stuff I’m having trouble with. The powers, the memories it can feel like to much some times. I have you to help me I know that. I will never leave your side, but you need to stop keeping secrets from me. Like the woman in the woods she isn’t a witch is she? Also you need to relize I'm not the same woman from your past. If I do get these memories I'm still going to be just me. I don't want you to be disappointed. Expecting me to change into her."

Suddenly I could feel a slight pain in my side. Ugh it must have been when I kicked him off the bed. He just grinned at me.

“Doesn’t feel so nice dose it?”

He began laughing at me. I loved the way that man laughed I couldn’t help but join in. He jump on top of me holding my hands above my head and pinning my legs with his. A huge smile still on his face. He trailed kisses up my neck till he reached my way ear. In a soft voice he whispered.

“I love to hear you laugh I must hear more of it.”

Then he began to viscously tickle my side. I screamed and tired to kicked and punch him off of me, but he had me pined.

“Aaa..zzre.. aaal! I can’t plll…eeessAa.”

I couldn’t stop laughing when he finally released me I was gasping for air, my hides and cheeks hurt. We sat on the bed a moment regaining our composure.

“I’ll never get enough of hearing that.”

He looked at me his eyes saying a million different things shifting from black to crimson the light blue flecks disappearing completely at times. I wish I could hear what he was thinking.

“I’m sure you will once we break whatever is binding your abilities.”

He took hold of my hands bringing them to his lips. As always my body reacted sparks shooting up my arm. If I did stop this now I would never get any answers.

“Azrael stop! Answer me I'm still not finished.”

He placed my hands back on to my lap and his face suddenly void of emotion. I haven’t seen that look sense the first time I met him. I waited for an answer he said nothing just nodded his head.

“The women in the woods I’ve seen her more then once. When you first came in contact with her in the woods then in a few dreams and in person. I get the feeling she doesn’t like me much enough to want me dead. Now tell me who is she, and don’t tell me she’s a witch cause I know that’s a lie. What is she to you and Lucifer?"

He hesitated a moment before answering and stood up from the bed. When he turned back to look at me before he answered his face looked distressed.

“It’s a very long story. Now before I begin remember our history is long. You are right she’s not a witch, but very power either way.”

I just looked at him waiting for him to continue. He started pacing back and forth. I have to admit it was hard to look away from him watching him shirtless in front of me.

“What is she?”

“She’s a demon the first and mother of most demons. “

“How’s did she become a demon?”

He took a deep breath before answering

“Lucifer with help from you. He doesn’t have the ability to create life but he can change it. With your help he was able to create a lot of different beings some good some bad. She was supposed to be Adams first wife, but Lucifer influenced her and it didn’t take long for him to change her. Good and dark faes are another result of both you creations. The goal was to create an army strong enough to help in our fight."

“Azrael I don’t want to destroy heaven I mean it's heaven. Why do we want to destroy it, take it over or whatever what will happen to all the souls. If we do?”

“The goal isn’t to destroy it. Heaven and hell existed long before human souls. There’s always been balance it’s an unwritten rule of existence, of the universe. Life started somewhere God started somewhere. Me and you we are the base of life we are the being. We just want to give our brother and sisters a chance to chose a life of there own everyone should have that right. No matter who their creator is.”

“This is all just so much bigger then me, I don’t know if I’m strong enough.”

“You are! You have no idea your true strength. Once your memories come back you will understand it will not be so over whelming. Also I don't expect you to be her I just want you to remember our life our history understand how much I truly love you then and even more so now.”

He walked to stand in front of me with one out stretch hand I took it and he lifted me into his arms And pulled me to his chest I let my self get lost in his scent of campfire and sandalwood. Letting his words sink in.

“ I dreamed of her. Her name’s Lilith and she tried to clam you and Lucifer as her own. I wanted to kill her. Dose she still think she has a clam on you?”

He didn’t answer but his heart beat quickened there was something he wasn’t telling me I could feel it.

“What are you not telling me Azrael!?”

He stiffened I push myself away from him. Looking at him I could of sworn fear or worry crossed was in his eyes his brow fround.

“Azrael tell me I won’t be mad but I need to know.”

He closed his eyes and took in a long slow breath .

“It had been so long sense I lost you. I told you I was with others but know they ever met anything to me.”

It saddened me to think that he would be alone for so long. I didn’t even exist yet I wasn’t even a thought. So why would it pain me to think he would of had other lovers in all that time. I don’t know why but it did.

“About 600 or so years ago I crossed paths with Lilith. We started talking about you about Lucifer about everything. She may of been a pain but she was always loyal. We spent a few centuries together and in that time we….. ”

I put my hand up and used a finger to cover his mouth I didn’t need to hear anymore. I could guess what had happened I didn’t need to hear it.

“Thank you for telling me. Do you think she’s behind the spell that was put on me or the attacks?”

“Its possible she’s a demon and they are pure emotion. They act on what they feel never hesitate or hold back. but she has been around along time and very capable of controlling her emotion.”

I nodded but I still wasn’t sure I just had a feeling she had something to do with it. That's there's more that happened between her and Azrael.

“ I still need to talk to Reign see if she knows anything. I need to go back home for real this time and find out.”

Part of me felt excited at thought of home. I missed Micah and I have to admit Reign to even though we only knew each other a short time.

“Of course, but we will leave in a few days time there is somethings I would like to get settled with the pack sense we are here. So take the time get to know them. Remember they fell from heaven for us they believe in us we owe almost everything to them.”

Well no pressure there. It wouldn’t hurt to learn more about them maybe they can tell me more about my life before.