Insecure

weeks later (6 training units) For two weeks I've been vacillating between feelings. On the one hand, I want to be close to Linda, always try to stop when I see her and feel more like a stalker than ever before. On the other hand, there is her new cool look at me, which stabs me right into the heart, but also stirs up my anger. What did I do or say to deserve this look? I was just being honest.Is it possible that she has no feelings for me? Could it be that I have interpreted too much into small things and she is not into me at all? The very thought of it stings me deeply in the heart.Even when I am near her, I feel further from her than ever. Something like resignation is slowly creeping in. Apparently she doesn't want me.Today is the last training session before the autumn break. That means tomorrow we're going to the training camp. 10 days in Croatia with 4 hours of training a day and around the clock Linda. Not everyone in our t

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Return the kiss

Seconds later he is standing next to Linda with Ben. One of his hands strokes Ben's hair, the other is on Linda's back, fueling my jealousy. When he is pushing past her in the narrow aisle, I want to pounce on him and have my fist test his bone density. But I can stop myself just like that.Shortly afterwards we stop at a small rest area and Tom and Linda lead Ben outside. A few others follow to stretch their legs, including me. As always, I stay as close as possible to Linda's, which is proving difficult at the moment, as Ben's puking noises also hit my stomach. But for Linda I bravely swallow my discomfort.A few minutes later, Tom carries a crying Ben past me back onto the bus and I keep an eye out for Linda. For a moment it seems as if she is enjoying the view, because it is already dawn and you can watch an impressive sunset. But then I see her swaying and kneeling because her legs no longer support her. My heart slips into my pants and with 4 big steps I am with

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Confess

"... so we'll all see each other at 3 pm for our first training session at the latest, and now I wish you all a good appetite. Thank you very much ”, Franz ends his speech and everyone claps cautiously.I quickly join Linda's group, consisting of the 'protectors', Fine, Linda, Ben and Ina. We go to dinner together and after we have all filled the plates at the buffet I sat down next to Ina, as this is the next seat to Linda that is not yet occupied. Linda sits between the two little ones and Tom, of course, next to his brother. This picture bothers me, how they both treat the little ones so lovingly, almost as if they were a family. The very idea gives me a tremendous pang in my heart."Who are you?" Ina asks me with her childlike, naive manner and diverts my attention from the imaginary family idyll."Leon." I say curtly, I just can't be with children. They don't like me and it's mutual."And why do you always look at Linda so strangely?", She cont

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All Chapters of Finding Love Again: Chapter 11 - Chapter 13

Insecure

Return the kiss

Confess