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2020-10-11 17:35:40Dream on, what are your thoughts? You are neither gay nor interested in men! - his conscience warned him. It was probably true, he wasn't interested in men, after all, one was enough and he had dark brown hair and green eyes like a malachite. Was there a more interesting color? Certainly not if his opinion counted.
"Are you all right, Luc?" John looked at him worriedly when they got off the plane.
“Yeah sure, I was just in thought. I am happy when we are home. "
"Well then, get in, Mister Stone, I'll drive you home."
That wasn't the goose bumps that attacked Luc anymore and he didn't know what to associate it with. At least it left comforting warmth and a tingling sensation that reached down to his little toe. “Will you? And then? ”His tongue clearly had a life of its own and had allied itself with his vocal cords.
“Then I'll cook for you while you relax and calm down in a bubble bath. Luc? ”John looked deeply into his eyes. “Your head is racing with thoughts and you urgently need a break. We're going home now, then you go swimming and I'll bring you a beer. Believe me, it works wonders! "
If only it had been Luc's head that had rolled over. Still, he merely nodded and put his bag in the trunk of a taxi that was taking her home. Home, what a big word he thought. Luc smiled at himself in the side window. For the first time since his youth he was happy to “come home”. In the reflection of the glass he saw John look over at him with raised eyebrows.
"A cent for your thoughts!"
"I'm not that cheap," Luc looked at his husband and smiled.
"We should negotiate about that later." John's gaze made a lumbar tug. That wasn't good at all, not at all, and yet Luc couldn't defend himself and let his body take control. He had decided to twitch the corner of his mouth and bend over to his best friend. "I can't be paid with money!" He breathed in his ear and brushed the skin behind it with his lips.
The corners of John's mouth sank as he looked at him in surprise, then developed into a lascivious grin. "You shouldn't say anything that you don't mean!" He whispered to him.
Luc knew full well that now was the time to laugh and present it as a joke, but it was impossible for him. Something inside stopped him and wanted to stimulate John to do what he apparently saw in front of him, at least if you correctly interpreted his gaze.
What was the matter with Luc? This was not the first time John had asked himself this question. His best friend was strangely open and seemed to be intent on not staying in the night and morning, as John had planned. He knew he had to resist if he didn't want to lose him, because even if it was Luc who made these hints, they couldn't be his. Because Luc had never been open before, or had shown such interest in him. John believed it was the Millers' fault that their son behaved like this. He did not seem to be able to cope with the rejection and sought support, which he naturally found in his best friend. And this was clearly to blame that his support went wrong. Actually, John should have acted carefully towards him and shouldn't have brought Luc into trouble. His admission of wanting to know how a man kissed had irritated him too much. When he knelt on the bed in front of John, he was no longer able to control himself. It was always John's job to be careful and rational, while Luc could let himself go when he needed it. That's how it should be between friends after all.
The familiar smell of his apartment made John wake up again, his thoughts fell silent for a moment until the door slammed shut and Luc pushed past him. His embarrassed smile immediately stopped his returning sanity, instead John walked up to him and pushed him against the wall. "A kiss for your thoughts in the car earlier!" It was nothing more than a whisper that came over his lips, which was felt by them
of a wife approached.
"For the first time in decades I'm happy to come home," Luc whispered and came towards him before John could change his mind. Every synapse of her mind blew. They clung to each other like drowning people and took what they longed for. Her lips caressed each other tenderly, absorbing each other's heat. Very carefully, their tongues felt each other, courted, and then greeted each other warmly.
John's heart beat hard against his chest and his hands clasped Luc's face. “Luc… that's not good. You need affection, but I don't think you really want this. "
“To believe is not to know, John! I'm old enough to know what I want, don't you think? ”Brown irises met green ones, they sank into one another and didn't want to come apart. "Usually yes, but the argument with your parents ... I think you are misinterpreting your feelings for me."
"No way! You are my best friend, for whom I would do anything and who also does everything for me. We have been there for each other all our lives and that will not change, not through the wedding, nor through our intimacies, on the contrary. "
Resigned, desperate, relieved, but also in disbelief, John closed his eyes. The words went so deep in his heart that he felt like they would blow it up. Luc was clearly going too far with it, hitting him at a point where he couldn't be hit. Curiosity was one thing, but that statement clearly suggested more. John knew only too well where it would end, at least for him. As soon as his friend came back to his senses, he would push him back, drop him like a piece of burning coal. John would land in the freezing water and before he knew it he would break and be at the bottom of a lake.
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