Nine

Alyssa pov.

Waking up to shouting is not a good way for someone with a hangover. My head was banging and pounding as if they were trying do an operation on it without giving me morphine. I groaned as I sat up in the bed and when I could finally open my eyes without closing it back because of the brightness, I looked around at the room I slept. Sure, I remember last night, the important details like I was dropped off in a park, I drank myself to oblivion, I woke up at night to discover I am alone and I started crying and as he heard my cries he appeared and was there with me. He took me home and dropped me in this room. 

  I don't need to be a psychic to know that Micah will be pissed at me. I don't know what I did but I know that it was something stupid. I know this because the only part of our conversation I can remember was when he was calling me daft for thinking about something. * Oh Alyssa, when will you realized that it is not everything that enters your head that will come out of your mouth. * I silently beret myself. 

  A knock sounded on the door. Are you awake?" I kept quiet because I don't want to see the disappointment on his face. 

  As if that will ever stop the Micah I know. He opened the door without another warning. 

  Hey, I could be naked you know. I scream at him. 

   I undress you yesterday, I know for a fact that you won't be naked. Micah said with smile as he gave me a bottle of painkillers. 

  Well, I could have gotten up and was getting ready to take my bath."

  In a hangover condition. Nope, not possible. And just to be sure in case you are Wonder Woman when it comes to drinking, I didn't leave any painkillers here so that you have to stumble out to get them. Micah said with a grin. He really thinks of everything. Sometimes I hate this. I hate that he has a super brain. I am not dull any means but if Micah was serious with school he will probably have academic scholarships along with those athletic ones he already has. The guy don't have to read before a test for crying out loud. He will write it and still pass with an A+ sometimes it is very annoying. I will read and read to get a B but he glance at a book and he will get an A+. After our test results always come in, I usually turn to give him the stink eye, he will shrug and mouth that his brain never forgets anything. Doesn't stop me from giving him the stink eye another time. 

   Stop using your brain to think too much. I groan as I fall back on the bed. He approached the bed and sat by the head. It is my brain so it is my choice to use it or not. 

  Show off." I murmur. 

  heard that." he replied me. 

  I know that it is juvenile but I still did it. I struck out my tongue at him but he just chuckled at my behavior. 

  Are you alright. He asked me. Every hint that he was teasing and making mundane conversation two seconds ago was wiped from his face. I seriously got shocked when he flip his emotions from one extreme to another within seconds. He usually do it but still I get scared when I see it happen. Bipolarity exists but then again he controls his own so I guess I should not worry but I still do. 

   Of course I am fine. Why won't I be? I said playing dumb, acting as I had no idea what he is talking about.  He raised his eyebrow at me as if he knew what I was doing. Of course he knows what I am doing. He has been my friend for the longest time now. 

  Micah must have decided to play along because he gave me answers why I shouldn't be fine. Well. For one your parents had a divorce yesterday and told you about it yesterday. In fact did it in front of you. That would be enough to scar anyone but you are more emotional than the rest so I think that definitely scarred you. Secondly, your jerk of a boyfriend broke your heart by sleeping with one of your subordinates, not just any one, and the one who have been vying for your position both in the cheer squad and in your boyfriend life. She got what she wanted and did I fail to mention that all this happen within a day. "

  Was that the reason, you wanted me to get Tiffany off the squad. I asked Micah quietly. Sometimes, he comes to practice but he just stand there and watch everyone. He always study people. It could be that he noticed something and decided not to talk.

  Yes. She was raising a mutiny behind you so I expect that since you discovered the two of them yesterday, that she will raised it up today and try to overthrow you because you will be unstable. Micah said softly. You are unstable. You shouldn't have drank and you have until 2pm this afternoon to get back on your best game which is not possible because you need to practice at this time and you can't because of your condition. 

So I might lose my squad. There is a possibility that I will be kicked out. I said when I could form words. My carefully crafted world that I spent years working on is about to crash. 

  It is not a possibility. It is going to happen. Micah said with no doubt and with his voice firm. I get what he is trying to do, I really get it, l get that he is trying to cut off any spark of hope I have to prevent me from raising my hopes up just for it to be smashed but still it hurt. Badly. 

  I am sorry but that is what will happen. I don't want to comfort you again like yesterday. I want you to know that I will always be there for you but that doesn't mean that I would allow you to break down completely. I will try to prevent that from happening as often as I can. I saw you broken yesterday, I don't want to see the same thing today. Besides. I don't think that you can handle it so it is better I let you know now. Micah explained. He did his best but still that didn't make me feel warm. I still feel cold inside. 

  He let my adversary swoop in and take my place. He could have prevented all this if he told me on the last day of school last term. He could have prevented all this if he told me on this past Saturday but no, he didn't. I really want some time to be alone.  He said I was broken yesterday, what he doesn't realize is that I am still broken. I am just hiding the hurt and pretending that I am not. 

   I would like to get ready for school now so can you please leave. I ask him and he narrowed his eyes at me. 

  Al, don't think like that. he said wanting to hold my hand but I removed it from his reach. 

   I repeated my question again. "I would like to get ready for school now so can you please leave. 

  Micah stared at me for a while before giving me a stiff nod and exited the room. I went to my makeup kit and saw that I have my concealer present then I popped a pain killer in my mouth as I entered the bathroom. I switch on the shower as I slid down the walls. Only then did sobs leave my throat.