Empty coffin

After a long silence, something started to shake me and I heard someone shout my name over and over again. The voice looked familiar to me, but I still couldn't place it. I didn't know what they wanted from me or who wanted something from me. In any case, I just wanted my peace and quiet, but I wasn't allowed it. The shaking grew a little stronger, the screams louder, but I didn't want to react. Who would have ever expected that your mother would see to it that you were buried? If I was so wrong about her, would I ever find out why she took this step? The shaking got stronger again and the screaming louder, now it was too loud for me, the shaking too strong, it was increasingly annoying me, so I opened my eyes to see who couldn't leave me alone.

I saw two horrified golden eyes.

“Moran? What the hell is going on? ”Were my first annoyed words, then he looked at me in amazement.

“I wanted to ask you that, you cried in your sleep and kept asking why. What happened that you couldn't let go of it even at night? What was done to you Come on, tell me! "

He looked very worried, and I heard Lunaris whimpering worried next to me.

"I just had a bad dream, nothing more."

And to soothe Lunaris, I stroked his head. I didn't want to talk about it, it's been seven years, I finally want to forget that because I don't think Moran would understand that, so I preferred to keep quiet.

“Don't blame me for that, but I don't believe you, bad dream or not, just like you cried, I don't think it was just a bad dream. So tell me what's on your mind? "

I had to think about the pictures that came with the letter, a tombstone with my name on it, they even had a picture printed by me on the stone and there were many flowers around the tombstone, a splendid funeral that had like that not many who had more money in their accounts than my family.

A tear ran down my cheek again, I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted to get up, but Moran held me tight, he didn't want to let me go.

"What is wrong with you? Just tell me, I want to know, because that's the only way I can help you. ", He yelled at me.

Help me?

He couldn't, nobody could, I had to walk this path alone, nobody could do that for me. My discomfort grew and I wriggled out of Moran's grasp.

"Leave me alone, I don't want to talk about it."

I just got up and walked a bit, I needed some rest now to calm down and left three completely confused dark elves behind. Why can't he leave me alone? Is it too hard to understand? The whole situation got really on my nerves and wanted to borrow all of it, but could I even escape from it? Lunaris ran after me, he was the only one I wanted with me now, the only one who wouldn't and couldn't ask me any unpleasant questions.

After a while I sit on a tree root sticking out of the earth. Lunaris sat down in front of me and looked at me sadly.

“Don't worry about me, a lot has happened, but it's been many years, so everything will be fine soon. I'll just forget about it and then I won't think about it anymore, then I won't have to cry either, I promise. ", I said to the worried wolf in front of me.

He was still looking at me and when he noticed the tear on my cheek, he put his front paws on my lap and licked the tear away from me and then laid his head on my lap, on his front paws and looked at me sadly. I stroked his head, he was too worried, even if the thing throws me off track, I have to suppress it, otherwise it will ruin my soul and then I'll never be able to laugh again and I didn't want that.

I didn't want the others to worry too much. But they'd be even more worried about me if they knew what had happened than if they kept groping in the dark. It was better that way, at least that's how I felt in this dark moment of loneliness.

I sat like that with Lunaris for a long time, I said nothing, he didn't move and kept his head on my lap. He was such a loyal friend, I was glad to have him with me, he gave me the necessary support without which I would collapse. It's so nice and warm, I would have loved to fall asleep again, but then I would have these images in front of my eyes again, which then pull me down again. I finally wanted to be free from all these pictures, from the suffering and the pain, but it didn't get better, not even after seven years. Should I tell someone about it?

But who could I trust this story to? I could trust Moran after everything that happened because he looked very worried. But does being concerned also mean trustworthy at the same time?

I don't think so, but eating it any longer isn't a particularly tempting solution either. But what has always worked well up to now will continue to work in the future, but I would still like to have someone I can trust, but I didn't know the dark elves well enough and Lunaris? Yes, what about him, he's just as worried as Moran is. But he's someone who doesn't divulge secrets, if only for the reason that he can't speak. He seems like a loyal soul to me too, so why don't I just try?

“You know, it hasn't always been easy for me. I've always had trouble with my family, I could never please them, let alone trust them. So I went my own way, hoping one day they would understand and be proud of me. But then I had an accident, I couldn't report to my family for a long time because I was too badly injured. When I was fit again, I immediately wrote my mother a letter so that she could finally find out what had happened, where I was and how I was doing. I thought she would be happy to show up at my place and tell me how glad she is that I was fine again. But instead of being happy, she told me that she buried me. Do you understand what i am trying to say? She had an empty coffin buried and my name is on the tombstone, she told all my family that I died. She even forbade me to ever go to them again. It hurts so much and I don't understand why. I would have liked to know why, but it remains in the dark. I never knew, and now it's been seven years and it still hurts as much as it did then. "