Chapter 1: I'd rather look at a pig than look at y*u.

JANE POV

I watched my two friends argue about who was more good looking than the other. The  plan  that the three of us had was to go to the café  grab coffee and study for the chemistry quiz we had on Monday. Instead I had to watch two boys argue about who is good looking and who is better in bed .

At first the argument between them was funny but it started to get on my last nerve . I tried telling them to quite down in a nice way but then I realized that they weren't listening at anything I said. So I shouted ,

"hey dorks . shut up , I'm trying to study." I shouted knowing knowing they would get my attention . Then I realized not only did they get my attention the rest of the customers have my attention too .

I was so embarrassed that I hid my face behind my books . when i noticed that no one was looking at me I raised my head and I could see both of them staring at me , and spoke in union , "ok".

And returned to my studying.

Then after a few seconds Cody said ," hey J you are a girl right could you tell us which one of us is the most good looking"

I just stared at them . At that moment I was irritated at what I just heard . There was something in my mind telling me to kick their asses because they literally disturbed me to ask me a stupid question.

But I just rolled my eyes and ignored them . Then I closed my chemistry book at which I was reading .

Then watched marcel smith who was on my right . He was an African American he had a chocolate brown completion , had a hat on his head covering his wavy black hair . He was wearing a black sweat pants and an old navy blue t-shirt . He has been my best friend since we were eleven years old.

We became friends on the day that my parents move in to the house next door to them . He came over with his mom to welcome us to the neighborhood . My mom and his mom became friends immediately . But Marcel and I didn't immediately he and I would always fight. When I started going to the new school I was very nervous the first week I had mom dropped me. The second week I was brave to take the bus . I noticed that marcel didn't talk to me since I started school . One afternoon I was going home I heard some guys beating some one when I went closer I noticed the guys and immediately I knew who they were it was marcel and his friends bulling someone .

When I looked at marcel he looked as if he didn't want to be in company of the boys .I shouted ,"stop", trying to make them stop. When I had gotten their attention , I said ,"it is not nice to bully someone" and with that  they pushed me on the ground . It was then that I got angry and I told them that they shouldn't have done that . They said , " what you gonna do about it ". When the guy with blond hair tried to push me again I grabbed his hand and twist it making him yelp in pain. That was when marcel came to attack me and I just beat him up after that they all went home. And when I turned around the boy wasn't there anymore.

I  always thank my grand -father for training me to fight , but he always said don't fight with anyone  for your own personal reasons.

When I arrived home my mom said,"  are you ok". she then said to me " sweetie you have a friend here", I was bewildered because I didn't know who it was . I was wondering who it was and I saw marcel and his mom . His mom told me that he has something to say . That day I listened to what he said and he even apologize for what he did and from that day he and I became friends we even know each other secrets. 

Then I glanced to my left to see Cody white he is a Caucasian he has ginger red hair that was always perfect he is so white sometimes I call him snow white because he is white very white. I had know him when I entered high school since then we were friends . But we became friends because he liked my other best friend Jennifer Blake . She was everything a boy would want in a girlfriend . But it didn't work out for him when he realized she was bisexual and not her type . They became good friends too .

Then I heard Marcel say something that I didn't hear properly. And I asked ,

"what"

" The same question I asked you a few seconds ago", he said looking at me for and answer.

sometimes I can' t believe he is my best friend.

" I'd rather look at a pig than look at you two", I said sarcastically.

The two boys just stared at me like they had just realized something . I looked at him with a look trying to figure out what they were thinking . After a few seconds marcel said ,

"well that's the Jane Anderson I know."  Marcel said letting out a laugh.

Then Cody said , "dude she called us ugly"

 Marcel said , " no she didn't"

Coby said "dude she just said that she rather look at a pig than look at us that means we are uglier than a pig."

The both of them wouldn't stop this yes and charade. so I decided to put a stop at it because people are looking.

" Dude you are being overdramatic at the moment ", I said as he pouted . Then marcel asked me "why does he always dramatizes about everything". I didn't get to answer him because then Cody  said to us in his baby voice she told me I looked worst than a pig . He was ranting about that for a whole minute . Well so much trying to stop them . When he was finished marcel and I couldn't hold our laughter . We started laughing so hard that the customers that were inside the store just stared at us.

After a couple of minutes I heard a grumble come from my stomach .

Then I got up and went to the counter where an employee was standing I didn't pay attention to him I just ordered something to eat .

As I got back to my seat and finished the cup cake that I bought . I saw marcel and Cody looking at my cupcake. " what happened ", I said looking at both of them .They said ,"um J do you want to place a bet ."

"What is the bet about", I asked feeling a bit nervous. ." you know what", he said  and was glancing at the cupcake . " ok if any of us can finish 10 cupcakes within 5 minutes win .", I said as I waited for him to answer.

" what is the reward", he said forward.

" we both place a bet of fifty bucks each", I said . He then agreed . Then he handed me the money to go and buy the cupcakes.

As I walked towards the counter to place my order for the cupcakes I heard Cody say, " buy a extra one please . " As I reached the counter and I gave the order for the cup cakes it took them about 3 minutes to come with the cupcakes we ordered.

When the cupcakes arrived at the table I heard marcel say Jane Maria Anderson you are about to taste the raft of Marcel Jacob smith. When he finished his speech I heard Cody laughing as we watched him with a look of not knowing why he was laughing . After he calmed his self he said ,

" Cel you know she will beat you and win"

we just ignored what he said . I told Coby to set the timer on his phone . When he finished setting it he said on your mark set go and we started to eat to cupcake wildly .Then I heard Coby say

go Jane !go Jane !

When I had finished 5 of the  cupcakes marcel had only finish 3 of them . It hadn't even reached 3 minutes when I finished the cup cakes . As soon as I finished eating the cupcakes I grabbed the money that was on the table as soon as I finished the bet . Then I looked over at him and told him, "I don't know why you always insist on placing bets you always lose in the end" . He replied saying, " someday I will win someday ." Later that afternoon marcel had given me a drive home . He had to, he was my neighbor .when we arrived home marcel and I went inside the house . As we entered the house I noticed my little brother Jack Anderson was sitting on the island in the kitchen eating a cheese pizza. Marcel and I went over to the island where Jack was sitting . Marcel took a pizza out of the box then I grabbed I pizza out of my brother hand . He was so irritated at what I had done . But he just looked at me and rolled his eyes at me. Then he told me no matter how much you irritate me I still love you . I was moved at what he said . When he looked at me he then told marcel," she won't be beating me tonight ". The both of them started to laugh.

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Marcel left at around eight that night. When I  went downstairs I found my brother in the living room on the couch watching Empire . I honestly don't like that series I don't know what jack found interesting about that series at all .

I startled him from behind the couch putting him in a headlock and him screaming loud and yelling

Rape! Rape !

After a while I just released him . We both sat on the couch looking for a movie to watch . It was a Friday night and either of us has anything to do . As he was looking for movies I asked him what time mom's coming home . He then looked at me as if he had seen a ghost . He then replied saying , "mom came home hours ago ." I replied, "really " in a shocked way . "Yeah she said we are not to disturb her she has to go on business trip in Los Angelus early in the morning.", Jack said.

The taught of mom working so hard always hurts me because since she and my dad divorced when I was in 5th grade has been rough on her . We found a movie he shouted  Bringing me back from my thoughts.

Before the movie had ended the both of us fell asleep in the living room. When I woke up and I went to the kitchen I saw mom left a note saying .

"Jane honey there is food in the fridge heat it before you eat and here is some money you and your brother go and enjoy yourself outside and find a boyfriend lol "

I was very irritated at what she said . I went  to the bathroom doing my normal morning routine. As I finished brushing my teeth and taking my shower . I went in front of the mirror fixing my self by combing my very long Burnette hair in front of the mirror it was then I realized that I need to take care of my hair more I hadn't comb it in a week. When I finished I ran down the stairs to the kitchen where I found my brother eating he was looking fresh and brightly his jet black hair was still moist from the shower he had. He was 169 cm in height it was when I watched the pants that he was wearing was a black old navy track pants . I didn't bothered him about at all .

After breakfast I said ," jack do you want to go outside for a walk". he said , "yeah." As we were walking he said ," don't get a boyfriend I don't want you to be hurt again like before " ."I won't" , I said to him . he was the only one in my family that  knew what had happened to me when I was 16.

After that he tripped me and I fell. In an instant I got up and ran towards him not knowing anything I stumbled into a person . When I raised my head I saw a guy with jet black hair wearing a leather jacket and a black t-shirt and he was wearing Jordan's on his feet .

When I stumbled in his arms I was amazed how strong he was I stumble I had a hand rested on his chest at that moment I didn't know what came over me at an instant I was brought back to reality . As i was brought back to reality i could smell cigarettes' stench coming from him 

When I was about to apologize to the guy for stumbling into him . He just started shouting saying , "bitch I think you should look at where you are walking"

I was just speechless at what he had said . My temper was rising at an extent at which I couldn't control it anymore. When he started walking away I stopped him he looked at me . The way he looked at me had started aggravated me .

I then told him," did you just call me a bitch."

he said , "yes" the response that he gave me was just tempting me to swear at him and knocked him down .

It was to an extent at which I couldn't control my temper anymore and I started arguing saying ,

"you think you are all that . Maybe your parents didn't have the time to teach you some manners . instead of calling me a bitch because we bumped into each other you could say sorry. And let me tell you something I don't like fucking guys with your character calling me names. That has no manners and has the stench of cigarettes' on them. 

He just stranded there with a smirk on his face . And that had just add fuel to my temper.

In a flash he was on the ground . It was then that I was very angry that I gave him a round house kick   on the side walk"

" Bloody playboy" , i said walking away.

I had learned karate when I was a kid and especially when you learn it from my grand father. And to think that it came in handy today.

when I was finished I said "sorry" and walked away I was very angry at that man for what he called me. Its just that it remined me of the past. As I walked going over to my brother he saw how angry I was. He ran over and asked me ,

"hey sis what's up you looked as if you are about to murder someone."

" I had stumbled into a person who thinks he is all that." , and I told him about every thing that happen and he said," calm down sis ." He then said, " you know what can cheer you up." I asked him,

"what"

he said, " a cheese burger at burger king"

I started to smile and my mood changed .

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when we arrived home my brother ran straight to the basement and sat with his Xbox playing a game . At that moment I  remember what had happened between our families when I was in 5th grade it was a day I would like to forget.

Flashback 

It was during summer when all the chaos happened in our house . I was playing video games in the basement when I heard noise coming from upstairs I was eleven at the time when I heard my eight year old brother jack came downstairs saying moms and dad were fighting.

My father Travis Anderson and my mom Beatrice Olsen were fighting . When I went upstairs I saw them fighting , to me it was another night . But I had a feeling that this would be bad .

My father was an alcoholic and he was always violent towards mom. When I was five mom had a broken arm . She tried to keep it a secret . And saying she fell down the stairs but I didn't believe her . My father was a man who was always violent to mom when he didn't have his way . He would bully her for money and so .well on that he went a little too far with his demands . When mom didn't cooperate he started beating her very bad . When I witness everything I was trembling with fright and legs were trembling . At that moment I ran towards the phone and dialed 911 and he was taken in custody . My mom was in bad condition . She asked for an lawyer and she had a divorced she them told us that she will be going back to collage and have a job so we can have everything we want .

That was the worst childhood memory I have of him .

I had found it to forgive him but it was hard to forget what had happen that night.

My moms parents had come to see her at the hospital . They hadn't talked to her in twelve years they helped mom with everything she needed.

The memories of my dad just changed because of what he did that night.

I just hope one day he will realize what he did.

Later on I joined jack playing on the Xbox we were having fun like crazy .

We finished playing on the Xbox around five in the afternoon. Jack and I went in the living room we were both on our phones . He was watching some YouTube videos while I was texting my friends in the group chat name live like there is no tomorrow.

At around eight that night mom came . As she entered the house jack and I stared at her she was so happy she even brought ice cream . She never brings ice cream , she would say it is bad for your health .

When jack and I looked at one another, he mouthed saying," what is wrong with her ". We both looked at mom . I went quietly and asked her what happened to her . She shouted ,

"oh jane if you know how happy I am"

I didn't understand what she was talking about .

Around eleven that night I went to bed to sleep. At around 11:30 I couldn't sleep it was because of that idiot I met earlier today . It really went to my nerves I have never been so angry in my life. I haven't even swear in like two years he was just on my nerves the entire time. I tried to calm my self and sleep .

But I couldn't fall asleep its just that I feel as if I have met him before and I couldn't put my finger on where I had met him.

After a couple of minutes I started to feel sorry at what I have done . I just wish that I could meet him to apologize to him properly. It is just that when someone just calls me names like that it just brings back memories from two years ago .

It is ok when girls say it but when a boy say it . I just get angry.