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Prologue
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2020-10-19 14:03:50I'm not perfect but I try my best to be one. I'm strong enough to get the attention of the other but deep inside I'm weak, i don't want to felt like alone and felt like I'm not ka mahal mahal.
Sometimes i question my parent's why did them do that, because of them i experience insulting.
I'm child that time but i feel like I'm adult, nakaatang na sa akin ang lahat i don't know how to do that things, the adults things.
I try my best to understand the situation that time, but it's not easy. Hanggang ngayon litong lito parin ako. Why my beloved mother do that thing to my father? What is happening to my family? My mother is murderer, yung ama ko may kabit.
I'm just a little kid and i don't have anyone, my relatives are not showing up. Masyado silang na hihiya sa ng yayari sa pamilya ko, and i don't care about that. Relatives? Is like a joke to me, I don't want to be with them any way.
Ayokong makipag plastikan sa kanila. I'm pretty and 'di ako nag hahanap ng kaka istress ko.
“Kiss me, Ria, don't stop,” he said to me, what did he say? Don't stop? His not to good in kissing. Yes! I did it. But not the thing you dreaming.
Yuck haha I'm malandi, but i don't want to do that thing. I push him and stand up to his bed. I'm here in his condo, masyado siyang excited and he dreamed na gagawin namin yun. Yuck like ew haha I'm not dumb he's playboy and he think that i give it to him.
“What are you doing? Why you're not give it to me? You think I joke to you that time I said that I love you to you?" I look to him, disgusting. So he think that?
“I don't care if you said that you love me, I would rather to die before I give it to you,” I said, I continue what I doing.
I put my blouse. Gusot na ito at halata na may ginawa kame, but I don't care to other saying just don't say anything na maririnig ko mismo. Baka humalik sila sa sahig pag nag kataon.
Lalabas na sana ako sa kaniyang kwarto ng pigilan niya ako. Lumingon ako dito bahagya kong inalis ang pag kakahawak niya pero masyadong mahigpit iyon.
“You think I give you time to skip to me? I'm not dumb to do that you're hot Ria and I'm not resist it." Ang mga kamay niyang nakahawak lang sa aking braso ngayon ay bumababa na pa tungo sa aking binti.
I try to shout but i know no one will heard. We here in he's room and the front door ay masyadong malayo. Pilit kong pinipiglas ang pag kakahawak niya sakin at ang kamay niyang pababa ng pababa sa aking bukana.
Malakas ko siyang sinipa sa kaniyang binti dahilan ng kaniyang pag bagsak. I run faster than I can, my heel is hurt because of what I did to him.
Ika-ika akong lumabas sa kaniyang condo, I heard the shout but I didn't stop to run away from him.
Malapit na ako sa elevator ng may mabungo akong lalaki, I ignore it and run again. Hanggang sa makarating sa elevetor dama ko parin ang matinding kaba na nararamdaman ko kanina. I look to my feet and I see the Violet around there.
Naramdaman ko na may sumunod sa aking pag pasok pero 'di ko na pinansin 'yun.
“Tsk! Fuck shit that guy! Because I don't want to give my virginity he doing that stupid thing to me.” Patuloy parin ang pag tingin ko sa aking paa.
“If you don't want to do that, why you give yourself to him?” Na pabaling ang aking tingin sa lalaking nag salita sa gilid ko.
Tinaas ko ang aking kilay at pinag cross ko ang aking braso.
“Excuse me sir but I didn't give my self to him.” he drifted his eyes at me and give me a disgusting look. “How dare you to look at me like that!?" may inis kong saad.
“You said you didn't give yourself...” Tumas ang kaniyang kilay dahil duon “Are you joking? Look at yourself, your blouse is mess you think I believe in you.” Yahh! What the hell!
Tinanggal ko ang pag kakadikit ng akong braso at dahan-dahang pinag pagan ang aking blouse. I turn away to avoid the tension between us.
Agad naman akong lumabas ng marinig ko ang pag tunog ng elevator hudyat na nasa ground floor na kame. I walk faster than I can, nakakahiya sa part ko yung ng yari. Gosh what is happening to me? This not me! I'm not shy type, but why I feel this way.
Agad akong pumasok sa aking kotse ng makarating duon. That man! He give me disgusting look hahaha what the hell!
Hindi maalis sa isipan ko ang ng yari kanina. Masyado siyang mapang mata kalalaking tao na paka epal.
Paaandarin ko na sana ang aking kotse ng may marinig akong malakas na busina dahilan ng aking pag hinto.
Tumingin ako sa side mirror para makita ko kung sino yung bumusina. Dumungaw ang lalaking kanina ko pa kinakainisan.
Wow that's crazy guy is getting to my nerves. Masyado siyang papansin, binaba ko ang aking bintana at tinaas ang aking gitnang daliri. Tsk! Fucking shit.
Kahit na sa loob ako ng aking sasakyan, rinig na rinig ko parin ang malakas niyang tawa tsk!
Hindi ko na lang pinansin ito, umalis ako duon na ramdam ang pang gigil sa lalaking iyun.
If i see you I will destroy your life I swear to god.
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I'm not perfect but I try my best to be one. I'm strong enough to get the attention of the other but deep inside I'm weak, i don't want to felt like alone and felt like I'm not ka mahal mahal.Sometimes i question my parent's why did them do that, because of them i experience insulting.I'm child that time but i feel like I'm adult, nakaatang na sa akin ang lahat i don't know how to do that things, the adults things.I try my best to understand the situation that time, but it's not easy. Hanggang ngayon litong lito parin ako. Why my beloved mother do that thing to my father? What is happening to my family? My mother is murderer, yung ama ko may kabit. I'm just a little kid and i don't have anyone, my relatives are not showing up. Masyado silang na hihiya sa ng yayari sa pamilya ko, and i don't care about that. Relatives? Is like a joke to me, I don't w
