Epsd 12

"Oh mom.... I know that I was wrong." Said I when she stop me from speaking.

"Hey... that's what you've been saying for the longest. If she decides to live, we shall support her all the way and why, if we couldn't bare the way you treat her, then more for her. Sometimes i wonder whether something happened between the two of you."

"No mom. And yes. I also believe she should live. It's for the best." Said I raising from my seat.

"If I can't talk sense into you, then who will. James? Cause I can have him over and explain everything."

"No mom... not James. After all he has no idea about what Angela feels for me."

"Oh kat that boy isn't blind. He might not know about angela but I bet he suspects you're hiding something from him."

"Good night mom. Let's stop all this talk about my relationships. Who I love and who I don't. It's up to me."

"Good you know it's up to you sweetie cause in the midst, your hurting them both, James and Angela. Either ways they are getting hurt. Good night."

I then took the stares up to my bedroom , laid in bed and kept thinking of whether I wanted Angela to stay. Not sinking in fully of how much I felt. I wasn't to stop her from leaving for france yet would I be able to accept having a relationship with her.

I had been humiliated once when I appeared naked in front of the whole school and wasn't going to take the risk of being a victim of racism.

Angela wasn't that of a weak person and if only she left, it would be easy for her to forget about me and I too. So I thought it was for the advantage.

Maybe I liked or loved her but just we weren't possible and was it.

Its was late when I finally got to sleep and early the next morning was Angela who knocked me up to get ready for school. She came in with a tray of a toast and a glass of cold milk.. asked me to take a shower, dress up cause school was just a few minutes to start.

I got into the bathroom, took a shower and when I came out, she had my bed already made and took clothes for me out of the closet. 

When I tried to stop her, she said she wasn't to take her feels get in the way of family. Which she usually said till I ruined everything.

She left the room for me to dress up and when I was done, I drunk the glass of milk and ate two bites of the toast, picked up my bag pack with the tray and led out where I found Angela standing on the stairs waiting for me. Dad was heading out and mom had left for grocery shopping she said.

Set the tray in the sink and went from the house. Out I found James waiting for me. Who I said hello too with a kiss on the chick then puzzled at them both, angela who took the effort to make me breakfast and James my boyfriend. To my thought, I had made a decision to ride with james but rather wanted to go with Angela.

Kept to think, when Angela snapped.

"Hey go ride with your boyfriend before we get late for school."

I went into James' car, Angela in the back with hers and In a few moments, we were at school. Angela had this friendly attitude which I wasn't really liking and taking in at all.

She was back to her old self. Barely joked though but always kept a smile for me. Busy in her art work and when I wanted to talk to her, she would make time.

It seemed like she was getting over the love idea or working her way through it and I never really knew why I wasn't feeling happy or accepting the idea. It was pissing me up so much.

Maybe I wasn't ready to have her stop hooking over me which really was a silly and selfish thought. So I decided to make her jealous or uncomfortable or something. Anything to have her attention back on me.

First, I started kissing james on the lips whenever she was around and always made sure she watched. For james, it was really a great thing and to me making a fool of myself though.

It was summer and in the times, we would usually go to the bitch with most of the guys at school. Played volleyball, swimming and I acting like a child.

Whenever we went out, I always browsed around to spot her but she never seemed to care anymore. She was so carried away with her work which I too though was making a great impact on helping her get over me.

She hadn't yet made a decision to live for france but was sending her pieces which made it so obvious that sooner or later, she was to live. She was already getting popularity to her name.

Despite my endeavours, I had missed my chance to stop her from living and simply said, it was an already done wait and also james was suspecting I felt something for someone else. Despite my gestures that I thought were a big giveaway to me, they weren't satisfying for him. Not once did he question if I really liked him and I failed to answer.

One day a month before our graduation, James and I went out for dinner to celebrate my job since I had permanently received a supervision post in the news paper company a week before and I had refused celebrating but he insisted so we went to the country restaurant.

When we were at there, Angela surprisingly arrived the restaurant with a woman about five or seven years old about the age of twenty seven. They came in and sat just two tables away from ours which I jealously noticed and pointed out to James.

"Hey. Don't you think that lady is a bit older that Angela?" Proposed I.

"Yeah! But why should we care?"he responded.