Chapter 11

 Zara's POV.

This sucks. Big time. 

I don't know why it hurts so much but it does hurt... It hurts so goddamn much that I fear my heart might burst in my chest. I don't even have feelings for the guy and yet seeing him with another woman... Seeing him fucking another woman when our wedding is just two weeks away makes my heart ache. 

I guess it is because deep down...some part of me had hoped that he wouldn't be seeing other women and that he would be truthful and...

"Where to Miss?" The driver asks. 

"Just keep driving around." I can't exactly go home like this. My mum will be able to sense that there is something wrong and I don't want to bother her with....

You ain't even married yet and you are already keeping things like this from your Ma.

I know...I know I shouldn't keep it from her but I just feel so... I really don't know.

I feel like some kind of failure... I mean for him to fuck another woman then there must be something I am lacking.

What is this Zara? What the fuck are you talking about? You don't just go around belittling yourself just because your dick of a future husband can't keep his shit in his pant. You are enough and more than enough for him, he is just not man enough to see that.

Oopsie... I didn't see that coming. You sure do have a lot to say today brainy. 

Maybe half of what you said is true but I just can't help but think that...

Don't go there again, Zara

I flinch a little when my phone starts ringing. I quickly fish it out of my pocket and let out a groan when I see the caller ID.

Yeah, you guessed right.

It is Jason.

I clear my throat a little before answering the call.

"Zara...are you there? Why did you run out like that?" He asks.

I scoff unable to believe that he really asked me that question.

"What should I have done, Jason? Stand there and watch you fuck her?" I ask him.

There is silence for a while before he speaks up again.

"I... I don't know what to say." He says.

"I don't know but I think an apology will be a great start." 

"I can't tender an apology when I am not actually sorry."

Ouch! That siding hurt at all. 

Okay, maybe it did hurt but just a little though.

"I caught you with another woman when our wedding is just two weeks away and you are not sorry?" I ask him.

I hear him taking a deep breath and let it out slowly.

"Listen Zara, our relationship is not exactly normal and as you very well know I was forced into this so called relationship..."

No shit Sherlock.

"... so I really don't think I have anything to apologize for. I mean, we haven't even taken any kind of oath or vows or whatever the fuck it is called. I sorry you had to see that though."

My eyes stings a little by his words. He isn't even sorry, he doesn't even feel remorseful and here I am bothered and hurt by what I saw.

"Okay then Jason." I finally say with so much strength in my voice that if I told you that I was affected by what I saw earlier... you won't believe me. 

"I am sorry if you got hurt by what you saw Zara, I really didn't mean for you to see that." He says.

I fight the urge to scoff. Does he really expect me to believe that after what he said just a minute ago?

"It is fine Jason. I need you to try your kaftan on and if it needs any adjustments you tell my mum about it." I tell him and hang up without waiting for a reply. 

I sigh and tuck my phone in my pocket before turning to the driver. 

"Take me to the Edwards."

"Yes Miss." He replies before making a reverse. 

I need to see Lucy. I can't explain why though but I just feel like I have to tell her about this. She will be able to help me, she always have a solution to everything.

Even though her solutions are always ridiculous most of the time.

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"He did what?" Lucy exclaims. Really loudly,might I add.

"Exactly what I said, Lucy." I breathe. 

"How dare he? How could he do that? You just watch...I am going to teach him a lesson he will never forget." She rants.

"That really isn't necessary Lucy... he doesn't even feel sorry about it and...I am here getting worked up about...it. I just don't know want to do Lucy..."I trail off.

She takes a deep breath and then she walks over to my side of the bed and sits beside me. 

"I really don't know what to say Zara. I just don't want you to feel like you aren't enough for anyone especially not Jason." She says.

"Two weeks Lucy... we only have two weeks before our wedding and he went ahead and... I know we have no feelings whatsoever for each other but I just... I just don't understand... I can't explain what it is that I feel right now... I don't know Lucy, I guess I am so hurt by this because I just didn't see this coming... I didn't expect this to happen and now..."

"You can tell your parents about it and maybe they can call the wedding off or something." Lucy reasons.

"You know I can't do that Lucy. They have no reason to believe me...they might just think I am accusing him of something just to get out of marrying him and I don't think I can keep up with that drama." I tell her.

She shoots me a disapproving look.

"I still think you should tell them. I mean you are not even married yet and he is already cheating, what happens when you get married to him?" She asks.

"Technically he didn't cheat on me, I mean we aren't even married yet and we definitely didn't get engaged on a normal ground so..." I shrug. 

I am starting to feel numb and drained and tired and...

That is way too much and's Zara.

"I really don't agree with you Zara but if you think you can live with the fact that he cheated on you two weeks before your wedding... then by all means, do as you see fit." She says. 

I know she doesn't agree with my decision, in fact I don't agree with my decision myself if that makes any sense. 

I just feel like there is nothing I can do about. What is done is done. I just have to make sure he doesn't think he can still keep his 'woman friend' once we get married.

I won't stand for that... I will just have to set things straight with him.

"I will be fine Lucy." I reassure her. At least I tried to reassure her.

"Whatever you say Zara but I still don't like this." She repeats.