All Chapters of The Heartbreaker (Completed): Chapter 1 - Chapter 10

 With my index finger I trace the trail that the raindrop has left on the other side of the window pane and wonder whether heaven has cried with me out of solidarity. Is there an old man with a gray beard sitting up there who has decided that my pain is great enough to adjust the weather accordingly?"Do you know the feeling when you've drank or eaten something cold too quickly?" I ask quietly and slide my finger to the next trail of rain. “The brain freezes painfully. This is how my whole body feels. Frozen ... and it hurts so much. ""Evy, honey, you've been sitting at the window for hours now, staring at the rain." There is a slight rustling behind me as Claire, one of my two roommates, sits down on the bed. Carefully, as if she were worried about frightening me, she puts a hand on my shoulder and caresses it gently."At least she's not crying anymore," Lu says from somewhere. "The source has dried up,

"You shouldn't throw yourself at him, the other way around." Claire lets the phone drop and smiles at me. "Don't worry, he'll know what to do to break into another guy's territory.""The plan is stupid, but it will definitely work," says Lu again. “If Jake tries to take the lollipop away from Sebastian, he'll want it back. Even if he's already licked. Or half sucked. ""Really nice, what cute nicknames and flowery paraphrases you come up with for me and my situation," I whistle in her direction, whereupon she shrugs her shoulders calmly.“He'll be here in half an hour,” Claire breaks our little exchange.“He's coming here now? Today? ”I wonder aloud.“Like I said - he owes me a ton of favors. I just picked him up from a party in the ass last weekend because the guy he was out with had run away. "“Nice.” Lu grins broadly. “But it should be fine with me that Creampie Jake honors us today.

I look at him from the side, having to tilt my head back slightly. There is something thoughtful about his expression, and I wonder if he has had any other experiences himself. "What are you studying?" I finally want to know from him. Funny, I've known him for a while through Claire, but if it ever came up which degree he was studying, I can't remember.“Teaching degree. Special education, if you want to know exactly. "Wow, so I wasn't expecting that at all. Jake as a teacher? That ... somehow doesn't fit. Although I don't know Jake well enough to be able to make such an assessment."I want to teach difficult to educate or physically challenged children." He underlines the words difficult to educate with ticks in the air, as if they were bothering him.   Admittedly, I am impressed. And I'm ashamed that I automatically put him in a drawer just because he has a certain reputation. "How did you come up with that?" I ask, interested.

So, see you ? Is that it? Almost four years, a bitter separation, a short, slightly tense conversation - and that's it. The newly awakened hope that he would be jealous of Jake because he actually wants me back creeps back into her dark corner and curls up.I barely manage to take my full plate away and leave the cafeteria without bursting into tears in front of everyone. My vision blurs as soon as I step a few steps away from the building. I feel like my chest is tightening and I take a deep breath to release the pressure."Don't cry," I tell myself well and almost stumble because I'm walking so fast. I have to be at work in a few hours, and I have no clue how to get through the day without collapsing.I manage to get home, change clothes and pack a few things. Tears run down my cheeks, but I wipe them away vehemently and don't allow myself to give in to the pain and sorrow. I really cried enough. And even if the encounter with Sebastian feels like a defeat, I

It is becoming more and more difficult for me to connect the young man here next to me with the heartbreaking Casanova, despite the fact that I can feel his inexplicable effect again and again. Just like at this moment. It's damn dangerous to get lost in this feeling, even if it's so tempting.  "I have to go on now," I say and get up. I am shouldering my bag.Jake stands up too. “I'll see you on Friday evening then. Do you want me to pick you up from work? ""Um ... yes, okay." I give him the address and wait for him to write it down. "See you then, Jake." With one last smile in his direction, I turn away and go to my next class.    "A date?""A fake date," I correct Lu.We met in the kitchen to cook together. This is our Thursday evening ritual."We're going to Sunrise in the hope that Sebastian will be there too and see us together."&