Prologue

  “Cassy,” Zon called my name, I turned around and saw him staring at me like he wants to tell me something, so, I looked at him wondering what is it? 

 “Yess? ” I asked, and he walked closer to me.  

“If we cannot see each other again, will you miss me? ”My eyes widened and my heartbeat races to hear that question from him. 

“Will you miss me, Cassy? “ He repeated, I don’t know what supposed to react in front of him.

He's still staring at me seriously and I asked myself, “what if I really can’t see him again? ”

“ Those thoughts made my heart tightens up.”

I walked away from him, trying to run away from his question. I don't want the inner me to get destroyed. 

"Cassy, look at me, " he keeps on telling me but I can't look at him in the eyes. Yes, ill definitely not.

My chest was clenched so tight, I felt physical pain. I clenched my hand and held it tight against my mouth so no sound would escape. 

I wanted to hug him and tell him “Yes, I will miss you,” but the fact that I couldn’t, and that injures me even more. 

“Cassy,” there he goes again, he keeps calling me in a soft voice, I couldn’t face him and I just keep looking down the ground trying not to cry. 

Wishing he stopped asking me that question. I think it’s too much for me. 

And I heard him calling my name again, so, I lift my head this time and looked at him. 

His eyes look like he's begging me to listen, to look at him. My chest clenched, and I found myself holding my breath.

“ Will you miss me? “ My tears started to fall off. If I’ll answer his question, is it ever gonna change the fact that we might not see each other again? Will it mend my pain? His question is so annoying.

He runs at me worriedly, “Stop crying, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.” 

“Yes, I will miss you!” I shouted while my lips are trembling as well as my hands.

“I feel like a bomb is about to erupt inside me Zon, my heart is so much in suffering right now, I can’t bear to visualize that things to happen,” I cried, sobbing, then I saw him making a smile at his face. 

Why can he still smile at me knowing I’m in pain because of his stupid question? Why does he have to make me feel this way? Is he playing around? I can't believe him.

“Shhhh, don’t cry, I will miss you too Cassy,” he said in a very pale voice as he smirks with his teary eyes. 

“Zon” I whispered, and still sobbing, I’m happy to hear what he said, but at the same time it kinda dreadful. “Cassy, stop crying,” he said worriedly and tried to wipe my tears, but before his hand touches my face he paused and put down his hands as I saw him frowned.

He shreds tears, I've never seen those tears for a long time. It's been a while.

Then he hurriedly wiped his face and smile again. 

“Cassy, if that happens, don't curse the world again, don't ever hate your life, always remember...” he paused and his eyes scanning me from head to toe. I saw his false smile, please don't force yourself. It's hurting me even more.

“ALWAYS REMEMBER, I LOVE YOU!” he continues. 

 “Zon” I called his name and I’m about to say, I love him too but I suddenly disappeared in front of him and came back to my own world.

I woke up, still crying, I sat down and my hands are shaking. I wanted to scream but I couldn't. Then I heard someone stirring coffee outside.

I closed my mouth using my hands, making sure my mother won't hear me. This is the worst thing ever.