Chapter 3

Warning: This Chapter involves body shaming of characters and I am really wanting to cover this subject; so if you are sensitive to it then you can wait until next chapter to read. Thank you!

Personally though I didn’t know Natalie as a person all I saw is a gorgeous city woman with shoulder length red hair, bright green eyes, and freckles across her olive skin. I couldn’t help but melt every time I saw her though I didn’t feel beautiful myself compared to her. I have beautiful long waves of blonde hair, dark blue eyes, and caucasian skin. I feel big compared to her even though she is rail thin, beautiful and I am plump, big and feel fat for a country woman. I have always felt big but this made me feel self conscious around her.

Sheila left when I told her which left me alone with Natalie in my big two story house with four bedrooms and three bathrooms. I used to have a big family but they all went their own way and never returned to our home but as the trust worthy simply, I took over for my parents and made everything to my comfort. I did keep my parents original stuff but took the stuff that didn’t need to be out or have my siblings take. A two story white house for a lonely woman you wouldn’t think would need much though it is home to keep things in my heart.

Once I got inside after putting the horses away, I didn’t bother finding Natalie then kept to myself as I worked around the house to keep everything in line as always. As hours passed Natalie finally came downstairs to reveal that her make-up had smudged and her eyes were sleepy from abrupt sleep that kept her upstairs most of the day.

“I thought you would still be outside.” Natalie said with a yawn.

“No, I wouldn’t leave you in this big house by yourself.” I replied smiling.

I couldn’t help adoring her messy hair, make-up a mess, and her way of being groggy.

“This house is so huge I can imagine getting lost in this place. I hope you don’t mind but I am hungry and thirsty, I didn’t realize how hot this place is.” Natalie responded by turning bright red.

“I will make us both something to eat, how does sandwiches and sweet tea sound for lunch?” I replied with a bit of nervousness in my voice.

“I am on a diet, do you have anything with less calories?” Natalie asked.

“What? Why would you ever be on a diet?” I asked stunned to hear that.

“I am fat, look at my stomach I have meat where it shouldn’t be. You look...stunning for a big woman but I can’t imagine being that big for myself.” Natalie responded by pinching her stomach to show her non-existent fat.

“Where in the world did you get you’re fat? I am big build because I work in the yard and build muscle but I am also big due to family genes. Natalie, you are thin and gorgeous. I am going to make us both salads minus the dressing.” I replied, getting up from the couch and making us both salads.

I felt like we were both going to break down and cry because we couldn’t handle our own bodies also how much we were hating our assigned bodies. I couldn’t imagine who would tell Natalie, she is fat when she is so thin and beautiful that I would think she is a model. I made our salads without a fess, grabbed two glasses and filled them with water as my mind was debating whether to dump my sweet tea later for the sake of Natalie.

“Amber, are you okay?” Natalie asked.

“Yes, I am fine.” I replied.

Grabbing everything together setting our salads and drinks in front of us as I quickly rushed to grab our forks. I felt Natalie’s eyes on me like she wanted to say more but didn’t. We sat in silence eating not daring to speak anymore of our bodies that we both hate so much. I finished my salad and water within a few minutes then waited on Natalie who barely ate a single bite.

“Natalie, is there something wrong with the salad?” I asked diligently.

“No, nothing wrong with it. I don’t know what is wrong with me. You think I am this beautiful, gorgeous lady whom you just met and I feel so fat and worthless.” Natalie replied wiping a tear away.

I got up from my seat then walked over to her, pulling her into a tight hug around me that I admit turned me on but wasn’t the place to do when we both needed comfort and the best way I know is to hug her. Natalie let me go within a few minutes then looked me in the eyes with sincerity that I had to back away before I really did something she wouldn’t approve of. As I went back to my chair and she sat down to eat again, Natalie progressed slowly of herself allowing some different foods to be in her system though she never gained an ounce as much as she ate. After a few days Natalie definitely improved on being around me though we weren’t close like me and Sheila their was a spark that would be hard to resist for too long but I needed to wait it out for Natalie’s sake.