Chapter 1

The girl is now sitting restlessly. His eyes incessantly turned toward the exit and the middle-aged man who was sitting a few meters in front of him. The man should have been out 5 minutes ago. But it seems he is still loyal to sit and flip through the paper in front of him.

Again, for the umpteenth time Shavira exhaled.  This really sucks, he thought.  He opened his cell phone and typed something in there.

  Me: Where are you?

Just like before, the message was only sent unread by the recipient. Shavira gave a faint smile. Shortly thereafter he opened the cellphone gallery and looked for a photo there. When he found her, again, he smiled faintly.

In the photo, he is smiling while holding the arm of the boy beside him.

'Now you change,' he thought. He still clearly remembers the photo he took 4 years ago, when everything was still fine.

"Okay, we end the meeting this time. See you next week."

The lecturer's voice brought Shavira back from her reverie. He looked around and found that his friends had started to leave, and the lecturer was not there.  Relieved, Shavira tidied up her book and immediately left her classroom.

"Sha, where are you going? Hurry, let's go to the canteen." Karin intercepted Shavira's hand which made her have to stop her steps.

Shavira slowly let go of Karin's hand.  "Sorry Kar, I want to find Raga first. You go ahead, okay."

Just as Shavira had walked a few steps, Karin again intercepted him. "Sha, stop."  Karin showed a sad face.

Shavira smiles. "It's just a misunderstanding between us, once this is over, everything will be fine."

Karin looked incredulous. "But this is the umpteenth time Sha."

“Then, I'll try again. Okay, I'm afraid he will hurry home. Go ahead Kar, bye. "  Shavira left while waving at Karin.

Karin could only shake her head and step towards her original destination, the canteen. It was useless for him to give advice to Shavira, his best friend would stick to his stance. He knew very well, if Shavira's aim really couldn't be stopped, unless Shavira himself stopped him. The goal is to make Raga see it again.

  ***

Shavira breathed a sigh of relief when she saw Raga's friends just leaving her class. That means Raga is around them. With a big smile, Shavira approached Raga's friends.

  "Hi." His greeting.

  "Hi, Shavira. Just alone, where's Karin?"  Thats Dion one of Raga's friends who likes Karin. Unfortunately on this campus, Dion has many rivals in getting Karin.

Gerka stabbed Dion's head and made him moan in pain. “In your head, all of your Karin's contents are there, right? Every now and then, think about a pile of tasks."

"People like it too, it's clear in my head it's all Karin." Dion stroked his head and sneered at Gerka. "Besides, the matter of duty is to be Satria's and Raga's business." He added.

Satria, who heard that, also hit Dion's head. "Oh, so you've been using me all this time."

Feeling the pain in his head, again Dion could only caress it. "Aishh, yes, don't use the name too."

"So what?" Again Dion got a toyoran on his head. It was not from Gerka or Satria, but from Raga who had just left the class.

“Aishh, how come I feel like a stepchild here for a long time. Already ah, I'm leaving, I'm annoyed with you guys." Still holding his head, Dion walked away from there with pouted lips.

 "Yeah, the chili is cranky."  Gerka laughed.

Satria patted Gerka's shoulder. “Ger, if he comes home first. How are we? "

As if he realized something, Gerka patted his forehead. "Dead! I forgot, he's an impromptu driver. Chase Sat! "

"We go ahead, Sha, bye!" After saying this, Satria and Gerka immediately ran after Dion to the parking lot.

Shavira could only smile and shake his head to see the behavior of Raga's friends. As if remembering her original goal, Shavira immediately turned to face Raga.

  "Don't you see my message?"

  The body exhales. "No time."

"I see, yeah. Let's go home together, it's been a while since we came home together. Besides, I also have something to say ... "

"Sha, I have other business." Without hearing or seeing Shavira, Raga just left.  This made Shavira froze while staring at Raga's back.

This is not the first time Raga has been so nonchalant. But still, this made her heart ache.

Previously, there wasn't a steep distance between them. Everything is alright. In the past, Raga really cared about him, loved him and was even afraid to hurt him. But without reason, Raga moved abroad. And after returning, everything has changed.  The body now is not the body Shavira used to know.

When she realizes Raga's change in her, Shavira is determined to find out the reason and make Raga back to her old self. But it doesn't seem as easy as Shavira imagined. Everything is too complicated, added with Raga as if she didn't want to be around him for too long.

  'I miss you, Raga.'

  ***

"Have you met Raga?" Karin ate a spoonful of chicken noodles while staring at her cellphone.

Shavira only smiled. After Raga's nonchalant attitude, which immediately left her, suddenly Shavira received a message from Karin. Karin told him to follow into the cafeteria, as if she knew that what Shavira was going to do this time was bound to fail too. And here is Shavira now, fulfilling Karin's invitation.

"Why would you invite me here, if you end up busy yourself with chicken noodles plus a cellphone," he said ignoring Karin's question. This time Shavira doesn't want to talk about Raga.

Karin looked up immediately showing a grin. "Hehehe, I just finished posting a photo of chicken noodles. Uh-know, many have commented. Wait a minute, I'll reply one by one. You just order first." Back Karin continued her activities on the cellphone.

Instead of waiting for Karin to finish with her social media activities, it is better to go to order food. Shavira stood up and walked towards Mrs. Aminah's merchandise which was famous for its legendary hodgepodge.

Today the canteen is busy, so Shavira has to be patient waiting for his turn to order.  To prevent boredom, Shavira opened her cellphone screen and started opening her class chatroom. There were 302 unread messages. Maybe there is something important there, about assignments for example.

  "Really! Gosh, I didn't expect it. "

  "You just don't expect, especially me."

  "Is he sweet, by the way?"

The conversation of the junior who was beside him, made Shavira's concentration slightly shattered. He also chose to speed up reading the messages.

"Yes, he was not sweet, instead I bought him a watch."

"Where, I want to see. Geez, the clock is really good. Is this really from that Raga, Raga Wiratama? ”

Hearing Raga's name, the success made Shavira stop reading the message.  Quickly he turned to the side to see the speaker.

“Even though I just messaged him asking for a walk, even though I thought he wouldn't respond to me. Suddenly a notification came from him who accepted my invitation. I'm really happy An." The girl smiled happily while stroking the clock given by Raga.

"But you know what? Raga often changes girls. "

"I know. I really know. But An, Raga is a playboy who can't be used at all. "

“I agree with you. Hahahaha let's go to class, I'm going to come in soon."

"Okay. I also want to show off."

"Please, I know how come you've been walking with Raga."

Right now Shavira is not in a state of enthusiasm to order food. So he decided to return to Karin's table with nothing.

"Where's your order, Sha?"

"Lazy to queue."  Shavira chose to return to reading the messages that had been delayed.

Karin looked closely at Shavira. "I know that gloomy faces like this. You just found Raga's chilli," he guessed.

Shavira just nodded without looking away at the screen of his cellphone.

"What are you thinking about? Besides, you also know, if every girl in this corner of the campus, all the former chilies are Raga's."

"I didn't think about it, it's just that I hope Raga will stop acting like that."

Karin laughed. "Stop? Even in Ruqyah hundreds of times, I think it will be difficult for him to stop."

"I have no idea. Besides, Raga was never really with them. It's just a kind of fun for him, at least I'm a little relieved by that fact."

“Then, if she finds someone she can feel comfortable with and stick to their relationship? You're going to stop?"

Shavira choked. So far he had never thought that one day something like that would happen. He just kept emphasizing himself, if Raga will return to the way it used to be. If that was the case, would he be able to stop hoping?