Half lies

I went back to ignoring cherry, avoiding her at every turn, I started hanging out with Ray more, he had a girlfriend now, her name was Asher, we called her archer just to get under her skin, she was really cute, dark skinned, short and crazy.

They always hinted on a triad but my heart was elsewhere.

I could feel Cherry's eyes everywhere I went, see who the stalker was now.

She kept sending me messages, some sweet, some needy, she woke me up with romantic texts, left loving voicemails, tried to talk to me every day, I was flattered really but I didn’t need all the physical assurances, she broke our emotional bridge, no amount of flowers or chocolates could fix that.

I went back to my former routine, classes, if I wanted to attend them, cafeteria, library, walk around campus, Ray’s room or mine.

We had fun most times, we either talked about anime or played video games, I always won though, what can I say? I'm just that good.

His girlfriend would playfully flirt with me, it didn’t make me uncomfortable but all and who I wanted wasn’t here, it just felt wrong to be with someone without her here, to entertain someone when we hadn’t even said one word to each other.

I was addicted to her, hung up on her, Ray helped me with that, I changed almost all my patterns, I gave her space, I gave myself space, I needed it.

Our finals were coming up, who would have thought I could survive my first year in college, I was failing some courses but nothing some catching up and hard work wouldn’t fix, I would spend the rest of the holidays reading, I would catch up before next semester begun, I would cover the full syllabus, only me, I would do all of these things, I believed in myself or maybe I would just lay my head down and sleep, for the rest of the goddamn year.

Ray and I became regulars at the library, I didn’t read most of the time, I just loved the quiet, I loved the illustrative books, I loved watching Ray read, he was really smart, there’s just something about smart people, not the obnoxious kind though, you learn with them, you grow with them.

We became an amazing duo, we did everything, went everywhere, together, as long as we were together we could do anything even become strippers, been there done that, we were banned from the club.

It had been two weeks since you know what and I have never felt this refreshed, I didn’t see her anymore though, not even around campus, it was like she just vanished, I saw her minions around, they were always watching, I wasn’t bothered, as long as they didn’t creep me out.

My heart didn’t skip three beats when I thought of her and it made me sad just a tiny bit, it was like she was here but not here, she still sent me texts, I never responded to any, why? I didn’t know.

Asher and I went shopping, we were going to a club later today, I was good with a shirt, throw in some trousers and we were good to go, well let’s say my confession pushed our shopping spree.

Here we are trying on different clothes, laughing like maniacs and pretending to be Beyoncé, of course I posed as Kanye or was it Jay-Z?.

We settled for dresses, I was seriously rethinking this but I looked really hot in this, I would complement this with a flip flop.

Another shopping spree for shoes, I really needed to keep my mouth shut, I tried almost a hundred pair of shoes, a gazillion times, then settled for the first heel I wore, typical women’s shopping day.

Next was the salon, I had really short hair, I didn’t know how she was going to pull off a girly look but she did, I looked gorgeous damn, I paid extra for the miracle she performed.

Next was the makeup, Asher said we wouldn’t do that until we were ready to go so I focused on not destroying the beauty on my head.

I walked into campus a different person, my head held up high, my shoulders squared, my feet tired, i was famished and parched, I looked like a zombie, I certainly felt like one.

I waited patiently for Asher to finish cooking so we could eat.

I was banned from my kitchen, not that I couldn’t cook but it was just one mistake and no one would let me hear the end of it, so I was banned from any cooking activities except chopping onions, it was supposed to be my punishment, you know, let me cry for nothing.

After we had stuffed ourselves, yeah we ended up ordering pizza, Asher can’t cook to save her life and I was too young to die, I let her mess around with the ingredients before I saved us all the stress.

I settled for a good novel, I had a lot I hadn’t started yet, I took one from my makeshift library, laid down on my bed and dived into a world of romance.

Another cliché bullshit, why must every love story end happily, I mean I wanted to be happy but most of these stories missed the parts where it seemed real, the pain, now I was getting depressed, I wanted a happily ever after but not without the realness, not without the whole backstory.

The greatest of all loves had the craziest backstory.

“Katya, Ray said he wants to meet up, I’ll be in his room till we leave for the club, just text me or call” Asher said as she hurriedly picked her things and zoomed out of my room like her panties were on fire.

Yup someone was getting some sexy time, I chuckled softly, they really went well together.

I zoned back to my book, Santiago was about to propose to Rina, she says yes, they get a cute Italian baby, the baby gets kidnapped by his ex, they go to save the baby, she whips out a gun, Santiago jumps in front of the bullet, she’s arrested, Santiago dies but the love Rina has for Santiago brings him back from the jaws of death.

Then why was XXXTENTACION still in the grave, wasn’t my love enough for him?.

I tossed the book to the end of the bed, rolled on my tummy, tucked my arms underneath me as I let out a sigh.

There was still some time left and I wanted to give those F buddies time to reunite, I set an alarm for 6, tossed and turned looking for the perfect position.

I was out like a light before I could whisper Jack Robinson.

**

Bang Bang Bang

Hell no

Bang Bang Bang

Who was dying?

“Open the door you idiot” Ray screamed from the other side.

I blinked once, twice, was I forgetting something? My eyes widened as I shot up from the bed, I glanced briefly at the time, 7:30 glared right back at me, shit, alright I could still survive, I’ll just pretend I'm not hom-

“Don’t even think about it Katya, open this door right now” Raymond screeched like a banshee, damn it, I scrubbed my hands on my face as I readied myself for my demise.

I swung the door open, my smile as wide as my fear, huh? No one was there, was I dreaming? I didn’t see him till the last second, he was barreling towards me at full speed, all I could do was brace myself for impact, we collided and down I went, I hit the ground hard with Ray landing on me.

My eyes tingled but I held my tears at bay, this fucker, I was going to kill him when I get my breath back, I was going to murder him when I could feel my limbs again, I groaned as he rolled off me.

Asher walked in to us groaning and grunting as we battled with our legs and pinkies.

“Children Children, we have a club to get to by 8, now GET YOUR ASSES OFF THE FLOOR BEFORE I MAKE YOU”

We scrambled to our feet, tumbling over each other before we stood at attention, women were really scary.

In 20 minutes sharp we were good to go, in 5 we were at the club.

I looked around the dimly lit interior, flinched at the loud music, the dance floor was really intimidating, if you looked hard enough, you might need to purify your eyes.

We made a bee line to the bar, I didn’t love alcohol but it was ok, I never drank to stupor or had nasty hangovers, immediately I felt the burn in my lower belly and I begin to loosen up, I switch to water.

Ray and Asher were taking shots after shots, I knew I would get wasted if I joined them so I went to the dance floor, different scents mixed together, sweat, cigarette, booze, it wasn’t attractive but who cared.

I danced with strangers, sang at the top of my lungs, squeezed in with the crowd, it was really hot here, everybody was sandwiched together, hands flew everywhere but who cared.

This guy had been dancing with me for a while, he was attractive but like I said, I wasn’t in the mood for whatever anyone else had to offer me, I slowed the sway of my hips, lengthened the distance between us but he was persistent.

I snuck to the other side of the dance floor, still he followed, he was starting to creep me out, didn’t people understand body languages anymore.

I tried and tried to lose him but he kept resurfacing, I wasn’t going to have a bad day so I waited for him to catch up so I could go ahead and have a nice time.

“Wow you’re so hard to keep track of, I love the game of cat and mice we just played” The creep said as he finally caught up, his voice was very deep.

“I'm sorry if you thought it was a game but it’s not, I'm not really interested, I just wanted to let you know so you would stop trailing after me” I said the nicest way I could.

He looked stunned for just a second before his annoying smirk masked it “You expect me to believe you made me chase you just to say no?”

“Yes, I didn’t tell you to chase me, that was all on you, I'm flattered really but I'm not interested” I said calmly

“Come on now, you’re a real pretty girl, I can show you a good time, besides not to brag but I'm really good” I rolled my eyes as he stepped too close for comfort.

“Thanks for the offer but no, I'm going to go now” I said as I tried to step aside, he blocked my path, I went the other way, he blocked me again, I was starting to get really angry, this all seemed like a joke to him.

“Really love bug, I just want to know you inside out, is that so har-“

“I said no, now if you'll excuse me, I need to see someone” I cut him off as I shoved him aside to find a way back.

He grabbed my arm spinning me around, “You can’t just leave, at least give me a kiss first” he insisted bringing his face dangerously close to mine.

I tried to wiggle out of his grasp, he didn’t even have to try to hold me there.

“I believe she said no Wilson” A voice said from behind me, we both stiffened.

“Miss c-h-erry, I didn’t know you were he-re” he stuttered.

“Well I am, I believe you have something that belongs to me” cherry said coolly.

“She’s you-rs? I didn’t know that Miss cherry, I'm really sorry love bu-“

“She’s not your love bug or anything, you're dismissed, get lost” Cherry all but screamed at him, he almost tripped trying to get away.

We stood there in silence, I still didn’t turn around, I wanted to see her, touch her, kiss her, God I had it bad, being away from her and having her this close to me now was torture, I just wanted to hold her.

“Are we going to stand here all night or you’re waiting for the next man to sweep you off your feet” Cherry said, I felt the bite of her words but I had had weeks to steel my heart and cage my emotions.

“You're one to talk” I retorted, she flinched at my tone but her eyes didn’t leave mine, I wasn’t backing down either.

“You're the one who won’t talk to me, you won’t even look at me” she said, I could hear the pain in her voice, her face was hollow, she didn’t even fill out her clothes anymore, the bags under her eyes made my resolve weaken.

“You didn’t acknowledge me so why would I acknowledge you? I'm a friend, really? then let’s just be friends, I didn’t leave everything, turn my back on everything for this, I can still find someone who would love me for me, who wouldn’t be ashamed of me, whose tou-“

She cut me off with her lips, her hands holding my head firmly as she staked her claim, my legs felt like jelly, I missed her hands on my body.

She pushed me into an office behind me, I didn’t even know it was there, from this office, you could see everything outside, no one could see us here.

She attacked me, her lips, her hands, she was everywhere, I tried to touch her but she wouldn’t let me, this was torture, she kissed me till I ran out of breath, I tried to slow her down, to set a pace but she wouldn’t let me, she dominated this arena and I was her slave.

I tried to get my bearings, to dominate like I wanted to but I was a helpless moaning mess, I just wanted her to stop the ache.

“Mine” Cherry growled as she shoved two fingers into me.

I yelped, she was stretching me, my eyes stung and I let the tears fall, this wasn’t love making, this was brutal, I knew we needed this.

She pumped rhythmically, the pain was blinding but I held on, soon all I could feel was pleasure, I had only a second of bliss before she added another finger.

I screamed as I tried to pull away, she was stretching me badly, the pain was unbearable but she kept going, she held me down as she began to suck my clit, pain plus pleasure was a heady mix.

She went deeper with each thrust, her tongue relentlessly caressed my clit, her left hand squeezed my breasts as she pounded deeper and deeper into me.

I was close, I was really close to climax, sweat beaded my forehead as I tried to soften my fall but cherry was relentless, she never slowed down, I tried once again to get away from her hungry hands and greedy mouth but she pinned me down, repositioning me so I was lying flat on the desk with my left leg over her shoulder.

This position was worse, I felt her deeper than before, she seemed to know that cause she increased her pace, I couldn’t stop my screams anymore, I felt the thrill start from my belly and the tip of my toes, as one descended, the other climbed rapidly, my legs shook as I tried and failed to close them.

I screamed, begged, scratched, cried as my release shook me inside out still cherry didn’t stop, I couldn’t stop shaking, I was more sensitive than before, I cried, begged but she didn’t stop.

Before long I could feel it again, this time it was different, I wanted to pee, I needed to pee, I tried pushing, kicking but cherry held on strong, I tried to form the words but my screams and moans were the only sounds I could make.

At the last moment cherry curved all her fingers, I could swear I saw stars, I couldn’t stop my legs from shaking at every last drop was milked from me.

I think I passed out at some point cause when I came to I was on the couch with my head on cherry’s chest, she had cleaned up our mess and even cleaned me, I tried to think but I couldn’t even function right now.

“Hey just sleep mi amor, I wore you out, I'm sorry but I really missed you” cherry said as she stroked my hair, I loved when she did that.

“Who was he?” I asked sleepily.

“Who’s Raymond” She asked coolly.

I smiled as I snuggled into her chest, evading my question I see, who knew cherry was so hot when she was jealous.

“Ray Ray is just a friend of mine”

“He didn’t look like a friend to me with his arms around you” I stroked her chest, she was pretty when jealous, when angry, I didn’t want to find out.

“He’s just a friend babe, if you knew him that well, you'll also know he has a girlfriend” I giggled as she blushed when I called her babe.

“I don’t like him” she grumbled.

“Baby, he's really nice when you get to know him, don’t be such a sour puss” I said patting her chest.

“Hmmph whatever” she mumbled

“So… who is he” I asked softly

“Nate?”

“Yea Nate” I grumbled

“Are you a sour puss baby?” she teased, she laughed as I hit her arm.

“He’s just Nate love, he’s nothing”

“Nothing?”  I asked

“Yes amore mio, just nothing, now go to sleep” she said kissing my head.

Sleep was very far from my mind as i nibbled on her neck making her groan, I wanted to touch her, Lord knows I couldn’t handle another orgasm.

“No love, I'm satisfied baby” she mumbled as I whined, I wanted her now.

I shifted my focus straddling her as I kissed her chest softly making her moan, bingo!

“Katya stop it right now or I’ll fuck you with my strap” that humbled me real quick, I jumped off her, turned to my side of the couch as I squeezed my eyes shut.

She chuckled as she spooned me kissing my shoulder “Night amore” she whispered

I waited till her breathing evened out, I turned so I could see her beautiful face.

She still didn’t tell me who the fuck Nate was?