Beneath her Facade

Dear diary,             My dad died this last holiday and I have never felt so empty and all alone. My world was already bleak and so bare, he was my only ray of happiness and hope, the only one who made sure I always had a smile on my face, the only one who truly loved me despite how I look, the only one who showed me what love was and what it could be. Oh death, why? Why does everyone derive happiness in my sadness, why did you take the only one that gave my bleak dark world rays of sunlight, why?     My dad was suddenly rushed to the hospital when he complained of severe and intense pain in his abdominal area, he fainted on the way to the hospital tho. I remember being so scared and at loss at what to do, he told me to pray, 'Pray long and hard for me, pray that God gives me more time for your sake, for your siblings sake's, for your mother's sake', he said and then he fainted. I

'Hey how are you, how you holding up, are they treating you any better??' Mark my childhood best friend  said hugging me before I could even comfortably get into the car. 'I'll be fine eventually ', I say, trying my best to give him a smile. 'You know you can always tell me anything right, I'll always be there for you no matter what happens, I'll be there, you know that right?', he asked obviously seeing through my fake smile. 'I do', I just simply reply. Still worried he cupped my cheeks and parted his lips to say something but got interrupted by someone awkwardly clearly their throat making me notice the presence of someone else asides his driver in the car, Anita. I mentally roll my eyes, the girl is a witch with an innocent face that takes obvious delight in tormenting me urrrgh what's she doing here. 'Umm, Jamjam this is Anita, she's our classmate', Mark says, his voice cutting through the thick tension and silence that had sud

JAMEELAShowing a new student around school was soo not in my plan to start the first day of school but you know, principal's orders, can't turn that down can I? I just lead him to the class, someone else will handle giving him a school tour abeg, I've tried na wetin.I barely looked at him, you barely look at anyone, just kept my head down with my permanent blank face and lead him to the class making sure to keep my distance. I felt him staring at me but choose to ignore it despite the fact it made me more uneasy than other peoples stares, I'm sure he thinks you are freaking ugly, like ugly and fat and shapeless. By the time we get to class I barely mumble a 'we are here' and desperately try to hurry to my sit to at least stall my classmates venom but a lot of things are not just going according to plan today, arrgh.They literally tear me down like ravaging wolves with their words and I so

JAMILIts been a couple weeks at Peak High and I'm really getting a hang to this school and dare I say I'm liking it, who are you deceiving you love it here. 'Baddest''Oshey''Mad oo''Haew', came the exicted exclamations of my friends as I told them about how I got Ese, one bony girl that likes to do holy holy to send me her nudes.'Guy, you don't mean it', came the shocked and exicted voice of Nonso, we had bonded easily and faster than the other guys so he was like my main gee.'I'm serious, I did not expect her to send anything. I was just joking around and trying my luck, was surprised to see that she actually pulled through with it and sent them', came my robotic reply.'Bad guy!', some of them exclaimed making me laugh, well a silent laugh that you couldn't really hear anything.'So this holy holy winsh is not even holy, chei there is

JAMEELA Cucuruku, cucuruku Damn that alarm, is it already 5am, urgh. Today is Saturday so that means mega work for me and yes, I wake up everyday by 5am, step-mom is such a darling, hear the sarcasm. I got up and went downstairs to the kitchen to prepare breakfast for my step mother and sister, made their breakfast and put it in coolers and set on the dinning table so that the food would still be warm when they are finally ready to eat. I did my chores; sweeping the parlor, cleaning the chairs, cleaning Maria's and Jacinta's trophy's and awards from modeling and fashion designing, cleaning the kitchen, taking out the trash, moping the entire house and cleaning all the rooms and bathroom's in the house, wash and dry clothes. It was around past nine when I completed my chores, well the first set. 'Where is that stupid girl', I heard Maria saying and my heart literally sank, oh no.