All Chapters of Finding Myself: Chapter 31 - Chapter 40

“Since I was nine or ten years old, my mother would send me out to run errands for her. Most of the time these lasted overnight. At first I thought nothing of it, but as I got older, I noticed that it was regularly once a month, always with the full moon. When I was seventeen and she sent me away, I pretended to leave the house, as I always do, without asking any questions. Only this time had I bribed a boy to take this path for me. I hid so that I could keep an eye on the house. It took until it was dark , then I saw my mother let a man into the house . Now my curiosity was really aroused and I crept quietly into the house. The man's and my mother's voices came from their bedroom. Careful not to make any noise, I crept to the door and looked through the keyhole. I saw my mother, with the looks and body of a thirty-year-old, sitting naked on the man's lap, who was also naked. Since they believed they were alone in the house, they spoke in a normal loud voice and I understood every w

When Lumina entered her room, Candle was sitting there dejected in an armchair. Darkness and Lieu sat across from her on the couch and watched her. Candle raised her head as Lumina approached and asked, "How is she?""Better now." Lumina replied. “Now that everything is out, what was on her mind. Please excuse me for a moment , I just want to change my clothes quickly. ""What can I do?" Candle muttered questioningly.“Nothing at the moment.” Lieu replied. "First give her time. I know Leo looks on the outside like she is completely numb, but inside of her it simmers. She just doesn't know yet how to assign her feelings . And I blame you for not showing what you feel, how and when. Everything else is forgivable, you only did that for their protection, but not. "Lumina had returned and heard the last words. She put her hand on Lieu's arm and said reassuringly, “Let it be. There's no point in piling up accusations on Candle, it makes enough of itself. We're not

"I don't think so," replied Draco. "And even if it did, it wouldn't be of much use to us because there isn't enough gas left in it to get to the next gas station .""So we have to run." Grinned Leo."Well then, have fun." Wanja said with a laugh."But I think that Lieu will come up with something ." Zerafina interjected.There was another knock on the door, a young priestess was standing in front of it."Your mother asks you to come to her for dinner," she said .The four of them followed her and were amazed that they were not taken to their mother's room , but to a large hall where the priests and priestesses were sitting at a long table. Lumina sat at the head of the table and Lieu sat next to her . There were two vacancies on the right and left sides . The priestess brought her to these.At the far end of the table, Leo saw Candle sitting, looking at each other with sad eyes. To avoid her gaze, Leo turned to Lumina.After the meal,

"Nothing," said Leo, turning her head on the other side. She hadn't counted on Draco's stubbornness. He took her chin and turned her face towards him."Don't be fooled," he ordered gently. “I see and feel that something is depressing you. Tell me what it is. "Leo pressed her face to his chest. "I'm doing everything wrong," she sobbed. "I can't kiss and I can't feel.""Oh, little one," Draco comforted her. “Of course you can kiss and you can feel too. For example now, now you feel disappointed. But you don't have to. After all, I love you for who you are. ”With these words he gently stroked her hair.“You see, you know you love me, but I do n't know. I don't know if I love you I just know when you're not with me it's like it's cold around me. It's only warm near you. ”Leo said still with tears."Then I will make sure that you are always warm, I will always be with you." Draco promised and sealed his promise with a kiss.At first Leo hesitated to g

Why are you driving to your home? You would have been safer with Lumina. ""Everyone says that," answered Leo. "But I suddenly wanted to go there, I don't know why.""Were you homesick?" Asked Marie."Could be." Leo replied. “I ca n't exactly assign what comes to my mind so suddenly, that is, I don't know what the feeling is. It sounds stupid, but it's true. "Marie didn't know how to answer.“May I ask you something too?” Leo took up the conversation again."Yes, of course, whatever you want." Replied Marie."How did you know that you were in love with Belziel ?" Asked Leo, embarrassed."Well, how do you notice that?" Replied Marie drawn out. "It's hard to describe.""Oh, okay." Leo nodded. "How long have you been a couple?"“Oh, that's been a long time, about a thousand years. When I first saw him, I thought, 'Wow, what a man.' It didn't seem to be any different to him, because he spoke to me directly. It was at the time