7. I hate y*u

"What are you doing here.."

I asked him

" I uhh brought your stuff.." he said handing me a paper bag 

"Ohh." i said embarrassed

Then remembered i still had his shirt and its in my laundry pile. 

"I didn't wash yours.." i said sheepishly 

"Oh its okay.." zane smirked coming closer

"Dont.."  i said steping back 

" I  don't want you near me.." i said remembering what happened this morning when he touched me

He stopped and looked at with an emotion i couldn't decipher. 

"I mean you know what happened this morning.." i said shyly 

"oh.."  was all he said.

We stood there In silence for a few minutes.

"Why.."  i began 

" Huh.." he asked 

"Why did you do it?"

"Do what?"

"Why did you take me to your house then left jenna at the party did you do it so that you could break our friendship.." i asked him now looking at him.

"I didn't...."

" i don't want to hear it i know guys like you zane you want you cake and eat it too. Did you take me to your house so that you could lay with me or did you do it so that I can think you are a hero who saved me from my harasser when in reality i wasn't even being harassed.." at this point my voice had risen a bit 

"Do you know what you did... that guy you beat up yesterday was my freaking brother for goodness sake he was dancing with me so that no other guy would come closer and then what did you do you freaking almost killed him.." i yelled not caring now if my mother heard me i had to give this bad boy a piece of my mind

"This morning i was greatful i was like zane is a nice guy he saved me from the harasser and wasn't a bad person after all but boy was i wrong.." I said exasperated

"i am sure you only took me to your house so that you can rape me. I was such a fool to think nice things about you because you don't deserve it 

You deserve to rot in Hell for beating up my brother and for almost breaking my friendship with jenna. You are the worst person to ever exist on this planet and i hate you with all my heart and soul and i pray your filthy soul rots in hell.." i said. 

I looked at him and wished i hadn't said all that 

oh my gosh i hurt him.

"Oh is that what you think of me..?" he asked in a small whisper.

i didn't say anything just looked at him

"You think i could do such a  thing to you..?"

He took two steps back then turned around and walked away

'I think you hurt his feelings' my subconscious told me i wanted to call him and say sorry but words couldn't come out as I watched him disappear in the darkness of the night

What have I done? I  am one person who cares about people's feelings and make sure i dont say things that might hurt them

What did i do just now?

I felt a huge emptiness in my heart as I stood there staring at the spot were he disappeared to 

guilt was now consuming me from the inside.

His hurt face was now planted in My brain i couldn't close my eyes without it being there

Why did i say that 

I thought i was saying the truth could it be that he thought val was harassing me and tried to save me?

I won't think about him anymore  he can rot in hell for all i care

You care my subconscious told me  you care about his feelings  hey who's side are you on? i scolded my subconscious.

I furiously went back inside the house locking the door behind me off to my room but i couldn't sleep i tried drinking warm milk which only made it worse

Guilt was consuming me like a vampire being burnt by the sun

Why did i say those stupid things? 

i kept on scolding myself 

Maybe i should call him and apologise i took my phone and started scrowling through my contacts after searching for five minutes i realised i didn't have his number on my phone

 i sighed throwing it away

Oh I don't wanna die of guilt but what can i do i just can't go out at this time and look for him he probably is at home right now. What am u going to do

I glanced at the time 11pm 

I picked up my phone and called the only person who can help me

After three rings he picked up 

"hey pink panther why are you calling me at this time shouldn't you be sleeping..?" He asked sleepily

"Yeah I know.. i just can't sleep i have made a big mistake.."

."What did you do?? oh my gosh did you get yourself pregnant.."

"No val why do you always think that.?"

" well you are a girl.." he said and i sighed

"Look are you feeling better..?" i asked 

"Yeah my wounds have all healed i am as good as new.."

"Great can you come over I want to tell you something.." i said and then hung up after he said okay.

 I sighed getting into bed going under the covers while waiting for him.

 He had a spare key to our house just like i did to his so there was no worrying about going back down to open the door for him

After ten minutes i heard the door hinge squick i looked up to see val standing there i smiled at him and he came closer coming under the covers

"So what happened..?"  he began

"zane came here.."

"What..?" he asked 

" Yeah and i sorta said something i shouldn't have now i feel guilty..?"

"What did you say to him..?"  he asked me softly and i told him everything include the part were i saw his hurt filled eyes.

After seconds of val processing  everything he pulled me close to hiim and kissed my forhead

"Its not your fault pink panther you only said what you felt was right.."

"But what can i do to stop feeling guilty i feel it in me that zane might look to be a bad boy but surely there is good in him right..?!"  i said and val chuckled 

"pink panther you always see good in everyone and that's why you are a good person and if you are feeling guilty maybe you should apologise.."

"You think so..?"  i asked 

"I know so plus i know you. you never stop feeling guilty about something until you do the right thing.." he said kissing my forehead

"I guess you are right.." i sighed

"Get some sleep and tomorrow you will apologise.." He said and i smiled at him

Go on close your eyes you won't fall asleep with your eyes open.." he said and i giggled

" okay fine." i said then closed my eyes and soon after sleep over took me

I was running again and the blue eyed monster was chasing me through the woods i stumbled upon a tree root and fell down face flat

 i managed to get up but i couldn't run away the monster managed to tuckle me down 

"Please don't hurt me.." i whispered closing my eyes waiting for something anything to happen but nothing i could feel the monster breathing on my face but i didn't dare open my eyes

'Open your eyes' a voice said in my head startling  me

I slowly opened them to stair right  through those piercing blue orbs

I saw hurt its like the monster was hurting and only i can do somethimg to make the pain go away

I slowly lifted my hand to touch the monster face but felt soft fur 

It wasn't a monster but a wolf after touching the fur the wolf purred under my touch and i giggled

But the moment lasted only for seconds and were the wolf was standing zane showed up with the same hurt expression on his face 

"Zane i am sorry.." i said but he took two steps back going away from me

"Zane come back.." I called but he didn't stop 

I have to apologise i started running towards him but the more i ran the further he went from me

I fell on the ground  crying i couldn't bare seeig him hurt because of me i need to see him i needed to apo......

"Pink panther wake up..." someone said and i shot up breathing heavily val was siting up looking at me with a worried expression

" Val.." i said sobbing in his chest

"What's wrong sweetheart.." he asked strockimg my hair

'"Its zane i need to apologise i saw him in my dream and then weird and then wolf and hurt and....." i couldn't say anything that was making sense mostly my voice was muffled by my sobs and well my face was burried in vals chest

"It's okay shhh everything will be okay.." he said

I don't know how long i sobed but i found my self feeling better and giggling at vals jokes.

"Thanks val.."

" for what Princess.?" He asked i was laying on his chest while his hand was still running through my hair.