What's wrong with y*u?

-" What did you say?" Huge men as mountain rinsed his hand to slap me, and I pushed my hand to another side as if I could avoid his slap, but he didn't touch me. Kai stopped him, with one his word.

"-Wait." Huge men's hand was left frozen in the air above my head, I didn't breathe at that moment.

"Let her speak" Kai continued. His gaze never left mine even when he spoke to that man. 

-" Why are you doing this to me, Kai? What's wrong with you? Why are you talking with those men in Russian? Where is Orest? I...I need to see him." I quickly asked questions who firstly was in my head, the chaos in my brain was killing me. I was calmer didn't shout at him anymore, I was weak and so afraid of them. My hopes that Kai will protect me was empty. It can't be a nightmare because in a nightmare there is no pain right? And my hands are shaking like crazy from agony.

-"who is Orest?" Kai asked with a cold gaze. He pushed away from the corner of the desk came to me and raised my chin. Why do you think I'm Kai as you say? He whispered to my ear.

-"Hh...he is our son." My voice was weak. But I tried to continue as big men laughed at my answer and angrily went two steps away from us, in the same moment he suddenly turned to us and he came back again his anger was growing with every my word. His impatience movements showed that he hardly tried to control himself. I tied not to look at him.

-"Listen I don't know what is going on here but as I went to my show something strange happened to me, and now you don't recognize me, all look different, what happened are we attacked by Russians? why are you torturing me?" I looked at my shaking head, my tears were running through my face.

- "Who sent you?"Kai asked with gritted teeth, 

-" Did you hear anything I said? Nobody had sent me anywhere we just a few hours or yesterday I don't know.." I shook my head from a lost time. "We had a fight and I just... that storm, and that dream it's connected isn't it?"It seemed that I began to speak with my self, my thoughts were said loud while my gaze was only to my bleeding hand, my voice turned into a whisper.

-" If you don't answer who send you, believe me, you will beg me that I would let you die."

He was so close to my face that I turned my gaze from my hand to him. He slowly moved to my face nearer and nearer, his eyelid closed a little bit from lust. He looked at my lips then and hardly swallowed his saliva, His nose almost touched mine. I smelled him, there wasn't any cologne, just some smokes and sent of grass and wood. his grey eyes slowly became confused while looked at mine, but he still tried to act cool.

-" Nobody had sent me anywhere." I answered him with all my strength but it was hard to concentrate because of the full room of men who are watching me and torturing me while I'm trying my best not to go in panic and think about what is going on, but also about Kai. He is so close to me that others just disappear from me. His breathing becomes harder and then he slowly turns away at the same moment as I thought he gonna kiss me. 

-"Who learned you to speak in Lithuania language?" The man asked, who was torturing by cutting with a knife my nails.  

- "what? what do you mean who was learning me?" I woke from that little trance which Kai made to me, It's hard not to be affected by his wolfish eyes and deep voice. Even when he is so scary now my all heart is racing up and down from needing his kiss. I looked at the man with a mask on my left.

" Nobody learned me how I can live in not speaking my own language? Why do you speak with each other in Russian?" I asked without thinking that he will be offended, But his eyes widened and his body tensed. He all the time had that creepy smile with his white teeth, but now this smile suddenly dropped.

" What did you said to me bitch? Ohh this bitch soon gonna" He came to me and grab me by my hair. I gasped from fair and pain when my head leaned back.

-"I said enough!..." he looked mad at that man and the person who hold me through my hair, he had let go of me. 'Why do they all listening to him? why he just doesn't stop this madness. "Do you think you are very smart here? M? Is it a game for you? " His gaze was killing all his muscles tensed.

"You don't have any bruises" He continued as he forcefully untied my sleeve with one hand and with the other he holds it so strongly that it hurts me. I grifted my teeth from screaming and crying even I bite into my lip, I afraid that my crying will annoy them more. His eyes traveled all my body from hand to my neck... "Your hands are too soft and too clean, you never worked or killed, or was slave, say me the surname. From what fucking Russian's family you are? What are you hiding?!" His husky voice was loud that I shivered from it. He slapped me with his palm on his last word, to my cheek.

"-About what are you talking? I'm clueless about what you want for me." I cried in fear.

"Do you want to hear who I am?!" I 3was shouting to him with tears in my eyes. For now on, I'm again Mathea Snow. I'm a student, I'm a lonely mum, I'm divorced with psych, my mother is psych too from who I ran away to my husband psych...cha, cha, cha... I was laughing like the crazy one.

"It's paradox from the bear I jumped to the wolf, the person who I kept like a sister to me was psych who seems said to me only the truth about you, that finally, you will hurt me, Oh my gods I was so blind... I hid my face in my arms who was still locked on the table, I forgot how tired my legs were from standing in that uncomfortable posture. My legs were weak and I just give up by standing and laid all my hight on that cursed dirty table, which smelled like pee. 

"I just wanna see my son" I cried with a whisper with my hidden face of messy hair in my elbow. But now huge muscular men with some belly too took my hair. 

-" Look at him when he is talking with you Russian's slut.!"  He screamed at my er so loud that it seemed soon I will become deaf. My tears ran down as the river even from my nose too.

- "I didn't do anything wrong why are you doing this to me Kai please, I was still begging him while I looked into his eyes." Big men pulled me with my hair even harder when I said Kai's name. All men with questioning eyes looked at Kai again... I think I even saw the sweat on him near his eye which was running down, but his mask quickly hid it.

-"How long will you speak nonsense and tell me the truth?" He without any emotions asked I don't know what he wants to hear from me. I waited frozen but suddenly I got so sick, I puked myself while huge men hold me through my hair. I was so scared that my body was reacting to it.

- "You are so disgusting. you are worthless." He spits on me. I never felt this humiliating before. I want to die. My husband doesn't do anything. he is spitting on me and he doesn't do anything!

"And boring I'm tired of you. Let me play with her why are you keeping away us from her. She is repeating all the time the same. I'm boooored!" He continued annoyed with sighs. He rolled his eyes as his head leaned back against the ceiling. He let go of my hair and went near to Kai, his head lowered to Kai's ear and a man spoke silently to him.

-" Why you are protecting her? Don't let her in your brains, you know how good they are learned, to fuck your brains, common buddy." Big men's back was faced to me as he talked with Kai, but Kai's gaze was faced with me and his eyes never left me.

-"Leave." He said loud enough that all men took their weapons and went through doors.

-"For real?" Big men with belly raised his eyebrow.

-" I. said. leave. NOW!" Every word he said with a pause and big men with belly put his hand in the air as he would surrender.

-" Fine, fine I'm leaving. Lucky slut." Before leaving he looked at me and spitted on my injured hand again. I with tears tried to clean it using my elbow. I felt so disgusting and burning pain was killing me but I still cleaned my wound, even when I could see only blood and my hands were trembling from the agony of pain, I still kept cleaning it. I had to clean it.

More and more blood was running from my hand and in my mind went visions of how his saliva is going through my blood. He made me feel worthless, weak, dirty. I felt so pure grudge against him. That grudge with every second was growing. I never thought of anybody's death, but I wanted so much of his. I brushed with force all blood. Kai stood for a moment took from his pocket a rag and tried to put it on my hand but I was shaking my head.

-" No! No! No! It's dirty, he spat on me, it's dirty." I cried and I couldn't look at him only on my bleeding hand.

-"Stop. Mathea or who you are. You are doing it only worse to yourself. Do you want to lose your hand from brushing it like this? You will get an infection." He was holding my hand and I stopped to move.

-"Why you did this to me?" My head rose at him, but from tears, his face was blurred.

-"Listen to me carefully, I don't know who you are, but we don't have a child. You are a crazy or very skillful spy." With two of his fingers, he took me by the chin and I was forced to look in his cold grey eyes.

"But believe me, even if we would have a child I would pull him in the water the same moment as I would see him, as some puppies in a bag and would drown him with any thinking. Don't fantasize about me as a father or your husband, it's impossible. I hate children and I will never have one."

His cold gaze was as from a different man, not of my husband. I began to think maybe he isn't my husband maybe this monster has those magnificent eyes and that husky voice as well as my lover. 'This monster can't be my husband, he just can't. I let him cover my hand with his rag.

Tears ran away from my cheeks and he smiled with a freaky smile, only his white teeth were shining in the dark, then Kai also went through that doors and closed them, the sound of it scared me and I shook for a little bit.

I began to cry loudly when I thought that I was left alone, I didn't keep myself silent anymore from crying, my head became so heavy I lowered it to my elbows and the desk was keeping it with my hands together.

Soon I felt that something brushed through my hand, something soft. I slowly raised my head and saw that strange man again with dark, black eyes. He gave me the feather again and I took it with my healthy hand.

-"Why you didn't help me?" I cried to him. But he just tilted his head to one side.

"Are you even understand what I'm saying?" he walked a few steps away from me and began to go to the doors.

"Wait I'm sorry, please don't leave me here, please help me, don't go, please." I begged him, but he didn't turn around to me, he just dissapared from my view. And I was left alone in the dark.